Can't sleep

     I can't stay asleep tonight for some reason. I cannot feel the cold air in my room. I am burning up! Oh night sweats are back again! Just when I thought I had them under control. I got out of bed around 0130. It is now 0304. I recorded the first of the Vocal Resonance Method Facilitator calls, so I am happy about that. It's alot easier to pay attention without a billion things going on around me. 

    Yesterday was a busy day. I woke up at around 0430 to Nana yelling for me. She fell out of her bed and needed help to get back up. Her yelling scared me and I rushed over to her room to help her. I was able to help her back to bed safely, but I could not go back to sleep. I stayed awake all morning. I used the time to create a summary spreadsheet of my labs this year to bring to my OB/GYN appointment I had later in the morning. It came out good. I then eventually woke Caleb up after I took my meds and supplements. I took a hot and cold shower like I always do. I take the hot shower first to clean myself, and then I take the cold shower after to cool off. Taking a cool shower as cold as you can manage is supposed to have good health benefits. I heard it on the radio one day. I got dressed and we headed out to my OB/GYN appointment.

    We arrived 30 minutes early which I used to stay in the van and do the online check-in. It took me all that time to complete the check-in questionnaires and profile creation process. We went inside when it was closer to time for my appointment, still a few minutes early. I had to use the bathroom right away at that point. I just hoped they did not need my urine sample! I waited to be called back, and when it was my turn, followed the nurse to weigh-in and have my blood pressure taken. 

    Let's take a step back for me to say that there were some very thin soon-to-be mothers there. It was the first time I ever thought to myself that I am glad to have been my size, and not their size when I was pregnant, Their hips were so narrow! Ouch! That's going to hurt!

    Once the nurse was finished with the questions, she left and the nurse midwife came in the room. My appointment was supposed to be 0930, but we started late. The appointment ran until after 1100 before I checked out. We talked alot about why I am not menstruating and my lack of sex-drive. I brought the lab sheet to her so she could see what I have already been through. She was grateful I did that. I even remembered to bring up the "empty sella" problem regarding my hormones! I am going back to take labs next week, and will check in with her again in about 3 months. She ordered a different birth control pill that has more estrogen in it to see if that helps me.

    I waws happy to come back home. It was hot outside! I just wanted to take a nap, so that's exactly what I did. I was exhausted. The anxiety I felt about going to that appointment was unreal. It really made me tired. We got home around 1200. I ate imitation crab meat and some cottage cheese for lunch and rehydrated and went to bed. 

    My 1400 alarm went off and woke me up. I got up because I was expecting the electrician, Stacy's brother, to come fix the problem with our outlets. I was also expecting the Jehovah's Witnesses to come over too. Both happened. Thank God the outlets were not broken. The CGCI was tripped and all he had to do was press a button to reset it. He did not charge me anything because he said "I was only here for 2 minutes." I was so grateful though.

    The Jehovah's witnesses, Carla and her husband Tyrone, came over to do a lesson. We never got to the lesson because I had questions I needed to have answered first. They are very nice people. They remind me alot of Glenn Polite from high school. He was one of my friends in Spanish 5 class and he was a Jehovah's Witness.

     I was still exhausted. I cooled off in the air conditioning after sitting with them for about half an hour out on the porch.

    Thank God for leftovers! I had no energy to clean up the kitchen to cook anything anyway. We had leftover burgers for dinner. I love those burgers. 

    I tried to go to bed early but I was too hot. I kept waking up every couple of hours for the same reason. So here I am and it's now 0357.

    I haven't been typing all this time. I took a break to go check on Nana after I heard her leave the bathroom. I chatted with her for awhile until I started sweating. She keeps her room too warm for me. I keep my room too cold for her. 

    Today we don't have any appointments. I was expecting to get a good night's sleep, but that didn't happen. I am getting Caleb to wash his own clothes. He has been walking around dirty because he hasn't been keeping up with cleaning his dirty laundry. He needs a good shower, but needs clean clothes to put on first. 

    So Caleb will be washing laundry and he needs to mow the grass. I will be cleaning the kitchen at a slow pace because I am tired and hot. If we just get that done, it will make a big difference. Besides, I am cooking dinner tonight, and I don't cook in a dirty kitchen. I am making Nana a king Salmon fillet. Caleb and I will have boneless pork ribs made in the crockpot. I want to make a stirfry-like dish made of green cabbage, kale, collard greens, sweet onion, snow peas, red bell pepper, and baby bella mushrooms in a beef bone broth. Sounds good to me! 

    Monday was hard. It was Labor Day, and I got a call from Yaupon Auto Service here on the island. They were calling to ask if we were going to pick dad's Lincoln Town car up. I apologized for not calling them, and told them that my dad died in December and I lost track of his things. I also told them I had no way to drive the car home. He was willing to charge the battery and drive it to my house for me at no charge. I was so grateful and it hurt so much to see my dad's old car. I just had to go through there and see what he left in the car. It was mostly car parts. Some of Nana's documents were in the trunk, but it was too hot to worry about moving them at the time. 

    Also on Monday, I bought a few Fall clothing items that were on sale at Maurice's. I also bought some dress shoes that I think I can wear with my custom insoles and lift, without them falling out. I chose a bunch of styles of Mary Jane dress shoes. I am going to see which ones I will likely use the most, and how they fit when they arrive, and send the rest back. I don't need many shoes because I only wear my diabetic shoes on a daily basis. I just wanted something to look nice in, just in case I needed to look dressed up.

    I grilled our Shaq burgers Monday after the shade had fallen over the grill. It was soo hot outside! They were delicious though!

    My Aunt Laura posted photos of the new addition to the family yesterday! Calliope is Veronica's newborn baby. So sweet to see the newborn photos.

    I just thought of some other things I need to do today. I need to update my medication list and find out if I had refills of 2 blood pressure medications I take daily but have run out of. 

    I have not forgotten about my VA supplemental claim for aid & attendance. I have just been busy. We had to go without Ebony's help this week because I am broke and couldn't afford to pay her. It's been rough. She helps us alot. Now it is on us to clean by ourselves and it is hard to do with all these appointments during the week. 

    I did not walk my mile on Monday again. I was just too tired and didn't wake up early. I have aquatic therapy on Thursday though. I am hoping I can get through it without a fibromyalgia flare up.

    I was in high ketosis Sunday and Monday but ruined it on Tuesday by eating too much imitation crab meat, which has too many carbs in it. Hopefully I will be back on track today. 

    Oh yeah. I went grocery shopping Monday too. I went to Food Lion and to Lowe's Foods. I am just barely able to buy groceries. I am using credit cards to bridge the gaps between my paychecks. I owe so much money to credit cards for doing that all year long. I hope I can catch up and pay them down. 

    Times are tough. I was stressing about I was going to pay Brian, Stacy's brother, for his work because he wanted to be paid in cash. Thank God he didn't charge me!

    I am going to try to send some of things I ordered online back for refunds. I bougth these tank tops that are supposed to be ion fabric, but they are too small. I bought these ortho-hip braces but they are too small. I bought these pest control plugins because they trip the CGCI breakers in the outlets. I bought the Suga Pro diabetes watch, but it is not accurate at telling me my blood glucose. I bought the wrong cord for Caleb's Xbox and need to return it. So many things that just didn't end out right.

    I reminded Nana that we need to contact her doctor about prescribing a bed that she can't fall out of and an electric wheelchair. We also need to check on a prescription that never came in the mail. 

    I am slowly getting Bella to trust that I can clip her nails. I clip just a few at a time so it is not overly stressful for her. I have gotten most of her nails done so far, and rewarded her for good behavior by showing love and giving treats. She still needs a bath. So does Bubba. I need to do the same thing for Bubba to trim his nails. He is hyperactive because is only just over 1 year old. He will be hard to get to be still. I have some calming treats that I am going to try for them both to see if that helps.

    We are thinking about selling dad's old car. We are not going to drive it. It still needs work because it dumped transmission fluid on the way from the auto repair shop. I am going to make sure nothing important is left in there though.

    I have to find a way to transfer the title of dad's Expedition to Dona Sharon. Without Mathew cooperating I don't know if I can. I was trying to set up an estate for my dad to clear his accounts and retrieve his balances at the banks. I can't do without Mathew because he is also an heir. He has still not given me his address even though I told him why I needed it several times. I don't know how this is going to play out.

    I am still waiting on my child support case. I don't know what is going on with that right now.

    I messaged some old friends Monday too. I text messaged Travis Shaw to see if he was alive. He is doing ok. I messaged Nigel and we chatted. I messaged Dawn from Beacons of Change and Michal too. I reached out to one of my Reiki classmates. 

    I chatted with Rachel last night. It felt good to hear from her. I reached out to Christinia. She is busy with her job most days. 

    Caleb and I were in my bed last night with a movie on and both dogs in the bed with us. Bubba just can't lay down and rest! He is such a puppy that big boy! He's all muscle too. Bella and I were ready to sleep and in comes Caleb with Bubba and his computer. He wanted to watch the Addams Family movie on his computer with me. It was sweet. 

    I need to work with Caleb on his homework, but I need the chores done first. I will get in trouble if I don't get the lawn mowed.

    It's getting late. It's already 0451 now. I should probably start taking care of myself doing my morning routines. 

    Thank you for reading, and have a blessed day!