TGIF

     It is now 0430 and I am hot and sweaty once again. I woke up to use the bathroom and then to cool off. I believe my 6mg nicotine e-juice is the source of my problems. When I am not vaping nicotine, I do not seem to have as many problems. Yesterday I did no physical labor and yet I was in a lot of pain, especially in my back. I was having muscles tightening which I think were from taking the CBD supplement in the morning. It did not allow me to rest when I needed to rest. I am not taking CBD anymore, for as long as I can remember that is how it treats me. I took it to relieve the pain, but it did the opposite and caused more pain. 

    Yesterday Caleb had his assessment therapy appointment. It was an hour long, and draining. We went through all the things that Caleb has gone through throughout his life that were traumatizing. He was diagnosed with PTSD finally and something that I cannot remember the name of. He was diagnosed with Autism Spectrum Disorder last Summer. He was re-diagnosed with Oppositional Defiant Disorder. The other thing had the words Adjustment Disorder in them. 

    I was more than tired yesterday. I got up around 0330 and stayed awake until 0700. I went back to bed until 0900. I was supposed to get up at 0700 and start my day. I needed to go to Lowe's to replace my shop vac, vacuum cleaner, and carpet cleaner. Jessica and Toni fixed the vacuum cleaner. The shop vac only needs a new filter. So now I only need to replace the carpet cleaner! 

    I am feeling better this morning so far. I used my red light therapy pad last night and the night before. I hope to get back to using it at least once a day. 

    I bought my first night cream treatment for my face yesterday. I bought it as a set with a day cream treatment too. I'm trying to firm the skin on my face, neck, and chest. 

    I want to start walking on my incline trainer in the mornings. I had Jessica and Toni clear it off for me yesterday so it's ready to use. 

    I was not able to cook dinner again last night due to all the pain I was feeling. I tried giving myself Reiki, but I am out of practice and don't remember what the symbols look like. 

    Yesterday morning I watched Jason and Maura's "Four Pillars of Healing" video. I also bought a lot of 0mg nicotine e-juice to begin the quitting process all over again. 

    I have not been communicating with Christinia in awhile. I was going to give her the Volvo, but I am reconsidering. She only talks to me when she needs money for something. I set her up with a desk and and a chair so she could work from home to earn some money for her family while Harlee is at school. She is way behind in her child support for Aiden. She needs to be working but has her driver's license revoked since falling behind on Aiden's child support some years ago. My relationship with her is toxic, so I am staying away.

    Today Ashley and a friend are coming over. Ashley will clean, and her friend will work on the details that need repair on the house so I can schedule the VA inspection.

    Tomorrow I have nothing on the calendar and might just sleep all day. I'm exhausted from everything that has happened this week. It's been a lot of work non-stop, and pain too. I need to rest.  

    I need to bake my giant omelet today so I can have food that is healthy available. I have baskets of clean, folded laundry in my room that need to be put away. I have a box of hair products I need to store, as well as a box of makep. I'm loving my new haircut and am successfully wearing it down more often without issues. 

    I bought new tea tree oil body wash for Caleb and me. I can't wait to try it. It's cooling. I also bought new tea tree oil body wipes for those in-between shower days for myself. I am trying to get Caleb to shower every day, but it's a losing battle. I am trying to get him to brush his teeth too. He just had cavities filled at his dentist appointment. 

    I haven't been drinking much water. I need to get back on track with that.

    I have gone to Maurice's and Torrid online and walked away from buying more clothes each time. I am proud of myself. I have more clothes than I need right now because I was losing weight and changing sizes. I gained the weight back and wanted to wear winter clothes so I bought clothes recently. 

    Toni was putting together Caleb's desk but was missing a screw. I have to see if I can find one like it when I go to Lowe's. I just went and sent the manufacturer a message to replace the missing screws. 

    Caleb threw up yesterday. Jessica started feeling like she was going to throw up when she was here. I don't know what's causing that. 

    I'm listening to the Erica Rock audio files I purchased last year. I made a playlist of songs she created for healing purposes after my dad died. I use these songs when I give distance Reiki. They are soothing. 

    I need a shower this morning pretty badly. I don't feel like doing anything though. My body is tired. 

    I want to learn the Vocal Resonance Method. I have been singing more often in the car. I need to be able to sit at my computer without distractions for a few hours, and without pain.

    I still have to get Caleb tested on his IXL app. We are having trouble with his computers right now. He broke the screen on one computer, and lost the Pin to the other computer. 

    I bought my mom birthday cards and got so busy that I forgot to send them. Her birthday is today! I'm going to try to call her later. 

    Everything seems to be moving in the right direction. I am getting the house worked on and cleaned up. I am going to need Caleb to start washing dishes for me. It hurts my back too much to stand there and do it, especially without my shapewear on that helps to support my back alignment. 

    My 40th birthday is next month. I feel much older than my true age. My body hurts a lot of the time. I've got to stay on track with diet and exercise to lose this extra weight to feel better. 

    I bought the movie "The Ten Commandments," because I like to watch it every year. We will probably watch it together.

    The Spectrum installer is coming on Monday. I don't even know what else is happening next week. I am still trying to get through this week. We will have streaming cable tv on Monday. We have not had cable tv for some years now because Caleb was addicted to Sponge Bob cartoons. I could not pull him away from the tv to get things done that needed to get done. He was glued to the tv. I can't watch tv anymore. I am too sensitive to the graphics and lights. I usually listen to what is happening and glance up at the screen every once in awhile. 

    I never completed using the ear drops Dr. Fuchs prescribed for me. I began to forget to take them. I never used the cream she gave me for my scalp either, or the shampoo. I tried to keep up with everything I was supposed to do, but failed.

    I was chatting with a Marine yesterday morning. At least he says he is a Marine. I don't know that I can trust him. He found me on Instagram and we migrated to Facebook to chat. Whoever he is, Josh, he seems nice. Things got questionable when he wanted to know who I bank with. Like yeah... I should block you now.

    I am still very much attached to Juan. I wish things would clear up for us to be able spend more time together. I think about him when I sing. 

    I haven't seen much of Dona Sharon lately. I have had to go to bed before she eats dinner for the past few days. 

    It is now 0536. I am still listening to my playlist. I am not motivated to walk this morning. I need to take a shower. I am tired. This music is peaceful.

    It is now 0625. I just finished self-Reiki. I am still listening to my playlist. I think I am almost done with the playlist though. It seems like forever since I practiced Reiki. I had to search for my manuals to re-familiarize myself with the symbols and mantras. I only have one more after this track. 

    I am ready to hop in the shower and get washed up. 

    Have a blessed day and thank you for reading!