Friday, October 22, 2021

5 Year Journal Day 308

      Today's prompt is "Halloween plans? What's your costume?" I plan on taking Caleb trick-or-treating. I am not going to dress up in a costume. I am just going to wear some spooky looking clothes I bought from Zulily online.

     It is now 5:02 am here. I have been awake since about 2:00. I have been working on the bills this far. I figured I would try to catch up with my blog. Yesterday was a pretty good day. I was able to catch up on all the dishes, by both loading the dishwasher that is now fixed, and hand washing dishes until the strainer was full 3 different times. Once I was finished with the dishes, I took a break, and then gathered the troops to begin work on the front porch. We did alot of work before I needed a break because my back was hurting, and I was sweating up a storm. I thought it would be a 15 minute break, but when I sat down with Christinia and Caleb, I soon realized that I should probably check my sugar. Then, I decided I should probably have lunch. We collectively decided to finish the porch the following day so I could catch up with my stuff, and we could all take a much needed rest. 

     I took a nap, and the others took quiet time to themselves. I woke up hungry, and snacked on pepperoni. I was not hungry for a big meal, so I decided to skip dinner. I took my meds, and headed to take a shower. I washed up in soapy goodness and felt the hot water make the pains disappear from my body. I always finish my showers with cold water because 1) 10 seconds of cold shower is good for us and 2) I need to cool off after showering in the hottest water I can get, and bring my blood pressure down too. 

     After cooling off and drying in front of my fan, I got dressed and went to say goodnight to Christinia and Harlee. I always get a goodnight hug  from Harlee before I lay down for the night. I tell her that her hugs are "magical Harlee hugs."

     The day before yesterday, I could not get motivated to do much of anything. I was able to put some things in my room, that were by the table, but then new boxes came in the mail and took their spots. I have about 3 baskets of clean laundry in my room, waiting for me to sort through and put away. Most of them are the clothes that are being donated because Caleb outgrew them. I am trying to stay on top of the things I have to do, but it gets hard when my body does not want to cooperate. Sometimes, I just need to stay in bed for the day, but I just can't seem to let myself do that. So it can be torture being up and not working on all the things that need tending to. 

     The priority is to get all the trash in and around the house in the trailer as soon as possible so Mark can have his trailer back. We were able to get things off the porch that have been there for a very long time like the mattress topper, the broken office chair, the broken shop vac, rusty tools... even leaves and sand and dirt! We are close to being done  now though. I can't wait to be able to text Mark that we are finished.

     I still have not been able to sit down with Caleb and finish his end-of-year testing. He is about half-way through the whole thing. I have already had to pay late fees on the testing materials. I need to get that done too. 

     Halloween is just around the corner, and so is Harlee's 5th birthday. Harlee is going to dress up as a mermaid princess. Caleb got a plague mask from his friend, Gage, when he went and spent the night last weekend that he is obsessed with. I have a feeling he will be wearing that for Halloween. 

     My weight has increased this week. I'm assuming it because I am supposed to be on menstrual cycle this week. My ketones have dropped too, even though I have eaten fewer carbs than usual. I need to go to Food Lion and pick up a batch of veggies to roast for me to eat with my meals. I have not pooped in days! It really sucks. I feel like I am carrying weight that I shouldn't be. 

     I started a new blood pressure medication on Saturday. I don't know how much of my problems are from that change. 

     My Virta team told me that my baseline A1C was 9.8 on 8/4/2021, and as of last week's measurements, my new A1C is estimated to be about 7.7. I am trying to work towards not being diabetic anymore, which is an A1C under 6, so that's great news!

     I wish I was losing weight more regularly and faster. I feel like I get a glimpse of a low number on the scale, only to gain 10 lbs back within the next few days! It sucks!

     I bought some new supplements I might try today. They came in the mail yesterday. Some are for brain support, and memory support. Others are for energy. Others are for blood sugar. I would rather take cinnamon instead of glipizide any day. I would rather take green tea than a pharmaceutical to keep me awake. 

     Christinia organized the pantry while Caleb and I were away on Tuesday. We went out o run errands. It was pay day, and that's also the day I pay the bills. I had to go out and pay the water bill. While I was out, I went ahead and donated 3 bags of clothes that I had laying in the hallway, ready to be taken. I also went to Walmart to pick up Christinia's medication, and a few groceries. I made tacos for dinner. I had a taco salad made with ground beef seasoned in taco seasoning, green leaf lettuce, spinach, 4 cheese Mexican cheese shredded blend, sour cream, jalapeƱos, and avocado salsa. It was delicious! I have never had avocado salsa before!

     The repairman was supposed to come and fix the window unit AC, but called out at the last minute. I am using HomeAdvisor to find someone to do the job so I don't have to buy another window unit. They are expensive ! It has been twice now that the person who was going to work on the AC has called out. I'm starting to lose hope that it will be done. 

     Monday, I made appointments for Caleb to see his therapist again. She will be back form maternity leave at the end of this month. I also called the VA to see what appointment I had on Tuesday morning. Apparently I had a phone call with the dietician at 9:00 am on Tuesday. I was on a role, and decided to see if I could a dentist for Christinia to go to. Her tooth has been bothering her ever since her filling fell out. We tried to take her to the dentist last Friday, but when we got there, they said they do not accept Medicaid for people over the age of 15. Anyway, I got her an appointment to be evaluated in Wilmington. I thought things were going to go ok, but they only referred Christinia to someone else after the evaluation. We waited for 2 days to hear from the people she was referred to, and they never called. She called them and found out that their appointments are way out in January 2022! The problem is that there are not many dentists who accept Medicaid for adults in the area. 

     Wednesday I could not get moving. I was just blah. We ended up taking Harlee to get her first professional haircut at Great Clips! We also went to the Pet Supplies store, so I could buy a place mat for Bella's bowls so they are spilled over everywhere. Harlee got to see the pet birds, pet fish, and a ferret. On the way home, we decided to go to the beach since it was such a beautiful day outside. Harlee got to walk the beach and find sea shells to bring home. She was not happy when we turned around to go back to the Mazda though. She wanted to build a castle!

     Today is Friday,  and it is now 5:45 am here. I got my VA letter stating that my disability claim has been received. I submitted a new claim for a lot of things that are on my medical history and records. I am hoping to get a 100% disability rating. It won't affect my disability pay, but it may have an impact on what grants and scholarships Caleb can apply for when he goes to college. 

     I am trying to help my dad with his disability claims. He is using an attorney to help him, but it is not an efficient practice. My dad is legally blind and needs help. I applied for respite care from the Elizabeth Dole Foundation and got it for him, but they have not started yet. He has alot of claims to file and needs to be careful that he includes everything in his documentation. His attorney only has 2 things claimed, but he has more like 10 to appeal. 

     My dad is obsessed with Caleb going in the Army when he gets older. He wants to find out what it takes to be a rigger with HALO packing qualifications. He talks to me about it nearly everyday. I talk to my dad multiple times a day, everyday. He also wants me to look up a 2004 Land Rover and see what is available and at what cost. SMH

     I try to get him to understand that we are struggling with school right now, and dealing with his ADHD and ODD is no easy task. 

     Caleb has begun to earn money for doing chores around the house, thanks to Christinia. I offer $0.50 for unloading the dishwasher properly. Another $0.50 for drying and putting away the dishes in the dish strainer when I ask. So far, so good. 

     Caleb was bugging me about buying him a book when we were at Walmart on Tuesday. He was begging and pleading. I told him "No!" a thousand times over, I swear! I told him that if he wanted to buy something, he would have to earn money to buy things himself. I went on to say that we had offered him money to do chores around the house, and he didn't want to earn money! So there we have it. I told him that his begging me does not put money into my account for me to buy him things.

     I haven't heard much from my mom lately. Kenneth is doing better.

     I got a call from Aunt Lisa on Wednesday while we were out. It was good to hear her voice again. She sounded in a happy place. We caught up for a few minutes, but I was in the middle of getting in the Mazda to drive over to the Pet Supplies Store, so the call was only so long. I asked about how my cousins are doing, and my Uncle Andy too. It has been such a long time since I have seen any of them. The last time I drove up there, Caleb was only 4 or 5. I remember that I stayed with my grandma and grandpa and I took Caleb to Sesame Place! That was the last time I saw my grandma and grandpa. They both passed away. 

     In other news, Jamie McCurry messaged me on Facebook messenger. He asked "Did you find his dad?" What an idiot! Are you serious? After all the time I spent explaining why I was contacting him, and all the time spent with no messages at all? WTH?! I put him on blast and with screen shots of the entire conversation between us in my newsfeed. How much more obvious could it be that he is Caleb's father? He was at Camp Casey at the right time, and shares DNA with Caleb through his grandmother who uses AncestryDNA. 

     I am pursuing child support, but first Nigel Johnson, my ex-husband, has to be ruled out according to the state of North Carolina because I was legally married to him at the time of Caleb's conception and birth. Then, Jonathan Rivera must be ruled out because he signed the birth certificate. Only after they have been ruled out can I pursue Jamie McCurry, but it's going to happen whether he likes it or not. He will take the DNA test and prove that he is not the father or he will pay child support. 

     Looks like the state of NC is making it harder to get vaping stuff by taxing the Hell out of vape supplies. It's like 25% tax! Then the USPS just put a ban on shipping e-juice. I don't know how I am going to get my e-juice now, because the local stores charge too much for less quality e-juice. I  don't understand why, but when I buy from the local stores, their stuff always burns my coils.

     Caleb just woke up because he is having trouble breathing through his nose. He is congested. 

     It is now 6:35 am here. I wonder where Mathew is right now.


      

     

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