Today's prompt is "What are you trying to do?" I am trying to change the world, with one act of kindness at a time. I am investing in the future by raising my son to do things the right way, to the best of my ability. I am raising my dog to love and be loved at all times. I am spreading love, light, and healing everyday through my Reiki practice, prayers, and meditation. I am doing my best at investing in my own health and wellness by getting back on track with the Virta program to reverse my diabetes, continuing the Ignite Your Light program with Michal, and continuing the Reiki training with Michal to become a Reiki Master. I am going to learn more about crystals and their healing powers. I already have my own collection, but I don't remember as much as I would like to. I am currently going to therapy to help heal some inner wounds, but I am also working with Michal, at my own expense, to do the same thing with different methods.
I would like to one day write a book and have it published.
I am also trying to fix my house. It was built in 1986, and was not in good condition when I bought it. I have not had the money to do what is needed to repair things as they break, but I recently qualified for a personal loan, and am using that to do get as much done as I can. So far I have had an electrician bring the wire running from the circuit breaker to the outside outlet to code, repaired the lights in the laundry room and hallway, had black mold removed from under the kitchen sink, had the refrigerator replaced, had the brush, bushes and trees removed from around the house, had the outside of the house repaired, had the outside of the house painted, and had the hallway bathroom ceiling repaired with a new ceiling fan installed. It might not seem like alot, but everything costs so much money to get help to fix things around the house. I am not able to repair things on my own, because I am either ignorant of how to do things, don't have the tools, and/or can't physically do them.
It is now 0458 and I have been up for about an hour or so. I could not sleep as I got too warm and was sweating. Yesterday was a busy day for me. I woke up around 0900 or so, and after Caleb and I did our morning routines together, we went to run errands. I knew I needed to go to CVS to pick up his medication, and put gas in the car, so I went ahead and stopped at Walmart first. I did not have many things on my list to buy, but it's always a good place to start since I was heading out that way anyway. So the routine is, Walmart grocery shopping, then stop at gas station, and stop at CVS on the way home. That's what we did.
I woke up and was not ready to get up, but it was getting late for me, and both Caleb and I needed to get our meds. After the running around, we came home. I had roast beef sandwich meat and sharp cheddar cheese chunks for a quick lunch. I was trying to hurry home to be there for the delivery of my bidet. It did not come during the scheduled time window. I was tired and needed to rest, so I went to lay down in bed until my next appointment with Monarch Roofing. That was scheduled for 1400. I got up at 1350, and flossed my teeth in preparation for being on video. A group of Monarch Roofing employees showed up, and kind of threw me off guard. I thought I would meet with 2 people at most. They brought with them good news. I had won the free roof through their roofs for vets program!
I was able to choose my roof color and it was so exciting... the whole thing! I was presented with one those big checks for a free roof, and pictures were taken and video was taken. It was awesome!
Shortly after the team left, the bidet was delivered and installed. It was just the attachable toilet seat, but man, is it nice! VA ordered it for me through the occupational therapy office. I was embarrassed that I had not prepared for it to be installed and my bedroom and my bathroom were disgusting, but the installer did not make me feel badly. I apologized so many times for the conditions he was working in and even tried to lighten the mood by joking with him.
After he left, I went to Food Lion to buy some veggies for my salad. I totally forgot about Caleb's therapy appointment at 1600, but I left him home so he could eat the pizza he just made anyway. I got back home after 1630, with the groceries, and felt badly. I bought a family size rotisserie chicken and quickly began eating, figuring my glucose was getting low. My glucose was 104 immediately after I ate half a chicken by myself. I spoke with Hailey, the team lead and one of Caleb;s therapists, about how the past week has been with Caleb. He has not been cooperating to get his schoolwork done, but we also have not been at home everyday either. It can be hard to work on a flexible schedule without routine. I have to manage to do it myself, so I know it is not easy, but it has to be done.
After I ate, I was feeling better, and I thought I might be able to clean the kitchen and get some cooking done, but that did not happen. I went to lay down after Hailey left, to rest. I got up to take my medications, but then returned to bed. I was not feeling well. After laying there and having chest pains, I went to check my blood pressure on my machine. My blood pressure was 173/122, very high! I looked it up on google, and that is within stroke range, so I quickly went to to tell Christinia that I needed to go to the emergency room. I was going to go by myself so no one would have to wait for me, but Caleb quickly said, "You are not going alone!" Caleb went to the hospital with me and endured the waiting for several hours. After an Ekg , chest x-ray, and labs, it was found that I did not have a heart attack, but did have fluid in my lungs. The doctor wanted me to stay for observation overnight, but it was so hot there, and I was too uncomfortable. I asked if I could be discharged after the second set of labs, pending no problems, because there was no one to take Caleb home. I could not wait to be in my own bed, with the air conditioning blasting ! I was sweating and so uncomfortable in that bed at the ER. I was discharged and we got home around 2330. I gave Caleb his medications and said goodnight to everybody and went to bed.
Last weekend we went to Lumberton to try to pick up the Volvo from my dad. We left on Saturday and returned on Sunday. We didn't bring the Volvo home because we could not get it started, even with a new battery. Something electrical is wrong with it, and it needs to be sent to the dealership to have it correctly fixed. I am still working on finding a way to make that happen, because I have little money right now. It will just have to wait. Anyway, it was good to see my dad. Christinia took some photos of Caleb, my dad, and me together that came really good. I was supposed to pick up a bike that my dad found too, but there was no room in the Mazda to put it. After all the Mazda is a compact mini van, and already held 4 people plus a dog and our luggage. It was fully packed in there. I was going to disassemble the wheels from the bike and put it in the back seat of the Volvo to bring it home, but since we did not fix the Volvo and bring it home, I just left the bike. I should have disassembled it and put it in the back seat of the Volvo to get it out my dad's motel room. Thay have such little space in their room, and the bike is in the way of them walking out the door.
On Saturday we went to eat Mexican food for dinner. I had the 3 meat fajitas with queso. It was delicious. It was Christinia's treat for everybody, and she picked up the tab. On Sunday, we went to Denny's for breakfast. It was a long night in between, where no one was able to sleep. I could not get my CPAP to work correctly because the mask needed replacing. It was so loud from the air escaping, that eventually I gave up and turned it off. I could not sleep with it, and had a hard time sleeping without it. Christinia could not sleep either. The beds are so uncomfortable. You can feel the coils in the mattresses. Not only that, but as soon as Christinia laid down, and moved the top "blanket", she found a mouse dropping in the sheet, and a roach crawled out from under the sheet. Harlee was rolling around on the bed she shared with Christinia, and kept her from a good night's sleep. Caleb did not keep me from sleeping. My sleep apnea, and the mattress did that. My back was hurting and I could not get comfortable. I could not wait to get back home.
Today is Tuesday. I still have to clean the kitchen and do my meal prep. It is looking more and more like that won't happen this week, and I may just have to do a little at a time, rather than doing everything in one day. I have 2 appointments today. One appointment is at the Wilmington VA clinic for speech therapy. Speech therapy is the gatekeeper to getting help for my memory problems, and they will do an evaluation once I get there. I may have a traumatic brain injury, I don't know. The second appointment is a video call with Michal. She is helping me heal my inner wounds in order to be a more effective Reiki practitioner.
Tomorrow, I have a video call with the VA therapist in the morning, and Christinia has a dental appointment for her tooth pain in the afternoon in Wilmington. Stacy is going to come by on Wednesday too to help me with a probable leak in the attic.
I scheduled the VA appraisal yesterday for this coming up Monday morning. I need to get my room and bathroom cleaned up. I need Caleb to clean his room too. There is just so much work to be done around here, it is not even funny. I can't wait for the work to be done so I don't have to worry about it anymore.
I am cooled off now. I'm not sleepy, but I think I might go lay down and rest anyway. I have to try to get alot done today. It is now 0600.
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