Monday, April 4, 2022

5 Year Journal Day 339

      Today's prompt is "What would you like your epitaph to read?" I would like it to read, "Soldier Medic, Warrior Spirit." Only 68W's will get it.

     It is now 0312 on Monday morning. I got up because I wanted chocolate really badly and knew where I could get some. I did not eat it. I came out here and drank a Diet Mountain Dew instead and started working on my computer. I had to update my spreadsheets that collect my health data from day to day. I have a spreadsheet with my weigh-in, glucose readings, and ketone readings on it by week, and a spreadsheet with my blood pressure readings on it by 2 weeks. I have different doctors that need different data, but it is important for me to keep up with all of it in one safe space. 

     Yesterday, Caleb and I woke up around the same time. I got up at 0700 when my alarm sounded. He woke up shortly after that. I was slow to take my medications, and give Caleb his medications. I woke up in a bad mood. I don't usually wake up angry. I did not sleep well, and did not want to get out of bed, but knew I wanted to get things done. I had a long list of chores that needed to be done. 

     Saturday I woke up at 0300, and Caleb woke up shortly after that. We stayed up all day. We took our medications in the morning, and I don't remember how I passed the time. I do know I got my walk done. We went to Lowe's to buy some needed supplies to do yard work. I also bought a new stove. Unfortunately, it was the wrong size, and I have to cancel the order today, and pick out a different one. I bought a window unit air conditioner too, and 12 bags of cow manure to plant the plants that are on the way in the mail. I cleaned the worst part of the hallway carpet, and then I was done for the day. I made trout and shrimp and okra for dinner. Christinia doesn't eat seafood, so it was just Caleb and me. 

     I went into Sunday knowing that I still had to clean the kitchen, clean the carpet over again, put my books away, clean my room, and clean my bathroom. Yeah. I did not do any of that in Sunday. Caleb and I went to Walmart and bought storage and organization containers for my room, so I could clean up the clutter. We also bought chips, cookies, and Diet Mountain Dew for everybody (except me of course). 

     When we got home, Christinia was awake, and Harlee woke up shortly after. A big scene was made over Caleb putting his blanket in the dirty clothes, and odd items like his book and trash being mixed in with his dirty laundry. Christinia was the one washing the laundry, so naturally, it became a big deal between Caleb and Christinia. It is really ridiculous. 1) Caleb gets out of hand when you yell at him, so don't yell at him. Pretty simple. Most adults can communicate without yelling. I don't even want to go into the details of how this played out. When Christinia stormed off to her room, Caleb came out of his room and we had a talk. 

     After talking for awhile. Caleb became upset with tears in his eyes because he "trusted her with his life." If something happens to me, he wanted her to take care of him, but now doesn't. He wants her to leave our house. He says she is abusive towards him. 

     Caleb and I were having a good day up until then.

     I was exhausted and needed to rest, and so I went to bed for a time. I got nothing else done throughout the day. I was worn the fuck out. I had so much more to do, and could not do it. Caleb woke me up in time to check my glucose reading and take my night meds. I did not cook anything. I just had some ham and cheese. 

     Today I hope will be better. I have 2 appointments today. I might start off early by going to Walmart at 0800 to get my oil changed. I need new tires too, but that might have to wait for another day. My first appointment is with Autism Behavior Institute. It is a phone call appointment that will help me get services for Caleb, now that he has a diagnosis. The second appointment is a video call with VA Speech Therapy regarding my memory issues. 

      I have to cancel the stove order from Lowe's today, and purchase a different model. I still have chores to do, and I have to make time to teach Caleb some basic math and language skills. I am trying to figure out the best way to reorganize the furniture in the house , so that the windows will be accessible to the people putting in new windows, and the kitchen will be accessible to the people bringing the stove, and the people putting in new cabinets.

     Caleb therapists will schedule his appointments later today for this week. Other than that, I have no other appointments this week yet. I am waiting to hear from Pride Restoration when they can come and fix the water damage down by the leaking roof. I have to wait 10 days after I got my AAA membership to use the towing service. I went ahead and already got the replacement registration card with sticker, so that is ready to go. Once the 10 days is up, I will go to Lumberton with Caleb and have the Volvo towed to the dealership in Wilmington. My dad believes the trouble is with the alarm system. I still have not gotten confirmation that the medication prescription from Dr. McGarrity was received at the Wilmington VA pharmacy, not that I want to take it. 

     Yesterday I took two different Autism Screening tests for Adults, and both showed that I have Autistic traits, and AM on the Autism Spectrum. I forwarded the screen shots to my psychiatrist at the VA to try to get help getting a formal diagnosis on record. 

     It is now 0352. I don't know if I will continue to stay awake or go back to bed. I am not really tired, but my body aches. I got a new bright light bulb for my room at Walmart yesterday. Now I can see, even if it is dark outside! I mean really see, not this dim light nonsense. I can clean when I want to now. I don't have to wait until the sun is out if I don't want to, or rush to finish before the sun sets. 

     I think I will do my Reiki practice now.

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