Wednesday, March 20, 2024

It's been tough

     It is now 0248 on Wednesday. I couldn't sleep. It's just not cold enough in my room. Yesterday was a tough day. Caleb and I started the morning a little later than usual because he was not going to ride the bus to school. He had his psychiatrist appointment to go to. We made it there on time and had no issues. We are still in the ADHD medication catastrophe where none of the ADHD medication is available at the pharmacy due to manufacturing issues. We scheduled the next appointment with his psychiatrist for 2 months out. I took Caleb to school and went on my way. I decided to stop at Taco Bell because I was starving and needed food before going to Walmart and buying groceries. I drove to Walmart after I had lunch. On the way to Walmart, I almost got into a 3 car accident! Traffic was backed up and we were driving slowly so I did not leave a lot of space between my vehicle and the vehicle in front of me. The vehicle in front of me slammed on the brakes all of a sudden, and forced me to do the same thing! The person behind me swerved and slammed on the brakes to avoid hitting me. Ugh! I couldn't wait to get out of traffic. I picked up sandwich-making supplies at Walmart and then went to put gas in the car. One entrance to the gas station was blocked by road construction, and everyone had to use the other entrance. It was backed up. I'm lucky I got in and out without an accident there too! After all of that, I drove home because I was supposed to meet Lakita at 1400 at my house. I wanted to get home in time to start making a corned beef brisket too, but I didn't get home early enough. When I got home, I was exhausted. I went and checked the mail, then brought the groceries in. I needed to rest. My body was hurting and I was sooo tired. I went to lie down for about 20 minutes. Lakita arrived and we talked about the progress Caleb and I made over the weekend. 

    Caleb put together the 9-cube organizer that Lakita bought us on Friday when we met at Walmart to spend the funds allotted to our family. She also bought us 2 new tires and ingredients to complete the keto chili recipe I wanted to make for dinner but had no grocery money to buy. I was beyond grateful. 

    I took apart the old 9-cube organizer that was not holding together well. I began removing the recycling and trash from the living room and my workspace. I began moving bags of groceries to the pantry area and even began putting some groceries away. I was able to unload the reusable grocery bags and fill a bag with the others folded in it. I picked up most of the unused dog pickup bags that were all unraveled on the floor. I brought the dirty dishes to the sink to be washed. I did a lot, but it doesn't look like I did anything. 

    That was on Monday that Caleb put the organizer together and I did that work. Monday was a teacher workday so Caleb did not have school. Sunday I think it was when I was able to clean up the kitchen and have a Greek night. Sunday was St. Patrick's Day, and my mom's birthday, but I had to cook the carne picada first before the corned beef brisket. 

    I wanted to be able to clean some laundry, but the laundry room is a disaster and I cannot make my way to the washer and dryer safely. 

    I took a shower on Sunday too. I was way overdue. It is hard for me to take showers as often as I want because I don't have a lot of energy most days, and taking a shower is a tough job for me. 

    Carla came over to visit on Sunday too. I was happy to see her and her family. She was sick the week before and we had to cancel our meetup. 

    Yesterday Lakita put a lot of pressure on me and I didn't feel like these social workers don't understand what it means to be me, and just like to bully me into doing what they say to do when they say to do it. I'm like " I can't , I'm disabled for Christ sake! Get it through your head!" It's so frustrating. 

    I do the best I can every day. I can only do so much on the house because I have so many doctor's appointments I have to go to during the week. Plus, Caleb goes to public school now and is not home Monday-Friday. I have trouble bending over to pick things up. If I didn't, we wouldn't be in this mess! I need help. Carla helped me clean Caleb's room. I could not have done it by myself. 

    I got my Celebrex in the mail the other day, which makes a big difference. I have also been using my kratom on days that I know I am going to do physical labor, and that helps a lot too. I have had to use delta-8 at night a few times recently because my pain is too much to sleep. My psychiatrist hates that I use delta-8 and kratom, but no doctor is offering me something else that will work for my pain to be non-existent! If you are looking for brands I trust, go to the affiliates page on my website, www.healinergy.com . 

    Caleb has a regular school day today, so wakeup is at 0530. It is now 0340. I did some hape'. It makes me soo thirsty! 

    I bought some new keto supplements I am going to try today. I've got to do better about my food choices. I have been working to be on keto for so long though, that I want all the food in sight! The struggle is real. 

    Today I am going to work on the living room and maybe get the hallway carpet cleaned. I would like to have the laundry going in the background. I am going to have the corned beef brisket cooking in the slow cooker all day. I really just want to take things slowly and take breaks as needed so I don't hurt myself. 

    I still have filing my taxes on my mind. Renewing my AAA membership too. I got paid on Monday, thank God! I went and paid the water bill. Trying to figure out how to make the most of my paycheck. I have to save a lot to cover the expenses at the beginning of the month, so I don't want to spend it now. After I pay the beginning of the month bills, I only have $24 left to my name until the 3rd Wednesday of the month. That's all I have for groceries, gas, and emergency expenses! It's stressful!

    I got approved for the Humana USAA health insurance through Medicare. That will take effect April 1, 2024. Hopefully that means in April I will get the $150 back on my Social Security Dh

    They are talking about the end of the school year coming up. Caleb's school has an 8 grade formal coming up, and an 8th grade promotion ceremony. I don't know if I will be able to buy him clothes to wear to the formal, but I know I will be at the promotion ceremony!

    My 41st birthday is coming up in April. I don't know what I want to do to celebrate yet. 

    I have been signing a lot of petitions lately. I feel like things can't wait for voting day. My voice needs to be heard NOW. 

    I have been so busy that I have already fallen behind on my Yoga 4 Trauma class. Last week was week 1. I have not done the work yet. I need to get on it. 

    Caleb ran into Michael at the Veterans' Park yesterday and I asked him if he could give me an estimate on getting work done on my bathroom to make it handicap accessible with a walk-in tub big enough for me to sit in. I was approved for the HISA grant which will pay up to $6,000 for work to be done to the house to improve living conditions based on my health conditions. 

    Well, I guess I'm going to start my day. It's now 0401. It takes awhile to get all my morning medications and supplements out. I wonder if these new keto supplements are going to make a difference. I hope they do. I need energy. 

    Thank you for reading. Have a blessed day! Keep us in your prayers!

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