Yesterday I had my follow-up mammogram and 2 ultrasounds. Short story: I am ok, and don't have cancer. I came directly home after that appointment, told Nana about it, and went to bed. I was exhausted and in alot of pain. I was having a Fibromyalgia flare-up from Thursday's pool physical therapy session, plus the stress of yesterday's appointment. I slept alot. I needed it. I got up in the afternoon and was able to get some dishes washed, some dishes pre-washed and loaded into the dishwasher, but not enough that I could cook dinner. I had no energy left. I needed to go back to bed, so I did. When I got up, I checked my blood glucose and ketones. My blood glucose has been reading high for the past week, and were even higher yesterday. My ketones were low, at 0.3. I need a 0.5 reading to be in ketosis. I did not cheat on my diet, but other things can impact my readings too. Sleep, emotions and stress, and other things all have a play in it.
I met Nick at the pool Thursday for aquatic therapy. I was able to do most of the exercises, but when it started to hurt my lower back, I asked to be done for the day. It was hard to walk out of the pool after that. I had to take really small steps because everything hurt. It did not hurt like that in the pool. I go back to the pool for therapy on Tuesday.
I am not in so much pain this morning. I will be using the Nervive roll-on that I bought for my lower back pain and pelvic pain today for sure though. It has lidocaine and menthol in it.
I have to finish cleaning up the mess in the kitchen. I made a huge mess when I made hamburgers on the stove top without covering them. I forgot that hack to keep the stove from becoming a greasy disaster area. Usually I cook hamburgers on the grill, but it was too hot for me to be outside. We have had alot of heat advisory days lately.
I am taking today one step at a time. I have alot of things I need to do, but can't do them all in one day. It's Saturday, so a slower pace is ok. I need to work on getting the laundry done. Nana needs me to wash her clothes for her. Bella needs to be groomed. I need a shower. I have to clean the kitchen and cook dinner.
My old computer died, so I am using my new computer. I like it so far.
Caleb has to mow the grass and weedeat. He also needs to clean out his room, and clean out Bubba's crate.
I am feeling ok this morning. I am enjoying the use of my hape'. I still have to prepare my medications and supplements. I came to a conclusion in the night that I should stop taking ketones as a supplement. This is because if I provide my body ketones with a supplement, it will not create the ketones I need to be in ketosis. It's different when the ketones are exogenous versus body-made. I want to be in real ketosis by actions and changes in my body to burn fats.
I still have to work on my VA Aid & Attendance claim. That's going to be alot of work to develop it fully. I have to clean my table space where I work. I still have to go through the laundry room and gut it out. I am going to have to help Caleb clean his room at some point.
I have to figure out how I am going to be able to afford to buy Caleb a new bed. His bed is trash.
I need to review my website and make updates to it. I still haven't created video content for social media or my app that I am creating. I am still recording the Vocal Resonance Method classes for my personal library. I completed the student portion, now I have to record the Facilitator's classes.
I was trying to make meditating a daily ritual in the morning. Some mornings are easier than others. I definitely have to wake up earlier than Caleb to be able to concentrate and relax.
The sun is rising outside. It looks like it will be a sunny day, which is good for my health conditions.
Overall this week has been a good week I think.
In case anyone is wondering why I blog, it's because I use to wake up in the middle of the night and not be able to sleep. When my dad was alive, I could call him at any time of the day or night. He passed away in December of last year. I still wake up in the middle of the night. Blogging helps me process my thoughts. I am neurodivergent and can't hear myself think alot of the times. Sometimes it's just because I need to get my plans in order. Also, I have C-PTSD which contributes to my memory problems. My seizures don't help my memory either. Anyway, if I type my thoughts here, I can go back and read them later. If I lose my memory, I can refresh my memory by reading my own posts. Sometimes I just need to express myself without the judgment of others. This is my safe space for myself to express myself. Many times it's easier to type what I am thinking than it is to express myself verbally. While I have 40 years of experience with neurotypicals, it doesn't mean that I am willing to continue to mask myself for their good. I am taking off the mask, and expressing all of me. I'm too old and have been through too much to sacrifice my own happiness for people who likely don't even like the real me. I have a number of health problems that get in the way of me finding a life partner. I have no one to talk to about the things going on inside my own head. I am growing and changing and some of my "friends" don't like it. I am trying to meet new people. In the meantime, who do I talk to? My dad is gone forever. I can't keep this stuff inside of me. I begin to stress out and it triggers my health conditions to worsen. So, this is my remedy.
My 0700 alarm went off. It's time for me to get my medications and supplements ready. I have to wake Caleb up to mow the grass before it gets too hot outside.
Thank you for reading, and have a blessed day!
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