When I can't Sleep

     It is Saturday morning at 0256. I have been awake for more than an hour. I can't fall asleep and stay asleep. Bella followed me out to where I work and is sleeping under the kitchen table. I just recorded the Yoga For Trauma Yoga Practice for week 3. I am recording them so I am able to watch them on my phone even after the course is over. The other students graduated last week. I am just finishing week 3 though, so I didn't graduate with them. I lost the book that I am supposed to be reading along with watching the videos, so I had to buy it again. 

    This week has not been easy. We were without running toilets all week, and it stunk! Oh man! I had to find a way to get the money to pay the plumber. I reached out for help and even had a gofundme created. No one donated to the gofundme at all. I reached out to the VFW and they were able to donate directly to the plumber a portion of the balance due yesterday. I reached out to the DAV, but they were not able to help me at all. I wanted to reach out to the American Legion, but I don't have any contacts there yet. I just joined the American Legion this year, whereas I have been members of the VFW and DAV for years. It took more than one try to fix the problem,  paid almost $2.000.00 that I did not have to spend. I had to withdraw from Caleb's 529 Plan that I put away when he was a baby so he could go to college one day. Roto-rooter was able to find the blockage and the problem. I have to save up for them to be able to fix what is causing the blockage. It is a back flow that is creating the problem. In any case, I am just happy to have both my toilets running again. The stench was horrible. We had to use the toilets even though they weren't flushing, so our sewage just collected in the toilets. I could not afford to pay the plumbers earlier, so we had to wait for the withdrawal to complete. So glad that is over with!

    I was able to make appointments for Bella and Bubba to go to the vet and have their shots updated. I have been putting  it off, but I don't want them to get ill or die. The appointments are not cheap either. I will be glad once they are taken care of though. At least the shots last a few years.

    The air conditioner on the Mazda has stopped working. I am thinking it needs the temperature control looked at. It works when it wants to, which means the air conditioning works just not when it is supposed to. It's too hot here to drive without air conditioning though. I am sure that is not going to be cheap to fix either. 

    I am praying that I have enough money to pay for all this stuff as soon as possible. I am asking everybody for help. Under normal circumstances I struggle to buy groceries. Now I have even more I have to pay for. 

    I had a seizure while I was standing in Nana's room having a conversation with her. I lost my ability to speak coherently. Eventually I went to rest in my bed after trying to say things on my mind. I checked my blood sugar. It was 139, which is not low. I missed my appoointment with the VA's pharmD because I fell asleep and did not hear the alarm I set to wake me up in time. It was a phone call appointment. 

    I'm no longer on the keto diet. I am thinking about quitting Virta. I am tired of trying. I enjoy life much more now that I am eating fruits and vegetables I have not had in what seems like years. 

    Christinia got pissed off at us and I have not heard from her since then. I need her to pay me back for the things I did for her and Harlee. I hope she gets a remote work from home job quickly now that Harlee is back in school. I bought Harlee school clothes with money I had at the time, and now I need the money back to buy Caleb's school clothes. 

    Caleb starts school at the end of the month. I am sure he will need gym clothes to change into everyday. The open house is coming up this Tuesday I think. I wonder what his schedule is going to look like. It will be his first year of high school this year. He wants to join JROTC if he can. 

    It's now 0328. I am not tired but I want to go lie down. I don't know what to do with myself. I am going to be tired all day if I don't get the sleep I need now. I did some hape' earlier. I kinda feel like maybe I should do more now. It helps me relax. I would take CBD, but I don't want to sleep all morning long. I want to get up when my alarm goes off at 0700. Same thing for the delta-8 gummies, but those are stronger and would make me tired all day with like a hangover effect. Takes too long for the gummies to digest and work fojr me. I have really slow metabolism.

    I miss my dad. If he were alive, I would call him now. We would be laughing over toilet  jokes. 

    I need to quit vaping. It's expensive and bad for my health. I don't know how I am going to act without it though. I have a Calmigo to use that I have not tried yet. I could use that.

    I made pork chops in the crockpot yesterday. I seasoned them with McCormick fajita seasoning and added a little bit of olive oil to the crockpot because they had no fat on them. Turned out tasty. I overcooked them because I fell asleep though. They were still edible! Caleb ate alot of it and so did I.

    I'm thinking about what I might like to make tonight for dinner. We have leftover taco meat from the day before yesterday. Depends on how I feel when the time comes. I might not have the energy to cook.

    Caleb woke up about an hour ago and asked me what I was doing. I was recording the Yoga exercise video. I guess he couldn't sleep either.

    I was able to stock up on gallons of Spring water this week. It's so important for us to keep water because it is hurricane season here. I went ahead and bought some canned foods too. I feel less stressed.

    Wal-mart had clothes my size on clearance! It is the end of Summer and that is when I do my shopping because that is when I can afford the stuff I need in the quantities I need them. I was able to buy a bunch of tank tops for $2.00 a peice! I will be working out in them and getting the house cleaned up in them. I need them to stay cool. I wear Summer clothes year-round because I stay hot no matter the temperature. I am just always having heat flashes and my internal temperature stays too warm for comfort. 

    I need a side hustle to bring in money to my home. I have not been able to reach customers for my Reiki practice and I don't know why. Nana benefits from it when I give her Reiki. She had a session she paid for and wrote an honest review. Part of my problem is not having customers, and the other part of my problem is not having the number of reviews required by heal.me to be a listed Reiki practice. It's really frustrating. I want to help people, but get paid for my time as well.

    It will cost about $1,700.00 to fix the back flow in the backyard plumbing. I have to find a way to make money so that I can have enough to save to pay the plumbers.   

    My VA examination for my compensation claim was cancelled and rescheduled. Now I have to wait until September 9th to get it over with.

    Nana has appointments coming up. I was hoping to get the Mazda to the auto shop before then but I can't. 

    In the last few days I have had really productive days. I started re-organizing the living room yesterday. I got the mattress out to the front porch and I picked up a bag of trash. I cleaned out a few storage containers too. I had to replace my shop vac since the old one has no suction. I took it to the front porch too. I will be able to empty the front porch when Mallory, the social worker, brings the trash pod over. She and a few of her workmates are volunteering to help us clear the trash out of the house once the trash pod is scheduled to come.

    I got quite a few loads of laundry washed and folded. I am still trying to catch up. I fell so far behind while I wasn't feeling well. I think my energy levels have changed because of 2 new supplements I am taking now. One is called Primal Queen and is made of beef organs. The other one is a weight-loss supplement from GNC. I started taking them both at the same time. They help me alot. I think I really get help from the Primal Queen because I have iron-deficient anemia to begin with. I take an iron pill every morning but I am supposed to take it on an empty stomach and I don't. I have a slice of keto bread every morning before I take all my medications and supplements to keep me from feeling sick to my stomach.

    My individual therapy appointments got cancelled for the rest of the month. I wonder why. They have not been reschedulede yet either.

    I had to buy bug control supplies again. I hate bugs in my house except for spiders which eat the flies that come inside when Caleb leaves the back door open for the dogs.

    I finally had the money to get my oil changed! Glad I got it done.

    I have alot of work to get done. It is now 0416. My alarm goes off at 0530 during the weekdays, but 0700 on the weekends. I could go ahead and watch week 4 on the instructional videos of Yoga For Trauma if I don't want to go to bed. That's normally what I do when I can't sleep these days. I study the Yoga For Trauma. It's the only quiet time I have to pay attention during the day. Caleb is loud and high energy all day long. 

    I am just sitting here thinking about how I want to proceed. I don't think I can fall asleep is the problem. Maybe I will just get my medications and supplements ready and start my work. I have alot of house cleaning left to do. I have a basket of laundry on my bed that I need to sort through and fold. I have a ton of laundry to wash in the laundry room, and I need to organize the living room of all these drinks Caleb left everywhere out of place. 

    Thank you for reading! Keep us in your prayers! Have a blessed day!