I have been awake since about 0430. It is now 0605. I have been recording the Drum & Song Academy classes for my personal library. Today is the last day I will have access to them. I have 5 modules out of 9 recorded so far.
We made it through hurricane Idalia ok. I bought CBD for both dogs to try, and for one for Caleb to try. No THC in either of them, just CBD. I wanted to help Bella not be scared during the hurricane. She gets so scared of thunder during thunderstorms. I think it helped both Bubba and Bella make it through the night without being so nervous. Caleb said it helped him too. I bought Nana gummies to try for her pain. Her gummies are the same formula as my delta-8 vape pen. They have been helping her manage her pain. She can only take 1/2 a gummy at a time for safety reasons. I can only take 0ne long, deep, steady breathe of the delta-8 vape pen every 30 minutes or so. I want it to work, but not make me cough, gag, or seize up.
Most of the hurricane came throughout the night. I slept right through it. I was happy we did not lose power to the storm. We thought we lost power earlier Thursday in the whole house, but it ended up just being that the breaker flipped.
My clothes are clean! I had only one load of my own laundry to wash and dry, and it's complete! Now. I have to put them away! LOL
The storm just blew the trash bins over, but at least I told Caleb to place them behind our fence in advance so we aren't to find our trash bins.
There was flooding in Southport. According to what I read Friday more than 50,000 homes and businesses were without power between the coast of South Carolina and the North Carolina coast.
The weather is now nice outside. It has been sunny and warm, but not too hot. Not like the days prior to the hurricane, when we had heat advisories.
We are so blessed. We did not have a mandatory evacuation. We did not have the roof torn off our house. We did not get flooded out of the house. We did not lose electricity. We had water to drink. We had running water to be able to use our toilets. The fridge and freezer had power. I did not have to survive without my air conditioners or CPAP to sleep. I am so grateful and blessed.
I pray for all the people who had to evacuate or suffered from the hurricane in any way.
Friday morning came and all was relatively calm. Caleb and I stayed home because of the flooding in Southport. I could hardly stay awake all day long. I spent most of the day in bed. I had whole body pain that I could not escape due to weather conditions and my fibromyalgia. I was exhausted. It took alot out of me to prepare for the hurricane.
Saturday was yesterday. Hmmm.... I don't remember what I did. oh ok. So I keep an excel spreadsheet to track my credit card usage. I updated that yesterday morning. I also decided I wanted to listen to music that I use to sing all the time in car while driving back in my early 20's. I chose to listen to Coldplay's "X&Y" album. I was planning on working while singing and listening. I was going to clean the kitchen. Once I started listening, though, I could do nothing other than listen. The songs took me back in time to another part of my life. It was before I enlisted in the Army, was struggling to keep a job, and struggling to pay for college. I was living in Greensboro at the time. I was living with Nigel at the time, and we were not yet married. I carried alot of trauma stored in my body resulting in pain that I did not realize there was a diagnosis for. I tried to escape it by smoking marijuana with Nigel. It put me to sleep and made me my muscles tense up. I tried to feel better by snorting cocaine too. I'm so blessed to have made decisions to get me out of the circumstances that led me to do that. I decided I could be a soldier too after Mathew graduated basic training and had changed. I wanted a positive change in my life, so I prepared to enlist in the Army.
It had only been a few years since 9/11/2001. The memory was fresh in my mind. I was at UNCG in the freshman dorms, and in my room. I was watching tv when all of a sudden an emergency came on screen. I heard the news and felt devastated and scared. I was worried about my family who frequent New York City. The phone lines were so busy. I tried calling my grandpa over and over.
It was 2006 when I enlisted and went to basic training. The U.S. had been in war for years by then. I went to basic training knowing that I could be deployed after training was over, and I could lose my life. I thought to myself, "Better to live and die as a soldier than to live and die as a drug addict."
Some of the Coldplay songs reminded me of driving to see my dad on the weekends and meeting him at his shop. It really hurts that he is no longer alive. I cried heavy tears.
I washed only 3 dishes and stopped. I needed a break from the emotions going through my body. I went to lie down and take a nap. I never did get the kitchen clean. Nana had a bowl of soup and a sandwich. Caleb and I had leftover sausages from the night before.
A new email came from Sweetwater listing the best beginner acoustic guitars. I actually bought my first acoustic guitar! It was way cheaper than what I saw when I searched, and made it much more affordable for me to buy. I am so excited!
I think that's when I decided to record the Drum & Song Academy videos. I recorded the intro, Module 1, and Module 2 yesterday.
The sun is now shining. Today I need to work on Caleb's dirty laundry, go to Food Lion for blueberries, clean the kitchen, and make bacon for BLT's.
I am truly grateful to be safe and at home.
I have not been doing the Melanie Beckler Angel meditations. I have not been practicing Reiki on myself. I am using more plant medicine than ever. I cannot take the tinctures from Four Visions Market because of the alcohol base. I did buy yoni bath blends and an eye drop solution too. That's where I get my hape' from.
I go to see my new OB/GYN on Tuesday. Wish me luck in getting the appropriate hormone replacement therapy that I need!
I am back in aquatic therapy on Thursday. I need to buy Caleb a membership so we can save money on him going with me.
I am considering walking on Monday again. I like to walk a mile every Monday morning, but I couldn't do it last Monday because I was recovering from a bad fibromyalgia flare up.
I got my new hip brace in the mail yesterday, and it is one size fits all. It does not fit me, so I am going to have to track customer service down and return them.
I received my Mellow Fellow delta-8 products in the mail yesterday too. I tried the "Motivation" blend to see how it made me feel. It's better for staying awake than the "Dream" blend for sure!
I tried to chat with some men through facebook dating, but they are so shady! Like, I am just being me, got nothing to hide. I'm not hiding it because I feel if you can't take it like I can, I don't want you around anyway. You won't be a good partner for me. Point blank.
I don't know. I have forgotten how hard dating is. You never really know who you are dealing with online too. It's not the same as meeting someone through work or school.
I already forgot that I have 4 more modules of Drum & Song Academy to record. I have learned so much already! I can't wait to be able to slow down and practice until I get it perfected. I am learning how to play the frame drum and sing songs with it. I haven't been singing like I once did. There use to be a time when I couldn't drive without singing. I wouldn't do my chores without listening to music and singing in my head. Anytime I could, I listened to music. I can't connect to the music I hear on the radio, like I did when I was younger.
Tomorrow is Labor Day. I skipped tomorrow's appointment with Ebony to clean the house because I don't have the money to pay her for this week. I have to find a way to be able to afford help around the house like I need. I need the VA to decide in my favor for aid & attendance. I have to submit a supplemental claim with evidence that I need and qualify for that benefit. I need to start working on that.
I still have to record the Vocal Resonance Method Facilitator live calls. I don't want to lose those either.
Soooo.... last week was my "period week." I didn't menstruate, but I did have cramps and some proof of my body wanting to menstruate. It's a big deal because I have not had a period in more than a year, maybe even longer but I can't remember. I bought Caleb cookies, which he then brought in to me to open the package for him. I couldn't say no when he offered me one. That night I had alot of cookies. These cookies were full sugar, regular cookies. I am supposed to eat fewer than 30g of carbohydrates on my doctor-prescribed keto diet, and I definitely went over the limit. It tasted so good though. Real chocolate!
The next day or so I ordered a door dash order from Lowe's Foods for 7 boxes of cereal and 4 almond milks. This was before the hurricane. I had my fill of cereal too.
I say all of that to say I hope that I am in ketosis today. I was "good" all day yesterday. Staying in ketosis is the best way for me to lose weight right now. Continuing to walk will help me with my stress levels and keep me able to move without so much pain.
There is alot going on with me this week. I just hope I can manage it all. I began clearing the clutter in my workspace a while back, but I did not finish the job.
I want to organize a hurricane prep area inside my house where I can stock our emergency stock so it won't get used unless we need it.
I want to help Nana get her room just right. I know what it is like to live with clutter, and it's negatively affecting both of us. I still have stuff to put away in my room. Caleb needs to clean his room out completely and deep clean and start fresh.
Today is Sunday so I have to remind Caleb to clear off the porch of any trash or recycling and take all the trash out of the house, into the bins, and take the bins to the road. If I don't tell him exactly what to do, he won't do it right. He may still not do it right. I just keep trying to keep him in a routine so it is familiar to him. It can be frustrating to be Caleb's only parent.
Caleb likes to waste time and argue about things that do not need to be argued. I just breathe through it and have patience. I want him to learn so he understands why it's important to help around the house, why it's important to keep our spaces clean, and that I am here to teach him, not argue with him.
Somebody's dogs are outside barking. The birds are chirping. The sun is rising. Looks like another beautiful day.
It's already 0747. I need to get to work on preparing my medications and supplements. I still have recording to do, which requires me to watch the videos and stay in my chair. I might want to start the laundry and the dishwasher before I start recording again. If I get the pans washed too, I can start baking bacon! Wins! Maybe I should go get the blueberries before I start cooking though. Yeah that sounds better.
Time to wake Caleb up! Here we go!
Thank you for reading, and have a blessed day!
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Peace out!
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