Today's prompt is " Which friend(s) did you last speak to?" I last spoke to Christinia because she lives with me LOL.
It is 4:31 a.m. and I have been awake for about an hour now. I spent some time giving some love to Bella on the couch. Yesterday was Sunday and I was scheduled to spend from 1000 to 1700 doing an online live zoom class in Reiki Level 2. I was excused from class around 1500 because I was exhausted. I did get my Level 2 attunement, so that was the part I could not miss. The class was being recorded, and so Michal, the Reiki Master, was ok with me catching up with the rest of the class before Thursday's class.
Christinia made jalepeno poppers and deviled eggs for me for dinner. These are things Caleb won't eat, and since he went to stay the night at Gage's house, it made sense. Caleb was allowed to go Gage's house after cleaning his room. Christinia drove him to Gage's house, while I started my Reiki Level 2 class. The whole day was about Reiki level 2. I was beyond tired by the time I was excused. I had a rough night Saturday night. I kept waking up every couple of hours and woke up in the morning feeling like I had not slept at all. I needed a shower, but did not wake up early enough to take one. I finally got a shower after I left class.
I did not have enough time to call my dad in the morning yesterday, but I caught with him after I took my shower around 1600. He was getting ready to eat BLT sandwiches for dinner, so the call did not last as long as usual, but it was to good to hear him in good spirits.
Saturday... hmm... We went to run errands Saturday. We needed to go to Walmart to buy a few things for Christinia's trip, pick up meds from CVS, and I wanted to go to the Lowe's Foods salad bar for lunch. Before we left, I organized my crystals into the plastic jars I bought for them. I got most of them put away the way I wanted, and will be ready to shelve them once the shelves are up in my room.
While at Walmart, I had Harlee in the cart. She was saying "Hi!" to everyone we passed. It was the cutest thing ever. She was so happy, even without a phone.
Friday Caleb had a dermatology appointment in Wilmington in the afternoon. That went well. We found that the cause of his chronic itchy back is the accumulation of dead skin cells around the hair follicles. It is something I made sure was not a result of improper washing. He has been prescribed an exfoliating lotion for his back that can be bought over-the counter. The other thing was his toe nail condition. He has a toe nail fungus which will not cease. He was prescribed a 3 month dose of something that should take care of it. He had to go for a lab to have blood drawn while there. I have to wait for the results before giving Caleb the oral anti-fungal medication.
Thursday I had my occupational therapy examination appointment at the VA clinic in Wilmington. It went well. I was glad I was working with a woman occupational therapist because the things I revealed were intimate details that I would not want to share with a man. I went home with a kit of things to help me around the house, and some things on order to come through the mail. I will be getting a shower bar installed in my shower, and a bidet in my bathroom.
Friday I also tried to follow up with Ms. Miller about my aid and attendance form return. I got alot of bullshit replies funneled through the nurse. Finally, I asked, "What exactly is the problem?" The nurse responded that she would ask Ms. Miller to reconsider filling out the form.
This weekend was pretty good considering last weekend required a visit from the police. Yeah, that's right. Caleb lost his temper and got violent with Christinia, and then ended up hitting me in the arm. When we went to see Ms. Kathy, his psychiatrist, I told her what was going on since the last appointment. One weekend , a visit to the ER for suicidal thoughts, and the next weekend a police call due to being violent in the house. I asked to adjust his medications and she did. He is still in intensive-in-home therapy. He was supposed to be going to a residential behavioral health facility at the end of January, but a bed did not open. I was told that it looks like it will be mid-March before he gets a bed.
With all this Reiki stuff I'm doing, I am going through a 21-day detox since the Level 1 attunement. I am now going through a post-Level 2 attunement 21-day detox. It is when I may go through emotions and feeling badly with physical symptoms due to old energy being released. With my nightly Reiki self-healing sessions I have felt a huge weight on my heart chakra- my chest has been in pain. It subsides after the Reiki, but returns. I couldn't figure out what could be weighing on me so heavily. Then, last night, I finally cried. I miss Caleb. He has been away only for the day, but I miss having him around. What am I going to do when he is gone for 4-6 months? I broke down and cried from my chest, hopefully releasing alot of pain. I feel better now, but I know it is still there. It will be there for as long as I miss my son.
I have been trying to help Christinia with her schoolwork, but I am being pulled in every direction to get so many other things done. I am waiting to get the electrical problem fixed outside. I am waiting for the cabinet installers to quote me on labor of removal and installation of cabinets. I need to schedule car maintenance for the Mazda. I had to pay the bills. There always seems to be a reason to go grocery shopping. I have appointments nearly everyday in Wilmington. I barely took a shower this week. I am in the process of getting the house refinanced. I am waiting to hear if I won the free roof for veterans. I am trying to find the best way to spend the rest of this loan money on fixing the house, which means prioritizing tasks and getting quotes. I am trying to keep Caleb busy and out of trouble. I am trying to keep the laundry going so we don't get a build up... the dishes too. It's just alot. I have to wash Bella sometime soon. I have a notebook full of things I have to get done sooner than later, and I have been exhausted to boot!
I was being good about caring for my teeth, then fell off the wagon when I got too tired one day and just wanted to go to bed. Once I made that decision once, it was that decision every night afterwards. I finally got back on track last night. I bought some new dental tools after my last dental cleaning was so horrible. It really hurt! All because I haven't been brushing my teeth regularly. So, I bought a Sonic Care tooth brush and a water pik. I have not even taken them out of the box to read the instructions yet. I forgot I bought them. My memory is not so good these days. Ms. Miller claims it is because of my sleep habits, and nothing more. I think I am taking on more than I should all the time because I am a single parent and disabled veteran.
My bedroom is the last to get cleaned, and it is full of clutter and trash. Christinia and Caleb are going to help me clean it up, as I can not do it by myself. It hurts to bend over, and this job is going to take alot of that. The rest of the house looks decent, except my area by the dinner table where my PTSD related clutter piles are growing. It's not PTSD stuff that's piling up, it's because I have PTSD and cluttering and hoarding are common with people who have PTSD.
Caleb is getting better about not making messes, or at least trying to clean up after himself.
Oh! I almost forgot, that Christinia and I got matching tattoos that say "Mischief Managed." It's a spell from Harry Potter. We both love Harry Potter and we wanted matching best friend tattoos. While at Inklanation tattoo and piercing studio, I met two interns. One I met when taking Christinia to get her nose pierced, and Caleb to get his ears pierced. Her name is Beth. The other girl was new, and her name is Kayla. We were talking while Christinia was getting her tattoo, and I found out (perhaps for the second time) how to test if I am on the Autism spectrum. Kayla gave me a web address and I took it while waiting. I clearly "have Autistic traits" according to the online test.
Christinia painted my finger nails black for me. I like them alot.
Caleb has been collecting toy cars and repainting them. He has really liked spending time doing that lately. He has been drawing and coloring from an adult coloring book too. He started to read to me at night from the Smithsonian World History book. Some times I can't take the sounds at the end of the day though, so it's not a consistent thing. Caleb has been earning money for babysitting Harlee too. He takes her to the backyard and plays with her for about 20-30 minutes, just to give Christinia a break. Caleb has been able to do his chores without arguing lately. I can ask him to put away the dishes, and he is ok with that. No fighting. Therapy seems to be helping him some.
I finally got the light box for my Seasonal Affective Disorder in the mail the other day. I have not used it yet. I wonder how much it helps. I asked to keep the Christmas tree and lights inside the house up because I was struggling with the darkness of winter and depression feelings. Christinia was ok with that.
I have started the Ignite Your Light program with Michal. It is a deep healing program for women that she does only once a year. I am hoping I can relieve myself of traumas and their associated pains in my body. I want to be healthier. I want to be able to exercise and lose weight. I want to have energy and be able to have fun. I want to be able to roller skate again! I want to be able to enjoy the beaches down the roads.
Granny turned 82 this year. Pepere is 87 currently. I called Granny to wish her a happy birthday.
Today is Monday. It is now 0544. My dad has cardiac rehab on Monday, Wednesday, and Fridays, so I tend to wait until after lunch time to reach him and catch up. I want to start walking while he is at the gym. At least that would give me a good start on my routine, until I can figure something else out that works for me with my fibromyalgia.
I learned how to do Long Distance Reiki, and volunteered to send Reiki to a Facebook friend who has been battling cancer and is undergoing surgery later this morning. She was open to the idea. I mean, it couldn't hurt. Reiki is only for the greatest and highest good.
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