Today's prompt is " What new word have you learned?" I recently learned how to say "You are welcome" in Chinese, although I have already forgotten it.
Today is July 8th, a Thursday. It is now 5:24 in the morning. I could not sleep due to terrible gas gas from kimchi. It has been about a month since my last entry. We celebrated the 4th of July in Ft. Bragg with my dad. Caleb took a photo with Captain America! It feels like alot has happened and I don't have the energy to go through it all right now. Let's skip.
On Tuesday I had my appt with the Pharm-D, Dr. Amanda Karels, by phone. She increased my insulin to 12 units a day. Yes, that's right. I have been taking insulin for about a week now. I started at 10 units of insulin per day.
On Tuesday afternoon I had my annual physical with Ms. Miller. I asked about whether or not I was in menopause. I asked about whether or not I have Pelvic Inflammatory Disease. I asked if she would sign my papers for aid and attendance. The answer to signing the papers was that " it will make it easier for you to be overweight, and I don't want it to be easier for you to be overweight." I cried. I was asked if I have considered weight loss surgery.
Skip ahead. Wednesday I had physical therapy in the office. Yes, I started physical therapy last week too. I got a call about scheduling an appointment to evaluate my mental health for bariatric surgery (maybe that was Tuesday?). I was informed that I would getting a call to schedule an appointment with imaging for a gall bladder ultrasound, and that I needed to also go to the lab to get a stool sample kit.
So, here we are. I am in the beginning of trying insulin to reduce my glucose numbers. I am in the beginning of physical therapy to reduce my pain from everyday walking and movements. Now, I am in the beginning of preparation for bariatric surgery. Oh! I forgot to mention, last week was the first appointment for introducing me to EMDR process for my Military Sexual Trauma. Lots going on.
A couple of weeks ago, we drove to Virginia to pick up a 2007 Ford Expedition Eddie Bauer EL for my dad. He wanted a truck, and finally we found him one worth the asking price.
I feel like I have been back and forth to Lumberton alot lately. It messes up my routine. I don't sleep well there. All meals are from restaurants because my dad and Sharon live in a motel. It's not helpful when I am trying to lose weight. You offer me food, and I'm going to take it!
Today Caleb needs to get as much of his annual end of grade testing done as possible. I have no appointments, and neither does he nor Bella.
I have so much work to do around the house. I have paperwork to do for myself. I have paperwork to do for my dad. It can be overwhelming to think about everything going on right now.
We are expecting the remnants of Tropical Storm Elsa today too. Possible tornadoes. Lots of rain.
Tuesday I went for a walk down the street after I ate dinner. Ms. Miller said it would be good to walk after meals to reduce my glucose numbers. Caleb and I went to the Chinese buffet in Wilmington for dinner, so there was a n hour between eating and walking. I took my glucose reading before I went for a walk and got 272. I came back home after walking 0.65 miles with Bella down the street and back, and did another glucose reading and got 249.
I had a meal replacement shake for dinner on Wednesday and went for a walk afterwards. Before the walk I was at 283. After the walk I was at 282. Same walk as the day before. I don't really understand it. I did not give myself time to digest before I walked. On Tuesday, I had "real" food and drove home for an hour before I walked. Hmm..
Also, completely unrelated, is that I am no longer eligible for food stamps. Apparently something changed in the wording of the income limitations and now my VA disability is being counted as income, where it wasn't before. So, this is the last month I have of food stamps benefits.
Caleb's phone broke. He woke up one morning and it would not turn on, nor would it charge. He has been without a phone for about a week now, and it is really hard to deal with. I can not leave him at home now because if there was an emergency, he would have no way to call for help.
I have fallen behind in my meditation with The Magdalene Rose Temple. I have not been paying attention to Ethony Dawn's class materials. I have not been reading my books.
I am still trying to pay down my debts on my credit cards so that I can refinance my house. I am still trying to figure out how I am going to fix the house before I refinance the house to qualify for another VA loan. It's really a mess that I'm in. I can't work. I have no time, nor energy. I am being pulled from every direction. My dad needs a team of people helping him with all his needs. I am not even on top of my needs!
August will be here soon enough, and a new school year will begin. I have to teach Caleb how to do simple math, and write essays coherently.
It is tourist season here in Oak Island. It seems like most businesses do not have enough help right now.
I am really going to need that child tax credit refund that is supposed to be coming up soon.
I still have not cleared my porch of my dad's stuff. It's too damn hot to do it now. Also, I need someone to take the contractor bags of trash away to the dump for me after I go the things he left behind.
I totally forgot about my classes I bought on Udemy! I am not finished with one of them, and haven't even started on like 17 of them!
I try to keep in contact with a few people so I do not lose myself in the madness. I text Rachel. This year is our 20th high school graduation anniversary. Well, it's mine anyway.
My friend Brenda is also a veteran and we keep in touch too. She has recently gone through surgery, and is in recovery. She is also diabetic and knows my struggles to get my glucose down. She is a good accountability partner for my walks and exercises because she exercises more than I do (which isn't much yet).
The sun is rising. It is now 6:13 in the morning. I feel like I am scattered all over the place because I have not written in my journal for so long, and so much is going on.
Caleb has his Covid-19 vaccine now, and so does my dad and Sharon. I had mine from earlier this year.
Bella has been licking her paws alot lately, so I am going to try to give her a special "Sensitive" kibble by Purina. I hope she enjoys it and that it gives her relief.
I have not necessarily been having the same sleep patterns that I did when I first started this blog. While I might still get up at 2 am, I do not stay awake. I have a few oranges or maybe a grapefruit, and go to bed.
I called my Granny and Pepere the other day to make sure that they were ok because of the Tropical storm Elsa. They were doing fine. I asked Granny about her diabetes and how much insulin she was taking, just out of curiosity.
Oh so the latest about my siblings is that Eric has blocked me on Facebook, which was the only way I had contact with him. SO now all 3 of my siblings have blocked me! Must be a Fucking record. I don't think I deserve that kind of treatment, but they have each made their decisions. I HATE Trump! And I will never change that. If that means we can't be family, then so be it, I guess. I'm not the one blocking my brothers and sister.
I have a packet of paperwork to fill out about pursuing Caleb's biological father through the Department of Social Services. I need to fill that out and get it turned in.
I have dropped my vaping habit almost entirely. I am now vaping 0 mg nicotine e-juice, and can go a day without vaping at all.
I think I am ready to check my glucose and take my morning medications. It is now 6:30 in the morning.
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