Today's prompt is "What should remain as-is?" Bella, my dog.
Yesterday I woke up at 5:30 am, and began my day. I stayed up until 12:30 pm and then needed a nap. I worked on my financial spreadsheets first. Then I began to sort out the laundry in my room. I have had more than 3 loads of clean laundry in my room, waiting to be sorted for some weeks now. I finally got around to it yesterday. I was able to sort out the clothes that are too small for Caleb in order to donate them. I folded and put away most of the rest. I was able to clear the space against the wall that had been piled up with my junk. Now I can see the carpet. I was able to put away my old Army uniforms that Caleb pulled out of the storage place I had them in. It was a hot mess. My uniforms were all over the place. Now they are safe in one of two duffel bags. I was able to clear one of my shelves to be able to put things there that I wanted there. I got rid of all kinds of boxes, and emptied out quite a few laundry baskets. I filled one trash bag of Caleb's clothes, and one bag of linens. I have another bag that is almost full of stuff to donate.
I washed a few loads of laundry too. I now how one load in the dryer and one load in the washer, and then I will be done for awhile. I have alot of stuff that I have collected over time, and never put away. I still have crates filled with things to put away. There is all kinds of stuff under my bed. How did it get there?
I organized the towels in the laundry room on the shelving. I put away the blankets, pillow cases, and sheets where they are out of the way. I picked up and sorted as much of the dirty laundry in the laundry room as I could find. It was a pretty good day for me.
After my nap, I continued with my work with the laundry for a bit. I had dinner early, and took my meds early too. I was still very much tired. I went to sleep before 7:00 pm. I woke up at 12:30 am, and called my dad. I figured he would be up, as he doesn't always sleep regular hours. He was wide awake and gave me the update on his move from one motel room to another. He hired some people to help him move all his belongings from his room to a new room. He has collected so much stuff in the time he has lived there. He was happy to have been able to buy some shelving to store his stuff this time, and organize his things. Now everything is no longer a mess on the floor. He said they got 95% of the move done, but there is still a little left to move. He was happy that he was able to hire help and get things accomplished.
It is now 3:36 am. I have been awake since 12:30 am. I have been drinking Zero Sugar Dr. Pepper Cream Soda, and Zero Sugar Dr. Pepper. I originally got up because I was too warm. I was drinking my gatorade water mixed with Miralax, but it was not taking the gross taste out of my mouth. I decided to get up and have a soda, and I have been up ever since. I'm not tired anymore.
I found my crystal collection that has been at the bottom of a drawer by the dining table, and set it on the table. I do not know where I will pace them yet. I found an essential oil blend that I use to like, and put some on my arm. It has kind of a funky smell. It is called "Sacred Scent" by Vitality.
I don't know hat I will do today. I know Caleb has an appointment this afternoon with his psychiatrist. I know I need to clean up the kitchen and get caught up on the dishes. The laundry washing needs to be continued too. I have been working on moving more of my stuff into my room, where it belongs, instead of leaving it near my chair at the dining table. It is a slow process. I have to make room for all this stuff first. I don't have enough bookcases for all of my books. I like to keep them organized and grouped by topic.
I need to go to the grocery store and buy sticks of butter for sure. I have found that this is definitely what is missing from my diet. It may not sound like much, but on keto, fat is the energy source. I have not been adding enough fat to my meals to keep from being hungry. It is alot easier than I thought to just add 1 tbsp of butter to my veggies, and wah-lah! I'm full!
I had my appointment with Dr. Karels yesterday too. It was a phone appointment about my diabetes and progress made with Virta. It is to bridge the gap between me, Virta, and the VA, and have one person at the VA who is in charge of my diabetes. I told her that I get a weekly summary that includes an estimated A1C. My estimated A1C is between 6.5 and 6.9%. The number to get below is 6.5 to be considered not diabetic anymore. I asked if I could take a lab in the beginning of December to check my A1C, since then it will be 3 months since I have started with Virta.
I am now able to quit taking glipizide all together. I am now only on 2 diabetic medications, Metformin, and Victoza.
I got my labs back from the labs I took last week. My sodium is still low. Everything looks ok though. I did not have an A1C lab last week. It was to check my magnesium and other things in my blood.
Today marks the day that my grandma and grandpa de Mello passed away, one year apart from eachother. I am not sad about it, but my Aunt Lisa is. She was much, much closer to both of them than I was. I thought of them during Dias de los Muertos, the days after Halloween. I do not grieve the loss of them because late in their lives I had very little communication with them. We were so distant, with me trying to raise Caleb by myself, and them trying to manage their finances and healthcare.
My dad constantly tells me stories about my grandpa de Mello that are not heart warming. He tells me how when he was a baby, in Brazil, he was left with other family members of the de Mello family. His mother died 3 days after his birth. His mother's family was not allowed to have any relationship with my dad. He says things about how he was treated poorly growing up, and did not have money to buy school lunch. He also was not bought clothes as he was growing up, and burst out of his shorts one day at school for them being too small. He compares the care he received to the care my Aunt and Uncle received and gets upset. He asks, "How could you do that to a baby? a small child? your son?"
There are all kinds of stories that he tells me on repeat. I can't help him though because I am not a mental health professional. I don't know how to respond in a way that would help him heal from the things of the past. One of the things that bothers him the most is that my grandpa left the United States to go back to Brazil before he died, and did not let my dad know. He struggles with the way things were between them, and wishes they had a better relationship. My grandpa was absent from most of my dad's childhood and upbringing.
In any case, Caleb is doing ok these days. I bought some math workbooks that we are going to use to quiz on. They came in the mail today. I also had to buy a new power cord for his laptop because some how some way he lost the original. I paid for Adventure Academy again this year in the hopes that it would help him learn things in a video game environment on his computer. It allows for repetition without me repeating myself all the time. I am trying to train him to be more resilient and flexible. Not all things are going to happen the way he wants all the time, and that does not mean he gets to act out and throw fits. He has to be able to do more around the house because I cannot keep with his messes. He is not 2 anymore, and I should not be cleaning up after him. He turns 13 this December.
Christinia is dealing with depression. She is tired alot. I know how that feels, and I hope she is able to come back to a better place soon. Harlee is ok. She does not understand that her mom is doing the best she can with her. It's not easy being a single parent. It's not easy for Harlee to be on the autism spectrum.
Bella is happy! LOL She loves everybody.
I got the bad news that my window unit A/C is done for. I need to replace it before next Summer. It gets too hot here in the Summer.
I am looking at my financial spreadsheet and seeing that so far this year I have paid off 5 credit card accounts and 1 payment plan. That's not bad. Unfortunately I have alot left to go. Let's see... I have 15 more credit cards to try to pay off, a car loan, a loan on the shed, and a personal loan to pay off. Damn! That's alot!
Well, I've been up for a long time, and I should try to get some rest. It is now 4:45 am.
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