The weekend

     It is now 0345 and I have been up for almost an hour. Last weekend was awesome. Let's go back to last week though. Last Wednesday I have a dental appointment. Caleb was feeling sick, so i kept him home. He also had an appointment that afternoon. Also he worries when I go to Wilmington by myself, so he wanted to go with me. We went to my morning appointment, and then went to Harris Teeter. After we ate lunch, we headed to Caleb's therapy appointment. When we arrived, we were told that Caleb was not on the schedule at all. I was not happy. 

    My toilet doesn't flush. Later, the toilet in the hallway doesn't flush either. Both are backing up. I make a service from American Home Shield. I get in touch with the provider on the phone to schedule an appointment. The appointment is for Friday. Thursday I had an appointment with Caleb's doctor. He tested negative for covid, flu, and strep throat. We got a referral to a GI doctor for his constant complaints about diarrhea and stomach pain. 

    Friday comes around and the plumber comes over and tells us there's nothing he can do after he tried plunging the toilets, and using an auger. He says to call the city, and if they can't fix it, it will cost about $1,000 for him to fix it. My stress levels were already high. We were living in the house with no running toilets with 3 disabled people in it, including me. I immediately call the city. They come out. I was so worried we would be left all weekend without running toilets. The city brings out the pump truck and is able to clear the line on a towel! How did that get there? I was so grateful. You have no idea! I was already broke from paying American Home Shield. I did not have $1,000.

        Friday I felt like I needed doughnuts after the stress. I bought some and enjoyed them.

    Saturday, I needed to work. I bought more doughnuts because of the way they make me feel. I have energy after I eat them. I am not depressed after I eat them. I feel good all over after I eat them. It's a miracle! Saturday I was able to wash laundry, put my 3 baskets of laundry away where they belong, pet vac the hallway, and steam clean the hallway! It was alot of work! I also made keto chili for dinner.

    Sunday, I had leftover doughnuts from Saturday and ate them to be able to work again. I got more laundry done, Caleb's laundry folded, dishes handwashed, dishes prewashed for the dishwasher, the dishwasher ran, and I wanted to pet vac and steam clean Caleb's room, but ran out of juice after having a big sandwich for lunch and socializing with Carla and her friends and family for Bible study time. I needed a nap, so I took one. We had leftover chili for dinner. I managed to start cleaning the kitchen island in the morning too. Caleb got the trash out of  the house, but I could not keep him on task. He is obsessed with video games. I got him to pre-clean his room for me, so I could pet vac the floor. I kept getting ready to clean his floor, but never got to it. I kept going and talking to Nana too. It was just a good time. 

    This is not to mention that I have been texting Jason throughout all this time.He is a man that lives in Florida that I met on Facebook dating. He has been a gentleman to me so far and I really like him. We have agreed that were are a couple now. He is a systems designer for computers. He has remained calm during all the events going on, and been helpful to me. 

    Today is Monday, and Caleb is going back to school. He still has a sore throat, but it's important that he goes back to school. Today, I want to get his carpet clean in his room. Today I am switching from the magical doughnuts to oatmeal. I have decided to try oatmeal for breakfast and see how that helps me or not. I believe that my problem is not eating enough carbs for my own body. In keto, we are supposed to limit our carbs to 30g. I think that may be too little for my body. I mean the difference between how I felt with doughnuts versus is amazing. I felt no pain while I was working. I felt no pain after I worked. I had energy that I haven't felt since before my dad died. I felt a happiness that I haven't felt. I felt like doughnuts could be my new anti-depressant even. I was not fatigued. I was not depressed. I felt alive!

    I am hoping I can bring my doughnut needs to a simple oatmeal breakfast instead. I have binged on doughnuts though. I have a hard time with eating just a couple, and I ate 8. I can't continue to do that and lose weight. I talked to Nana about what was going on too. She witnessed the difference it made. She is a retired nurse, so we decided together on my future steps. She did not shame me. Neither did Jason. 

    I am so happy. I am so hopeful for my new future. Who knew it could be so simple?

    I had a fantastic weekend!

    Thank you for reading! Have a blessed day! Keep me in your prayers!