It is now 2313 on Friday night. Caleb had the day off from school due to a required teacher workday. I have been waiting in anticipation all week for Mallory to come and inspect Caleb's room. I got a message this morning that she would be in the area at lunchtime today. I was so grateful she did not come sooner. Carla and her husband, Tyrone, came over to help me clean Caleb's room earlier this week. They helped alot. They floor was clear and vacuumed by the time they left. All I needed to do was steam clean the carpet. For some reason I just could not get it done. I was so slow moving and drained. I had Christinia help me this morning to get in the right head space. I joked and text her to "kick my ass" to get working. It was so important and I just struggled to get moving and get started. I got it done this morning though. Mallory came around lunchtime just like she said. She approved Caleb's room status and told him "this is the standard from now on." Caleb did not help me clean his room at all. I got 2 whole trash bags of trash and all kinds of dirty dishes from his room earlier this week. Carla got 2 contractor bags of trash out of his room. I did most of the vacuuming, while Tyrone did what I couldn't complete. I did all the steam cleaning of the carpet. Carla brought over two sleeping bags for Caleb. He does not have a bed anymore. Mallory brought over 2 pillows and pillowcases for Caleb today and gave me the good news that Caleb would be getting a bed frame and a mattress! Mallory is going to research some resources to get me help. All in all, the appointment went well.
After Mallory left, Caleb and I went to pay the water bill. Then we went to Food Lion to buy a few ingredients for the pasta dinner I wanted to make. We came home to refrigerate the ground turkey and freeze the frozen pizzas. We went back out because I had paperwork from Caleb's school that needed to be filled out by his doctors. We went to Broadstep first. I needed to speak with his psychiatrist about the fact that Caleb's ADHD medication, Focalin, was not available at his pharmacy and they did not know when it would be back in stock. I was able to schedule an appointment sooner than the appointment that was on the books. I was also able to leave the form that needed to be filled out with the secretary. From there I had to go to Seashore Pediatrics to get another form filled out by his pediatrician. I can pick that form up on Monday afternoon. We came home and I took a break. I then filled the dishwasher and got it running. I washed a few dishes by hand and began making dinner. I wanted fettucine with a meat and vegetable red sauce. I took Lowe's foods tomato and basil sauce and added ground turkey, garlic salt, garlic powder, zucchini, yellow squash, sweet onion, and baby bella mushrooms with italian seasoning. It turned out good with 5 italian cheese blend on top of the noodles and sauce. I don't know. I was just craving pasta. Yesterday I was craving doughnuts. I bought more doughnuts today too. I have been off my keto diet since yesterday. Today I even had ramen for lunch.
Yesterday I helped Nana get her emergency supply of medications filled. It was such an ordeal. We could not get the right message to the right person. Communication was shit! We were talking to the insurance company, the doctor's office and Walmart pharmacy over and over again. Nothing was right and we had to repeat the calls. It was really frustrating, but I had eaten my doughnuts and was feeling better by the time Nana asked me to start making the calls for her because she was getting frustrated. It ended up with me picking up her meds at the end of the day, just as the sun was setting. I don't like driving at night because I am afraid the passing headlights and street lights will cause a seizure while I am driving. I made it to Walmart before dark, but made it home as it was getting really dark.
We didn't do anything special for Valentine's day. We had frozen pizzas for dinner.
I'm just so grateful this week is over and the appointment with the social worker is over. I can rest easy now.
I'm worried about how we are going to afford things with my mortgage increasing by $322/month starting in March. Everybody here has the same thing happening due to homeowner's insurance and proaerperty taxes increasing.
Caleb's teacher bought him a pair of steel toed boots because his shoes were in bad shape. She bought him a set of clothes too. That was so sweet of her.
I'm struggling with Caleb alot these days. He just does not get that he has to do chores, keep clean, and follow my instructions. I have been on him to take showers daily and he just will not do it. I'm at my wit's end with this. The school complains about his smell. I hear it from Mallory that the school social worker reported Caleb to her about his hygiene. Then he lives in a nasty room, and wasn't bothered by it. I gave him all last weekend to start cleaning up his room, and he didn't do one thing! All I said was to start by picking up his dirty clothes so that I could start washing them. He didn't even do that!
Caleb argues every time I tell him I need something done and he gives excuses to not do it. It's so frustrating to deal with this. I'm so tired. I work so hard.
Anyway, it 's getting late. I only got up to use the bathroom and exchange my vape.
Thank you for reading, and have a blessed day!
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