Today's prompt is "Why are you impressive?" I have overcome challenges and made a life for myself. I have had depression, PTSD, and I think Autism Spectrum Disorder since my early years. I have also had fibromyalgia since childhood. I suffered domestic violence and abuse as a child, which did not end until last month. I was an A/B student throughout elementary, middle, and high school. I got into college without any help whatsoever. I had no therapy growing up. I had no doctor appointments either. I had no support system, and very few friends. I successfully completed 4 years of U.S. Army service, which was due to my tenacity and hard work. I came home from South Korea, and I went straight to college until I graduated in 2015. There were many ups and downs, and I even failed classes several times due to social anxiety. While I was in Korea, I became pregnant, and did not who the father was. I was raped while intoxicated. I did not know I was pregnant until I went to the E.R. for kidney stones and pain associated with it, and the lab came back positive. I was already 7 months pregnant. I am still in search of my son's father today. I have a good idea who he is now, after having done multiple DNA test kits, like ancestry.com.
During my "secondary" attempt at college (after Korea), I was hospitalized for my mental health, and my son was put into foster care. It would be a year before I could regain custody of my own child. After graduation, I had no income and no insight as to what to do about my living situation. Long story short, I bought a house from a friend of mine. It was a rental property up until I bought it. It was made in 1986, and had not been maintained very well. Since moving in, I have been updating the house as I can afford to. All along, I had my parents treating me badly. My dad is abusive, and I only parted ways with him a month or so ago. My mom is absent from alot of my life. Mathew (the brother I grew up with) has disowned me and blocked me due to political differences. The same goes for Eric and Sherri who have a different dad than we do.
I am a single mother and disabled veteran. I am a college graduate, and homeschool teacher. I have hope and faith in my future. I have come a long way from where I began.
I am studying to become a Reiki Master. I am currently a level 2 practitioner. I am also in progress on the Rose Priestess certificate. I like to do different things at different times, so I also have other classes going on at the same time. I have a Holistic and Wellness Coach certification program I am working on. I am also reading multiple books from the new collection I have just acquired. I am reading Smart Couples Finish Rich, by David Bach, How To Be Yourself, by Ellen Hendrickson, Ph.D., a book on changing habits, and a book an emotional inflammation. I am still enrolled in the Ignite Your Light Program, and am taking a virtual retreat with Athena from Sage Goddess at the end of June.
I applied for admission to a Masters Degree program with Capella, in the hopes that I could complete my doctorate at the same school, but I have not gotten a decision letter yet.
Yesterday was a productive day. The two days before yesterday were full of physical pain in my back and hips. I woke up around 0630, and paid my bills. I took my medications. I gave Caleb his medications. I had to wait for businesses to open up before I could make phone calls to schedule things I need to have done. The first one was to get a vet appointment for Bubba, the puppy. The second appointment was to have junk removed from the house. I have a china cabinet that is taking alot of space, and an eyesore. I have a queen size mattress and box spring that I was going to give to my dad when he moved to his own place, but I need the space in the shed, so I have to get rid of it. Not to mention, we are no longer on speaking terms.
At 1000, I had my appointment with Michal for Ignite Your Light. It was an awesome time on zoom with her. I really felt heard, and inspired.
I loaded the dishwasher, and handwashed some dishes, in an attempt to clean the kitchen. I placed an order for puppy supplies too. I repackaged the meats I bought on sale from Lowe's Foods and put them in the freezer. I cleared some old food from the fridge.
Caleb and I went to CVS to pick up some of his medications in the early afternoon, with hopes of making it back home before Simone came over. Caleb had his discharge appointment with Simone at 1500. After Caleb's appointment, we all went for a ride back to CVS to pick up another of Caleb's medications that was ready. When I came home, I began preparing hamburgers to be grilled. I used a new seasoning that was labelled for burgers. I think they turned out pretty good!
That was about the end of my day yesterday. The day before yesterday was Memorial Day Monday. Because I was still in pain, I did not do much.
One of the things Michal said in the Ignite Your Light zoom meeting we had, was that I should also write to disabled veterans in my blog. It's a good idea, but I have to work on it, because I am still learning. For instance, the message behind this blog could be, "Keep moving forward," and I could expand on a few of my trials and tribulations I have managed to get through.
It is now 0432, and I have been awake for more than an hour. I went ahead and checked my glucose, and took my medications. Caleb woke up, and told me he would stay awake, so I gave him his medications as well. We are going to take the Volvo to the auto shop this morning around 0800. The junkluggers will be here between 1330 and 1530 to pick up the junk, so I have to clear a path for them to move the china cabinet without bumping into anything. That will likely take me all day until they arrive.
Tomorrow, Bubba has his first veterinary appointment. I have to bring in a stool sample, which I am not too thrilled about. I also have my psychiatrist appointment by video in the afternoon.
I plan on coming up with a new system for Caleb to get his schoolwork done. I haven't gotten it figured out just yet, but I will. Right now, all of his energy is being spent on taking care of and playing with Bubba. His ADHD is finally getting it's vent. LOL
I am waiting for an estimate on attic fans and the labor to replace the weather stripping on my house doors from Stacy.
The windows are not going to be ready until august 25th, 2022.
I have to find a new way to save money to cover expenses, while allowing myself to spend sometimes on things that are not needs. I hope that book helps me figure things out. I did not know there were other books by the same author that are targeted for different people. I would have bought the book for women if I had seen it.
One of the things I told Michal in our meeting was that a part of me in still in shock at how much my life has changed without my dad being present. I use to call him multiple times a day, everyday. The negativity was overwhelming. I thought I could help him with the VA claim he has submitted, but he is working with a lawyer. I thought I could help him get mental health treatment for his PTSD, but he bullshits during his appointments, when he makes them. I thought I could guide him "into the light", but he obviously does not want to change, or he would.
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