Today's prompt is "What are you obsessed with right now?" The answer to that is Reiki. It is now 0326 on Tuesday. I cannot sleep and I don't really understand why not. I am just too warm and can't stay asleep. So I finally got up after getting up several times already.
Saturday I took Caleb to the ER for having suicidal thoughts. He was discharged after being assessed by the ER doctor as "low risk", considering that Caleb is already in intensive-in-home therapy and going to be placed in a residential facility within a couple of weeks.
Sunday I had my Reiki Level 1 class online live. It was from 1000-1630. I managed to make it through the entire thing. I did not think I could. I thought there would be too much going on in the house, and in my head to pay attention. In any case, I was attuned to Level 1, and will be receiving my certificate in the mail. I am able to perform both self-healing and Reiki to others in person. I felt so strongly about the results of the attunement that I registered for both Level 2 and the Master class before the class was halfway over. Level 2 teaches remote Reiki, and Master Level teaches how to attune others. I am very proud of myself.
For the next 21 days (from Sunday) I will be detoxing with Reiki. I am supposed to drink water and rest as needed, but ultimately to take good care of myself and whatever may arise emotionally or physically. I have started my self-care practice routines in the morning and the evening as prescribed by my Master teacher, Michal.
Yesterday was a pretty good day. I slept in and felt relaxed in my bed. I woke up and did not do my Reiki formal practice before getting out of bed, like I wanted. I instead left bed, and came to my chair and ate breakfast (leftover pizza) and took my medications. I gave Caleb his medications and then I reached for my Reiki manual and played some Reiki practice music that is timed specifically for doing Reiki. I eventually went to shower and found that my legs below my knees were purple! It scared me. I freaked out for a minute. I took a shower with a homemade epsom salt scrub to clear away the energies and toxins that the attunement brought up. After getting dressed, we decided to go out and see if the lady from Lowe's was there about the cabinet design and installation. She was not there, but we did come across some good deals on paint! I saved $445 on paint! That's alot of money! Then we went to buy a few things at Walmart, and I ended up replacing my dead plants. Everybody was getting hungry, so we stopped by Jersey Mike's on the way home. I had an appointment with Michal at 1615, and needed to be home for that, so I was in a hurry to get back. I did not want to worry about dinner, and none of us had eaten lunch. Seemed like the right thing to do to save time.
My appointment with Michal went great! It was about a program she does once a year for a select few women. I was being interviewed to see if I was the right fit for the program. It is a deep healing program designed to release trauma from the past. I knew I was a good fit before I applied for the program. It is expensive, but when I consider that it lasts 6 months, and the amount of support I am enlisting, it seems fair. Michal offered me multiple discounts and even an interest-free payment plan to be able to afford it.
I have a plan, or an outline of a plan. I want to start my own business. I want to have a Reiki business and work with Veterans.
Let's go back to what happened on Saturday though. So Christinia told Caleb he needed to pick up the DVDs from the floor and put them away where they belonged. He responded with "Ok". It was not a problem, at first. Then within one minute, he was reaching into a rage and yelling. That's what prompted an argument between him and the adults in the house. He came out of his room after a while, crying and told me he was "having bad thoughts". I asked him if he wanted to call his therapist. He did want to talk to his therapist, so I text Simone. She responded with the Crisis line. So, I called the Crisis line , and when Caleb got on the phone, he clammed up. He was not going to talk to someone he did not know. The lady who answered the Crisis line number then reached out to Hayley, the team lead, and Hayley called me. She referred us to the Emergency Room. I took Caleb to the closest Emergency Room to the house, Dosher Memorial Hospital. We were in and out quickly, thank God. Caleb did not want to go there. He did not want to leave the house, but we did what we thought we needed to do to be safe.
Saturday morning was without incident, and after coming home from the ER, Caleb was back to his normal self.
Caleb just got up again, and is talking my head off. It is now 0404.
Last night I applied for a refinance of my home loan, and Chapter 31 VocRehab through the VA. I don't know how either of those will turn out, but let's see.
Today I get to clean the kitchen and prep some food for Christinia to make some good food. I am going to cook the bacon to make BLT sandwiched for lunch. I have to run to the grocery store and buy some slicing tomatoes, fresh bread, and jalepenos. The jalepenos are for stuffed jalepenos that Christinia makes. She is also making deviled eggs for me. It will be delish!
This afternoon I have a call with the loan officer from Veterans United. I also have an appointment with a roofing company. I still don't know if I got the free roof or not. I guess I will find out later today. Then Caleb has his in-home-intensive therapy. It's going to be a busy day, so I should probably go ahead and do my Reiki morning routine and get started since I will up for a while.
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