Monday, May 30, 2022

5 Year Journal Day 351

      Today's prompt is "What is your biggest regret?"  One of my biggest regrets is not becoming a Logistics Warrant Officer in the Army. 

     It is now 0158, and I have only been awake for a few minutes. Yesterday I did not do much. It was Sunday, and I had no motivation to do anything. I did, however, take the kids to get haircuts, and ran to the grocery store to buy a few groceries. I made boneless pork ribs in the crockpot for dinner. I started the day as normal. I woke up around 0630, and took my medications. I gave Caleb his medications, and then I went to take a shower. The shower felt good on my body. The water was super hot and my back felt better. After I struggled to get my bra on completely, though, I was exhausted. I had to lay down and rest. I got back up close to noon. That's when I decided I wanted to go out somewhere. Harlee and Caleb got haircuts and then we walked over to Lowe's Foods so I could buy the meat for dinner. When we came home, I immediately cleaned the crock pot and started cooking. It takes 4 hours on high to cook meats that are already thawed. 

     Once the meat was in the crockpot cooking, I had no reason to stay awake. My back was in tremendous pain, and I wanted to be in bed. I laid down for a little while, until I realized I could not fall asleep in that much pain. I got up and asked Caleb to put a lidocaine patch on my lower back where it was hurting the most. Then I went back to bed to rest. I meditated. I did not really sleep. I asked for reinforcement of my morning prayers, to release pain and release old emotions. I asked Mother Mary, Lady Nada, and Mary Magdalene for help. I asked Jesus and Master Kuthumi for help. My mind went from one prayer to the next. My back finally calmed down, but then the intense inflammation on my entire body started to flare up (fibromyalgia). Everything hurt badly! I stayed in bed until dinner was almost ready. I took my night time medications before dinner, which I never do, because I thought taking my medications would help me with my pain. Dinner turned out good. I only stayed up a little while after dinner, and then went back to lay down and rest.

     Saturday morning I got a message from my veteran friend, Montanna Combs. We met several years ago at a VA class. She is my friend on facebook, and I saw that she was trying to home 4 pitbull mix puppies still. We chatted very early on Saturday morning when she messaged me that she spoke with her husband about waiving the adoption fee for me to adopt a puppy. I was so excited! That , however, was not the reason I did not adopt a puppy. I was concerned about how Bella would react to the puppy. I asked Montanna if it would be ok to bring Bella to see how she acts around a puppy before making a decision. She said "Of course!" So I made plans to go see her around noon. She lives in Jacksonville, NC, which is about 2 hours drive away from where I live. Caleb, Bella, and I hit the road around 0945. Caleb was excited because he saw videos of the puppies before we left the house. He could not stop asking me, "Mom, are you going to get me a puppy?" 

     We drove a long way to get to Montanna's farm, but it was well worth the trip. I had so much fun! I felt at peace around the plants and animals. She has chickens, ducks, goats, a donkey, pigs, and the dogs. Her husband, Robert, grows succulents in a green house. He also raises koi fish in a pond the have. Montanna is growing vegetables and herbs in her new garden. She told me what each was, and I was amazed. I have never seen broccoli or cabbage in the ground. As a matter of fact, I have only seen corn and strawberries growing before. She had basil and oregano, squash and zucchini... and so much more! Bella met the puppy right away and they got along just fine. Bella had never been to a farm before, and she had a time barking at the pigs running, and the goats gathering for food. She even pooped 3 different times there! That's alot for only being there a few hours. Montanna and Robert are Marine veterans with disabilities from service, and boy do they have some interesting stories to tell! I had a blast hanging out with them. We left sometime around 1500, I think. Everything was good between Bella and the puppy, so we adopted him. 

     On the way home, we stopped at Petco in Wilmington to buy supplies for the puppy. I renamed him Bubba. I bought a nice crate to train him in, a carrier to carry him in while he is too small to put a seat belt on, some toys, some bowls, treats and potty training pads and spray. We went home after that. I got home, and was tired, but had to prepare dinner. Christinia met Bubba for the first time. I prepped steaks and veggie kabobs for grilling. We had dinner, fed the dogs, and I went to bed. LOL The day was a long day.

     Today is Memorial Day, and I honor the fallen. I grieve those who never returned home. I give thanks for their collective sacrifices.

     I do not have solid plans for today. I was hoping to go meet a local facebook friend because she just got home from an emergency surgery, and was asking for visitors. I might take the kids to the local splash pad, depending on how well I feel and the weather. I don't plan on working at all, other than maybe washing dishes and laundry. I might make hamburgers for dinner if I feel ok. I am feeling better right now than I was when I went to bed. There is hope. 

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