Thursday, April 30, 2020

Parenting is hard

     Parenting is hard. I gave birth to this baby boy 11 years ago. He came with no instructions! He has been diagnosed with ADHD since a young age, along with speech delays. In the recent years, he has been diagnosed with ODD as well. He takes medication to help him through the day, but they only do so much. He has so much energy on any given day! He goes to the Exceptional Children's class at school to help in math and reading. When your attention span is short, it's harder to learn.
     I tried teaching him through K-12 online public school at home. It was awful. I thought they would be more flexible, especially since he has an IEP. There were daily deadlines and online classes. It was more work than regular school, and it stressed me out.
     Now we are at home for the remainder of the school year. I'm having trouble getting him to do his online work. We checked out a Chromebook from the school so he could keep up with his classes online. He refuses to log in. He finds other stuff to do. He found my arts and crafts box, and began drawing, and painting. He can be very creative. He also found my old Army uniforms and enjoys wearing them, and snooping through my stuff, trying to figure out what everything is. My Aunt recently sent him a radio controlled helicopter, so he has been learning to fly it. He spends a lot of time with it now, as well as his phone. He is allowed to play free age-appropriate games on his phone. It keeps him from getting into trouble. He has taken apart 2 of his bikes, with tools he found from my dad's stuff. He has practically shaved the logs I had in front of the house, to use for my landscaping project. He has made a number of forts in the living room. We watch tv together before bed, usually "House" or a movie.
     I have stuff I need to do throughout the day. It's not as if I can give him my full attention all of the time. He needs more social interactions with peers. I'm working on trying to find out if his classmates are able to chat online in the school's programming. He's so bored! He has been taking our dog for daily walks, by himself. I'm very proud of him for that. On school days, we usually go to pick up his free meals from the closest high school pickup. He can eat! He is growing so fast! It's worth it to get us out of the house for a little while.
     He enjoys being outside, but is not usually allowed outside without supervision. He has caused trouble in the past, and I don't want future instances of that. He has daily chores to do. Sometimes they do not need to be done daily, so he has just has to do them when I ask. He takes the trash out, takes the recycling out, unloads the dishwasher, and unloads the dish strainer. He was also feeding Bella, our pitbull/lab mix rescue, and giving her water but since we took her to the vet the other day, and found out she has gained 7 pounds since December, I am taking over. He still refills her water as asked. He lets her outside as reminded.
     He is horrible at keeping spaces clean. He can not keep his room clean for all the money in the world. He just can't. I don't understand it. As soon as I clean an area, he's there making a mess. It's really frustrating because he doesn't clean up after himself at all. Ugh!
     He is growing man hair, which means he's not my baby boy anymore, but a young man. He is immature for his age. He thinks it's hilarious to fart on me. I hate that so much. If you can't beat 'em, join 'em! I have to return fire, he won't stop. He likes to rough house with me. I tickle him until he's on the verge of peeing in his pants.
      He doesn't like sleeping in his bedroom. It creeps him out. He sleeps in the living room with me. He sleeps in the reclining chair with Bella, while I sleep on the couch. Even though my bedroom has been free for months now, I still don't sleep in there. I've gotten use to sleeping on the couch. I've got my whole setup with my fan, my CPAP, and my phone charger out here.
   


2 comments:

  1. Parenting is hard. Anyone who tells you otherwise is full of it. I remember when the twins were released from the NICU and me and Andy could barely figure out how to secure them both in their car seats. The first thing I thought was that we were WAY in over our heads- and there were two of us. Make no mistake, and I think you will agree, there are so many joys of parenting that make me so grateful the kids are in our world. Even so, I would say, that the feeling of being over our heads has not entirely gone away even now, when they are 17 and getting ready to leave the nest.

    I hope you will be kind to yourself, especially now, as most American parents are dealing with a whole other level of parenting. You are doing a great job. You know that the most important part of parenting is to make sure your kid is safe, happy and kind. I realize I haven’t been around Caleb so much but can tell you from my interactions with him that he is a sweet and kind boy. Wouldn’t you say that this is due to your love for him and ability to parent? That will take him very far.

    Finally, about the room. Let it go. It is a really hard thing to do (you should see my kids rooms), but do it anyway. Only intervene if it comes down to bugs from food left around. I hope you see I speak from experience. Just let it go. I am amazed now how Max (the one with the bugs btw) cleans his room and keeps it fairly organized himself. Play the long game on this one. It will self-correct without your pushing. Save yourself and him a whole lot of aggravation.

    Wake up every day and remember to be kind to yourself and that you are a kind and capable parent to that beautiful boy.

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  2. Reading this again. Thank you for commenting. Sometimes I need your words as you have more experience.

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