My day was like any other day. I woke up when my 0700 alarm went off and came to my chair at the dining table. I reviewed my email and facebook accounts before taking my medications and supplements. I took my sweet time. I eventually went and talked to Dona Sharon while she was in the bathroom, and woke Caleb up to let the dogs outside. By that time, I had already listened to a meditation by Melanie Beckler and Ask-Angels.com. I was happy to be alive. I made my way to the bathroom and eventually washed my face, took a Ranger shower, and brushed my hair. I used a hair product I have not used since being in the Army that promotes healthy hair growth.
The day before yesterday, Caleb and I got our haircuts. He also had his beard trimmed. I asked for my hair to be shaped into a "V", but I don't think it was. It was cut straight across as I later found out when I was brushing my hair. I was so disappointed. That's why I began to use the hair growth grease.
I offered Caleb $10/hr to help me clean the house yesterday. I was paying Joanna, Jessica's daughter that much to help her mom clean my house, so I figured that was fair. I was trying to give Caleb a good reason to cooperate in helping me get the house clean. I began by asking him to unload the dishwasher. I then began pre-washing the dishes and loading the dishwasher. When I was done, I ran the dishwasher and began handwashing the other dishes. I got to a point where I needed to stop because my back was hurting. I took breaks as needed. I managed to clear off the island and clean it. I set up my altar like I wanted it, and wanted to burn some sage and light some candles, but could not find a working lighter. I decided we needed to go to Food Lion to get one.
Caleb and I went to Food Lion. There was a lot of traffic and it was hard just to get from here to there and back. I bought blueberries, celery and cream cheese, gallons of water, and looked to see if they sold sugar-free peanut butter. They did not have any. I bought eggs and almond milk too.We made it home ok.
I asked Caleb to empty the trunk. I lit a bundle of sage and a scented candle. I took the sage throughout the house to smudge it. We were listening to the radio in the morning, and when we came back, I listened to a UB40 playlist on iTunes. While I was taking a break, the song "Here I am , Take me" came on. I'm not sure if that is the title of the song. Anyhow, it hit my heart, and I began to cry. It was a breakthrough. I have not been able to cry for a long time now. I felt very deeply within myself. I allowed myself to just be. I was still and quiet, and with my feelings. I did not get much work done after that. I was tired.
Actually, the day before yesterday, as it is now 0156, is when Caleb and I got our haircuts. Yesterday, I had an appointment with my primary care doctor at the VA in Wilmington. It went well. This new doctor is kind and informative. I had labs taken and an x-ray done. I met a sister veteran while we were waiting to get my labs done. She overheard me talking to Caleb about when I was in Korea, and asked about it. In the conversation, I told her that I was raped. I said it matter of factly, without emotion. She cried tears for me. Before I left to go to get my x-ray done, we exchanged phone numbers.
Monday night was a Super full moon. The buck moon. I feel like the energy shift it caused, is very real in how my days have been going. I never talk about being raped, or mention it to anybody. I mentioned it to the lady who did my hair too.
Yesterday was the 4th of July. We were all in bed before the neighbors started with their fireworks, even though fireworks are prohibited on the entire island. Bella was scared and hid under the bed in Dona Sharon's room.
I opened the box I received a while back from Sage Goddess and set up my crystal grid on my kitchen island.
Before I went to sleep, I asked Caleb to help me find my Earthing mat, and my red-light therapy pad so I could use both while lying down. I now have new crystals by my bed too. One is bloodstone pyramid.
I am using hape' everyday now. It really does help to calm my nervous system down. I found that I cannot use the tinctures because they make my sugar go up due to having some type of alcohol to preserve them in them.
Caleb brought out the steel tongue drum and the hand pan drum to play on yesterday. I was happy he was making beautiful music without any music education at all. He was having a good time.
Today I have to complete cleaning the kitchen. I have dishes to wash by hand and I need to mop the floor. Caleb needs to put his clean laundry away and clear up the living room floor to be vacuumed. The hallway needs to be vacuumed too. I am still working on getting the laundry caught up. Caleb and I got the trash out of my room yesterday, so that's done.
Before I went to sleep, I began reading a book I began reading a long time ago and never finished. I forgot what I read, so I started over. It has been a very long time since I have read a book. It was nice to lie in bed and read until I was ready to fall asleep.
Dona Sharon has her first occupational therapy appointment today. She is getting help to regain her mobility. I don't have any other appointments this week. I plan on cleaning the house until it is done. I like to listen to the radio while I clean. I also like to light candles and sage.
I've got food to cook on the grill but the kitchen has to be clean before I can prepare it.
We are going to try Factor75 meals next week. I hope they are as good as they look! It could save us a lot of money in the long run if it works out.
I purchased a spot in a local magazine yesterday. I only purchased a quarter page, and they are going to help me figure out an ad based on my webpage for free!
I earned a $500 google ads credit that I am so happy about. I am not getting customers like I thought I would and advertising is getting expensive. I need more customers!
I am losing my followers on my facebook business page. I don't know why. (shakes shoulders)
I purchased some new types of coffee. Mushroom coffee! Let's see if it tastes good. I hope it works for my inflammation.
I need to make grooming appointments for Bella and Bubba. I have too much on my plate right now, but they both need grooming.
I have some financial planning to do.
We didn't really celebrate the 4th of July. I have social anxiety and stay away from large crowds. We saw a military plane flying overhead as we came home from Food Lion.
I've fallen behind in my Vocal Resonance Method training. I need to catch up so I can certify and give classes. I started the Yoga Therapy program again. I just need to stick with it. I bought the Ayurveda 1,000 Hr training on sale. I am excited to learn that. I start the Spinal flow Technique training back in August, so I need to get as much done before then as I can so I can give it my full attention. I am actually trying to slow down so I can read my books and not be stressed out all of the time. I want to start walking again, and I need to be taking more showers. I have a few rashes that I have to heal.
I am waiting to schedule my MRI to figure out what is going on with my brain that caused that episode a while back. We still don't know if it was a seizure or a stroke. I am going to see JD to have all my metal jewelry taken out and replaced with plastic jewelry. I might do that today. We will see.
I am headed back to bed now. It is 0247. I have a lot of housework to do tomorrow. I need my rest.
Thank you for reading and have a blessed day!
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