Today's prompt is "Waking up was ____." Waking up was a bitch. Caleb woke me up because he had a nightmare. Then he was asking for back scratches and hugs. I was not ready at earlier than 2 am. The next thing I know, I have Bella and Caleb sleeping with me on my bed in such a way that I cannot get comfortable again because there is no space to move. I got up from bed. It is now 3:31 am. I weighed myself on my digital scale from Virta and weighed in at 281.9 lbs. I have a hard time believing this scale. I just don't think I have lost that much weight since the holidays. I have been wearing my far-infrared ray back wrap, and my belly does look smaller.
Yesterday I woke up to my 0700 alarm. An electrician was supposed to be at the house between 0800-1000, so I had no choice but to get up and wait. I woke Christinia up like she requested. The electrician arrived around 0830 and ended up replacing some light switches and light bulbs for me in the hallway, the laundry room, and dining area. I have lights working now!
Christinia had a zoom appointment for Harlee around 1000-1100, so I got her when she woke up and kept her out in the living room until the call was over.
Caleb made biscuits. I ate half a piece of leftover lasagna for late breakfast. It was deliciously made by Christinia over Christmas break. We froze what we could not eat right away, so I thawed some out the day before yesterday.
Today is Friday and we are expecting freezing conditions with rain here. I don't know if the roads will be safe to travel until the storm passes. I needed to go out and run some errands, but that might have to wait.
I reviewed myHealthEvet account to make sure my medications were ordered. I also checked my messages, and I had one that I was not aware I had. I tried to schedule my appointment with my neurologist, and Ms. Miller. I was successful reaching the nurse in the women's clinic to schedule my appointment with Ms. Miller. I will have to wait to hear from the neurology office. I checked my most recent labs because I never heard anything more about them. Apparently Ms. Miller ran a drug screen on me without saying that she was doing that. I tested positive for cannabinoids. Well, I vape Delta-8 when I am in pain that I can do nothing more about. So... there's that. It's legal and I would have told her that had she asked me first. It really helps me relax and takes the pains away so I can rest and sleep.
I did not do much else all day. It was gloomy and dark all day, and I did not sleep well the night before because I kept waking up.
The day before yesterday, Caleb and I went to Wilmington for my dental appointment. It was a cleaning appointment. Apparently I had alot of tartar under my gums, and the cleaning caused alot of bleeding and was painful. I did not have any cavities though, so that's good. I really enjoyed the dentla hygienist. Her Pandora playlist was on the sound system and she was playing some of my favorite songs from high school like Tool, Cold, and Godsmack. We really clicked, and it was nice to share my space-time with her. She was awesome!
After we left the appointment, we went to Harris Teeter to check out the sales on meats. Ribeyes were on sale, so I bought some for us. I also walked by the salad bar, and could not resist the fire roasted red peppers, the artichoke salad, and the pasta salads. I was so hungry, even though I had just eaten a whole package of sliced baby swiss cheese in the car before we went in the grocery store. It should be noted that alot of the meat shelving was empty when I went shopping. It was quite a shocker.
Christinia needed me to stop at Walmart on the way home to pick up her medications, so we did. When I got there, none of the medications had been filled, but one waws almost ready for pickup. I was not happy to hear this, as I was already tired, the sun was setting and it was getting dark, and I wanted to be home. I was not going to wait there, like I normally would because of those factors, plus Jerry had text messaged me and asked if it was alright for Caleb to go to Youth Group at church. I wanted to get home so he could go and meet people his own age.
I could not understand why Walmart pharmacy would say the medications were ready for pickup, when they weren't ready at all.
I came home just before the sun set, and made it in time for Caleb to go to Youth Group with Jerry. Christinia was not happy about me not being able to pick up her meds. She decided to go out and pick them up. When she went there, only 2 out of 4 had been filled. It's frustrating as Hell! I was exhausted and clearly ate too much too quickly earlier in the day. I skipped dinner because of that.
The dental hygienist suggested I buy a Sonicare toothbrush to brush my teeth with, so I looked it up. I ended up buying one from Amazon along with a waterpik. I bought enough toothbrush heads for everyone to get use out of it. I don't want anyone to go through what I went through. It was painful to the point of me holding my breath while the waterpik was being used to clear the tartar off beneath my gumline.
I don't remember if I wrote anything abou this, but Nigel got cleared of being Caleb's father. We already knew he was not the father, but now it had gone through the court to disprove he was the father. Next Jonathan will be tested, and after he is proved to not be the father, Jamie will be tested. It's a long drawn out process because I was legally still married to Nigel when I gave birth to Caleb, so the state of North Carolina assumes he is the father, which is just not true. Then, because Jonathan signed the birth certificate, he is assumed to be the father, which we have tested already, and also found to not be true. Jamie has never been tested, but we believe he is Caleb's father because of his grandmother having genetic relationship to Caleb and him being the only person my age who also served in the Army in Korea in her family.
I am still waiting to hear more about my VA disability rating. I went to the C&P exam not too long ago, so I would think it would not be much longer before I hear a result.
I am still working on Christinia's claim too. There are some things we have to do to make the claim complete still.
Caleb seems to be handling life better these days. He is not getting angry as frequently, or flying off the handle as much. Therapy seems to be helping. We have not heard anything about his residential therapy application yet.
I finally got Caleb's homeschool library put together in one bookcase, instead of two. Now his books are orderly like any other library, and sorted by subject.
I have not looked into Caleb's room lately, but assume it has fallen back into a mess. That's normal for a teenage boy, as far as I know.
Caleb put the Christmas ornaments and lights in the shed for me, and we finally got the living room looking good again- without all the clutter.
I received my light box the other day in the mail from the VA. It is to help with Seasonal Affective Disorder, or in my case depression caused by lack of sunlight during the winter months. I have not read the article my psychiatrist sent me about it yet, so I have not set it up yet either. I thought it would never get here! I mean, I requested help in the Fall and it is now almost Spring!
Bella is doing well. She has these cute pajamas that I bought her to stay warm in during the colder months. She loves those things.
I am still waiting for a quote about the kitchen cabinets being replaced, and the kitchen floor being replaced. Those are the next projects I have in mind. I am steadily running out of project money, so I hope it does not cost more than I have currently. I still have other projects I have to do.
Christinia is doing well in her classes, and I am trying to help her get through Statistics.
I am trying to read my books these days, when I get bored and/or take a break from chores. I started reading The Little Book of Light Codes, by Laara.
I am taking a Reiki Level 1 training online Live on Sunday. I wanted to drop the class, but after reaching out to the teacher thought better of it. I will try to get it done. I know once I learn the stuff I need to know, things will be better for not only me, but also others. As I continue my Reiki practices and become certified, I will be able to help others heal, as well as myself. It will be awesome if I can manage getting through the class. The problem is sitting in front of my computer from 1000-1630, and expecting it to be quiet the whole time. That is just not my current reality. Harlee is very loud alot. Caleb likes to watch tv, and I like to sit at the dining table in my gaming chair where I can hear and see what is going on in the living room, dining area, and kitchen.
I made a 7.25lbs meatloaf the other day. It turned out fantastic! We have lots of leftovers, which I am happy about. I get to cleaning the kitchen, and it seems like everyday I have to clean the damn kitchen. I get tired and can't clean it everyday. Besides, cooking is work, and I can't cook everyday either.
I got almost all the laundry washed. I don't think anyone has any dirty clothes lying around anymore... maybe Caleb. LOL
I am waiting for dad to fix my car that was driveable when I lent it to him, and is no longer. It needs a new battery so Ican drive it home. He is no longer using the Volvo, so there is no reason for him to keep it there, when we could be using it. I need to figure out what is draining the battery. There must be a light or something that staying on after the car is off. Christinia offered to buy it from me, but I don't know if I want to sell it. I had plans to give it to Caleb when he is old enough to drive. Besides she really wants a truck, and I think she would be better off with a vehicle that is from this century anyway.
I am working on getting organized. I was organized at one time, but I fall into depression and can't keep up with what is going on. I have so many documents and papers that I have to sort through and file in my filing cabinets. I did a good job the other day with doing just that. I got rid of a whole bag of old letters that I no longer need. I put things in my folders and binders so I can find them more easily. I even created folders for my dad and Christinia so I can keep up with the things I am trying to help them with.
It is now 0500, and I am running out of things to write. I have no idea how today will go. I don't know if I will be able to drive anywhere because of the freezing weather conditions. I might just take the day off.
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