This Thanksgiving there was alot to be grateful for. The local American Legion donated our fully cooked Thanksgiving dinner from Publix. The American Legion Chaplain and his wife delivered the meal. I was so grateful just to have support this Thanksgiving. I haven't been feeling that great lately. I overworked trying to clean the living room while Caleb was at school one day. I pushed myself too hard and caused myself to have a fibromyalgia flare up that lasted for days on end. My entire body was in pain and there was nothing I could do to change it. I only wanted to rest in bed, but there was a lot of other work to be done. I felt guilty for not being able to clean the entire house before Thanksgiving holiday break. I wanted to prepare the kitchen for Nana to be able to cook the way she wanted. I was not able to completely clean the kitchen the way I wanted to. I was hoping to catch up on all the laundry so that there would be no more laundry on the floor in the laundry room, but I could not do that either. I wanted to vacuum the floors and deep clean the carpets with the carpet cleaner. I couldn't do it. I was so disheartened by inability to get things done. I was in a dark place mentally when the Chaplain and his wife brought the food over. I was happy to see them both, and they changed the way my day was going just by showing up.
Nana wanted to watch the Thanksgiving parade in the living room on Thanksgiving day. I was trying to make that possible. Instead, I asked if she would be ok with just moving Caleb's tv into her room to replace her tv. Her tv muted itself and we could not unmute it. She could watch her tv, but not hear anything even though we changed the volume settings. Caleb's tv was donated to him by our neighbor, Chris. He had it in his room for awhile until he moved it into my room when he was sleeping in my bed. Caleb started sleeping in the living room because he said it was too cold in my room. He stopped sleeping in his room because he destroyed his room completely and has not cleaned it up. Anyway, we moved Caleb's tv to Nana's room so she could watch the Thanksgiving parade in her room instead of the living room.
I offered to prepare the Thanksgiving dinner for us, so Nana would not have to worry about how she was going to get around. Nana has a hard time walking, and when we go anywhere, she uses a wheelchair. We kept things simple so I could make our dinner a reality. Originally we were going to cook everything from scratch, but when I started feeling badly, we realized that was not a good idea. Nana found the fully prepared meals from Lowe's Foods and Publix, and we chose Publix because it was only $69.99. It was a lot cheaper to purchase the meal that way than it would have been to cook from scratch.
Nana bought these really good frozen cinnamon rolls for me to heat on Thanksgiving morning that turned out really good. I woke up really early on Thanksgiving day, and Caleb woke up shortly after I did. I watched the introductions of the Thanksgiving Parade with Nana in her room. We had lil smokies in bbq sauce that I love. Later I ate the cauliflower she bought just for me to eat with Thousand Island dressing. It wasn't until the afternoon that I began preparing our dinner. It didn't take long because everything was already cooked. The Publix meal came with a fully cooked 10lbs. turkey, cornbread stuffing, mashed potatoes, cranberry relish, gravy, and marshmallow delight. The Chaplain added to our order, sweet potato casserole, corn on the cob, pumpkin pie, and apple pie.
I heated the turkey for too long, but it was still edible. I didn't like how the dark meat turned out, but I was ok with the white meat with some gravy. I liked all the sides. They were good. They weren't Nana's sides, but we didn't spend all day preparing food in the kitchen either.
Today is Sunday after Thanksgiving. I have been returning to my dad's memorial webpage a lot this holiday break.
Black Friday comes after Thanksgiving. I can't say I wasn't tempted. I woke up really early and spent all morning browsing online at the sales. I ordered some things that I wanted and needed at the same time. I ordered something for Nana for Christmas too.
I just found out yesterday that the Soldier's Angels application for Christmas support was approved! I think Caleb will get at least one Christmas present from the list I provided.
I also found out yesterday that I am being given unlimited access to the Yoga For Trauma program. I confessed to the teacher that life got in my way trying to care for Caleb and Nana as a disabled person. It was too much to handle. She offered me open access to the program so that I could complete it in my own time. I was so happy to read it in the email I got yesterday!
I had to make some hard decisions this holiday break too. Some of my subscriptions I use for my business were renewing and it was up to me to choose if I wanted to continue trying to make my business work or not. I chose to keep trying.
I have been getting these emails from Proofread Anywhere for a long time. I was interested in finding a way to earn money that wasn't from Healinergy LLC. They were running a special for Black Friday with the programs heavily discounted. I decided to jump right on it after a long time thinking about whether or not I would be able to complete it. I am praying that I can do better from here on out. I need to be able to earn money in the time that I have available. I don't have a lot of available time is the problem. I am overworked as it is and not completing my goals. I am not getting a lot of support from Caleb. I don't know what his problem is, but he can't /won't clean up after himself.
The week before this past week both Caleb and I had multiple appointments to go to. Everyday that week I was driving to appointments for one or both of us. This coming up week I have to find Caleb a dentist in his insurance network that is not far away. He has a toothache that won't go away. He ruined his relationship with the dentist I found by resisting efforts to treat his cavities. Caleb can't stand needles apparently. Now I have to find a new dentist because that dentist won't try to treat him again after how he acted at the last appointment.
This morning I finally got so cold that I put on the heat in the central air and asked Caleb for my Army hoodie. I was previously wearing a tank top and shorts because I was sweating and working. It's finally really cold this morning. I even had to pull out the fleece throw blanket and use it under my regular quilt to stay warm. Bella was not in bed with me like she normally is. She tends to keep me warm. So does Bubba, but Bubba was with Caleb last night in his room. Normally I just cover myself with the quilt to sleep. It doesn't trap my body heat like other blankets do, so I do not wakeup all drenched in my sweat.
It looks like the sun is coming up. It is time for me to eat breakfast and take my morning medications. I pray that today is good and productive day. Yesterday was. I was able to take a shower yesterday. Then Caleb and I went out and had some Taco Bell before going to Walmart to pick up a few groceries. After that I went to Amsterdam Life in Southport to buy my vaping supplies. We came home and eventually after doing some of my hape' I washed some dishes.
Today I want to make progress on the laundry while cleaning up the kitchen and living room. Caleb is already being resistant, so we will see if he is helpful at all. We have to get as much trash out of house as possible because trash pickup is Monday mornings. Caleb asked if he could have some money for his games, and I told him he has to work to earn his money. I think he understands, but I bring it up all the time now to reinforce the idea that nobody gets paid without getting the work done first.
Thank you for reading! Have blessed day! Keep us in your prayers! Be blessed!
