Too early

     It is now 0154 and I have been awake for about 20 minutes. It is so early and I am still tired, but can't sleep. I am too hot and can't rest, even with the portable air conditioner running. I am so thirsty too. I need to rest, but can't. 

    Yesterday I managed to sleep until 0530. That is when my alarm goes off to wake Caleb up for school. Caleb slept in until almost time to go to the bus stop. I got up ok and prepared my morning medications and supplements. I have been trying those 2 new keto supplements for the past 2 or 3 days now. I have not been checking my glucose and ketones though. Wednesday I made corned beef brisket with cabbage, baby carrots, and 2 types of baby potatoes. It turned out good! I'm not supposed to eat carrots or potatoes on the keto diet, so I didn't even bother to check my numbers. 

    Yesterday I moved slowly. I went to Walmart to do some grocery shopping and that took the life out of me. I left with a full cart. I always go through self-checkout. Because I was alone, I had to empty the cart by myself. I had to unload the trunk by myself when I got home too. I had some Swiss cheese for lunch and went to rest. I rested for several hours, and woke up still tired. 

    I was supposed to work on clearing a path to the front door by cleaning the living room, but I did not have the energy and I had a fibromyalgia flare up causing me whole body pain. Lakita came over to check on our progress. She saw that progress was made, so I was happy about that. We did some paperwork and that was the end of that meeting. We had leftovers for dinner so I  have to cook. 

    I went to bed early and needed to cool off. 

    I have a lot of cleaning I need to do. I need to get the laundry going. I need to catch up on washing the pots and pans. I need to pet vac the hallway and Caleb's room, then steam clean the carpets. I need to pick up all the things from the living room floor so I can pet vac the floor. Then I need to reorganize how I want things situated so we can store all our drinks inside instead of in the trunk. 

    I don't know how much I will be able to do today. I hope to be able to get the laundry started and start on Caleb's room. 

    I need to be able to rest too. I have to cook dinner tonight. I forgot about that. I need to go to Food Lion and buy the vegetables I need to make my keto chili again. 

    I was able to restock my kratomade! I got the shipment in the mail yesterday. Kratomade is a drink I use to control my chronic pain. It's main ingredient is kratom. It helps me on days I remember to take it, when I know I am going to be doing physical labor. It prevents me from having back pain while it works. I take it around 0700 or so and it lasts until around lunchtime. I can only take half a packet per day. I cannot sleep when it is working on me. My body can relax, but my mind doesn't stop chatting.

    I am waiting on my hape' shipment. It is supposed to arrive on Monday. I am almost out of my favorite type of hape', but I have a sampler pack I bought a long time ago that I am giving a try. 

    I bought myself dried apricots for the first time in a very long time yesterday. I ate the whole bag! And that's why I can't buy them. Same goes for the variety dried fruit bag that had cranberries, cherries, and golden raisins. I ate that whole body too! Just too good and I couldn't stop eating them. Well, it will be a very long time before I buy either of them again. 

    I am wondering if I should make the keto chili tonight or the whole chicken I bought. I am going to cook the whole chicken in the slow cooker with some cream of chicken soup. I want to eat it with rice and black beans. Sounds good. Maybe I will do that today so I can be more productive. 

    I paid for the AAA membership renewal. I am still waiting to hear from the VA community care office about my MRI for my back and the appointment for the pain clinic. I am still praying to find Caleb's biological father so he can pay the child support he owes us. I am still praying that VA approves my disability compensation claims, pension, and aid & attendance. I still have to figure out how I am going to be able to file taxes this year. I don't want to pay TurboTax but that is the only way I know how to file my taxes online.

    It is now 0244. I have had to give all the political emails a break. They are flooding my inbox and it's just too much to deal with. 

    Bella is asleep on her bed under the table. She has my heart. I love her so much. 

    I need to catch up on all the cleaning I have to do because I need to get Nana's room fixed up for her. It has been put off because I can never catch up! 

    I was relieved that I did not have to argue with Lakits when she came over. I felt like she was putting so much pressure on me without any realization of how disabled I truly am. 

    Ugh! Well I crashed in bed after using the bathroom. I was able to fall asleep for a couple of hours before the alarm went off for me to wake Caleb. He is on the bus now. It is 0658. I did not see the colors in the sky that occur when the sun is rising. I wonder if it is supposed to be raining today. The birds are out chirping to each other. 

    I'm tired. I almost didn't make it to the bathroom in time walking from the bus stop. Whew! What a relief! I want to go back to bed now. I'm still tired and sleepy. I took my morning meds and supplements already.

    I guess I should get some rest before I start my busy day.

    Thank you for reading. Have a blessed day! Keep us in your prayers!