Update

     Today is Wednesday and it is 0944. I have been awake since 0700 this morning when my alarm rang. I haven't been keeping up with my blog lately. My sugar went super high after picking at my scalp (pain response, not diet related). I had to start taking more Metformin again. Now I am taking 1,000 mg Metformin in the morning and 1,000 mg Metformin in the evening. I have a bad habit of picking at my skin when I feel a bump or other abnormality. I started using medicated shampoo I bought from Walmart to help heal the build up on my scalp, which I think is sebhoreic dermatitis. 

    Anyway, I had a busy day yesterday. Caleb and I started the day by drinking a cup of coffee. I had my leftover omelet I baked in the oven for breakfast to fuel my body for the day. I then took my morning medications and supplements. I gave Caleb his morning medications. I sat and talked with Dona Sharon for awhile. She woke up to the smell of the beef from the steak 'n' cheese kit Caleb was cooking for his breakfast. He made her the same meat too. We sat and talked for what may have been hours. I decided that I wanted to go to Walmart and pick up some things since Spring has started. I contacted Jessica to let her know I wanted to go out, so we needed to schedule for her to come over for house cleaning. Caleb and I went to Walmart and bought some houseplants. LOL I do not have a green thumb! I was bale to buy a hose and nozzle like I wanted. We filled the cart up and went through the self-checkout. I began to feel hot all of a sudden. I was worried that my sugar had plummeted. I told Caleb we needed to hurry up so I could drink some of the sugar-free sweet tea I was buying. As soon as we made it to the Mazda, I opened a gallon of tea and began to drink it. Caleb unloaded the carts for me into the Mazda and put the carts away. I started the Mazda and put the air conditioner on high. We were planning to go home, but then I remembered that the car wash was giving away free car washes for their Grand Opening. I turned around to get the pollen washed off the Mazda. I had already checked in online for Great Clips. I wanted to get a hair cut. I had to be careful inside the car wash because the color and lights can be triggering. I went ahead and paid for the subscription which the first month is only $0.99 for unlimited car washes. With pollen everywhere everyday, that is a steal!

    After getting the van washed, we went to Great Clips. Caleb wanted to stay in the Mazda, rather than come inside with me. He did not want a hair cut. Joswh cut my hair, and I found out that Jasmine was no longer working there. I gave Josh the request to thin, trim, texture, and create a dramatic V to way my hair hangs. He did and took away soooo much hair! I did not even know I had that much! 

    I went home afterwards and asked Caleb to bring in the stuff we bought at Walmart. Not long after getting home, someone knocked on the door. My ring security camera did not notify me someone was on the porch. I opened the door and a man was standing there. He was wearing a Spectrum shirt. I stepped outside thinking it would not be long before I went back inside. I was wrong. The man's name was Juan and he was here to tell me that I am pre-qualified for a government funded program to provide internet service. It was a really good deal considering how much I am currently paying is $69.99/month. He also informed me that I could switch over my cell phone service too and save money. Somehow, some way, we diverted and talked about a lot of non-Spectrum deal related stuff before our conversation was over. It's kind of funny because I feel so much like my dad. I really like Juan. He is good looking and fun to be around as far as I can tell. He left when I told him I had to begin making dinner, and he asked if it would be ok to hug. I said yes! I was a little worried about my presence because I have not been around a single man I was interested in , in quite some time. Also yesterday, was not a shower day for me, so I was not "fresh." I did not want to turn him off. We seemed to get along really well. He did not seem fake and anxious for a sale. He was real and I really liked that. He gave me his personal cell phone number before he left. I hope, if nothing else, we can be good friends. 

    I came inside and immediately had to tell Dona Sharon about my experience! I was so happy and excited! I could not believe my luck.

    Caleb baked pizza for Dona Sharon's dinner. I had leftover pork ribs for my dinner. Caleb ate the macaroni and cheese I bought for him from Walmart for his dinner. 

    I felt more in tune with the universe when I was hanging out with Juan. It was an amazing time. It felt good to hug him too. 

    That was the story of Tuesday. Monday was different. I had my video call appointment with my psychiatrist on Monday. The appointment went well. I am being prescribed melatonin to try to see if it will help keep me alseep through the night. I asked for help in my skin picking habit while I was with her. 

    Dona Sharon was supposed to have an in-person appointment regarding her mammogram, but she had to cancel because she was not feeling well enough to go to it. 

    I cooked the pork ribs for us to have for dinner. I think I spent a few hours washing dishes and trying to clean up the kitchen prior to cooking.

    I think it was Sunday that I made the chuck roast in the crockpot. I wanted to make rice, and could not easily find it, so I decided to make sense of the pantry. I got rid of a lot of expired cans, and set aside good cans to give to Jessica. It was a lot of work. I also cleared the counter where the water tanks and keurig are to be able to clean the countertop. I was moving things off the island too. It was a working day for me for sure. I enjoyed doing it though. I was proud of my work when I was done. It looked so much better when I was done.

    I spent some time one of these past days to try to see what I needed to do with my Vocal Resonance Method class and the Healing Trauma class. I have fallen behind because I am still trying to keep the house clean for Pride Restoration to come over and fix my house up as planned with New American Funding (the company I refinanced with). I still have to get the work done on the house, and then have it inspected by the VA appraisers again. 

    I am sitting here listening to the root chakra Solfeggio frequency audio track on my phone while I am typing. 

    My mom is in Florida trying to help her parents right now. Hopefully she can come back home this weekend. Granny's last chemo treatment is tomorrow. I wonder if Mathew is aware or cares.

    I don't know what it is but I want to get married. I want to have a wedding and wear a dress and feel like the most beautiful woman in the world. I want to be loved by my partner for the rest of our lives. I want to commit to someone who shows he/she loves me. I don't think that is too much to ask for. 

    Anyway, Jessica is coming over to help clean the house. I need the living room tidied up and Caleb's room cleaned. I will be working in the kitchen like is usual these days. I need to take time and do my classes and get Caleb working on his classes. Trying to keep the house liveable is harder than it seems. I have been in ketosis for 4 days straight! I have also been eating my own home cooking to stay on my diet. Speaking of which, I need to start cooking the bone;less, skinless chicken breasts in the crockpot once I clean it. With all this eating from home, the kitchen is always needing to be cleaned and dishes always need to be washed. 

    I have a shelving unit that needs to be put together in the shed. I think I want to move all these cleaning products out there so I have room to put my towels away on shelves instead of leaving them in baskets after I wash them. 

    I text messaged Juan this morning. I wonder if he got my message. I wonder if he is awake. I got up today and had a cup of coffee and leftover baked omelet for breakfast. Same as yesterday except today I woke up at 0700. Lately I have needed to sleep in more often than not. I took my medications and supplements and let them digest before moving on to washing my hair. I got it cut yesterday and wanted to wash it to see the  impact the cut made. I am letting my hair dry with styling products in it now. The curls are nice and my hair is not heavy anymore. I do not feel hot with my hair down today. I wanted it that way. Not too hot to wear down. It's chilly outside here and sunny. I love it today. 

    I am going to spend the day washing laundry, washing dishes, loading the dishwasher, cleaning the kitchen, and catching up on my classes. I want to get Caleb busy emptying the car, hooking up the brand new hose for me, and helping me re-pot the houseplants into fresh Miracle Grow indoor potting mix.

    Bubba got his new bed yesterday. He loves it so far and has not torn it up. He is an active pup and needs help to calm down and relax in his crate. This bed may be another solution. He is currently taking calming supplements too.    

    I have been drinking fewer Diet Mountain Dews lately, now that I am having 1 cup of Starbucks Mocha coffee in the morning. I am also trying to drink water again. I need 1 gallon a day. I also want to begin walking 15 minutes a day on the incline trainer and begin to build up my distance walked.

    I miss chatting with Jana Carrey, my mentor. I can't afford her services, nor do i have the time right now to meet with her since I have all this other stuff going on. 

    My mom's birthday is St. Patrick's Day. I have to remember to at least send a card to her so she gets it on time. 

    It's now 1057. I have to get working. The laundry won't be hard to start. Gotta take a bio-break and get started kitchen cleaning and cooking if I want dinner tonight. 

    Have a blessed day, and thank you for reading!