It is now 0529 and I have been awake for more than an hour. I have not been waking up before my alarms lately. I have not felt like I had the time to blog with everything going on. I am still trying to get the house cleaned. I made a big improvement but then couldn't work afterwards for days because my back hurt so badly. I am feeling better today. I was not in pain yesterday but was slow moving. I was able to take a shower yesterday. I have been meaning to take a shower for days now, but couldn't get myself into the shower. I'm just struggling with pain and energy levels. The day before yesterday a huge lightening struck very nearby and scared the life out of me. We lost internet connection and are still without reliable internet connection. We have a tech coming on Monday to see what the problem is. We might need new equipment. I called Spectrum yesterday and tried to see if it could be fixed by following their instructions. Later, they found that there was another outage closeby. Internet connection was restored but is not stable. We never had this problem before.
Also the day before yesterday I helped Christinia buy Harlee school clothes. She wanted me "to do my thing." LOL I love shopping! I got her some cute school clothes. Hopefully they get here quickly. For some reason even though I put Christinia's address, it went back to my shipping address. So now I have to ship it to them when it gets here.
Caleb doesn't start school until the end of August. Harlee starts school on August 8th.
We are still in family therapy. I am still in individual therapy. We are looking to get Caleb in individual therapy and ABA therapy for Autism.
I spent the morning rewatching a Yoga for Trauma class. I have to answer questions and I could not remember what I learned. It's a lot to try and remember. I am on week 3 of class. I think there are 6 weeks total. I will not complete it in time for graduation. It's too much information. I am struggling just to get anything done. I am not keeping up with class.
I guess Monday was the hottest recorded day on Earth. I believe it. I have been staying inside as much as possible.
I finally mailed out Caleb's Spring school photos. Caleb helped me clean off my table where I had stacks of mail and other papers and I found his school photos again.
I gave up on trying to live a keto lifestyle. It's too hard to maintain. I am still trying to live low-carb for the sake of my diabetes. At least now I can have grilled cheese sandwiches! I love grilled cheese sandwiches. I miss eating fruits too.
Today I am going to try to clean up more. Caleb was donated a new bed, so we have the old bed to get rid of. I met a guy on Facebook dating named Kenny. He offered to come and help. He lives closeby. It's embarrassing to need help to clean my own house, but I am tired of struggling.
Carla is coming over today too. I don't know what time though. She usually comes around 1300.
I miss my dad. I have a canvas print of his photo hanging on the wall that I look up from my computer and see.
I tried reaching Mathew. He didn't respond. I was asking for his mailing address in order to be able to send him Caleb's photo. I text messaged him along with RJ, Jeanette, Brian, and Sarah. Jeanette and Sarah responded.
I'm still waiting to hear about my VA disability claims and Aid & Attendance. I don't know why it takes so long when my medical history reflects all my claims.
Bella turned 10 years old this month. My girl is getting old. I have never loved a dog so much.
I am still obsessing about hurricane evacuation plans.
I almost got my shed fully paid off! The next payment I make should be the last! Yay! I did it!
I haven't been up to much. Just surviving. I am still dealing with social services. I am still dealing with my health. I have been following politics. I am glad Kamala Harris is going to run for President. I hate Trump with a passion. I can't believe we are losing our rights we fought so hard for. Women should be able to make decisions about their own bodies, and whether or not they want to be pregnant or give birth. Doctors should be able to save the lives of mothers. Why are books being banned? Tax the rich already!
I can't watch the news. There is nothing but bad stuff reported and it drives me nuts. Like I don't already have enough trouble with my anxiety and C-PTSD.
I don't have a lot on my mind now. I wish I had been able to sleep. I feel like going back to bed with Bella, and just petting her.
