Spring break started for us on Thursday afternoon when I picked Caleb up early from school because he wasn't feeling well. Friday, yesterday, was Good Friday. We slept in a little bit and took the day easy. I was able to slow down and just be. I did manage to go to Food Lion and buy some vegetables after asking Nana for grocery money. While I was there I ran into 2 veterans with veteran hats on. The first man was wearing an Air Force hat. I told him "Thank you for your service" as I walked by him crossing paths at the corner of an aisle. The second man was behind me in the checkout line and was wearing an 82nd Airborne hat. We had a longer conversation as Caleb and I had already put all the groceries on the conveyor belt. I had a good time listening to him. It made me smile to say "Airborne!" and hear him respond "All the way!"
I had a hard time getting started doing the things I needed to do. I couldn't get into "go mode." Finally I decided to take a half of a delta-8/delta-9/THC-P gummy to help me. I had already used hape' during the day. It was a beautiful and sunny day outside. It would have been a good day for Caleb to take care of the yard had the batteries for the lawnmower been charged. I did finally get the dishwasher loaded and other dishes hand washed before I started making a simple meal of noodles, mushrooms, and Ragu sauce. I have more dishes to wash today though.
Today is Saturday and I woke up around 0430. It is now 0541. I have taken my morning meds and supplements. I have used hape' and taken a full gummy. I plan to work all day today. I have to get my living room squared away. It looks like a natural disaster struck the living room floor! I get overwhelmed by looking at it and trying to prepare myself for the work it's going to require to get it straightened up.
I got my renewed fitbit in the mail yesterday. I am wearing it now. I might need to use the new band I bought with it. This old one isn't as tight as I need it to be to take my heart rate etc.
I watched some of Thursday's video of the Pope with Nana yesterday. He used the word "compuncture" and I swear I have heard this sermon before. It did not strike me as new and never seen. I was feeling like everything is going as it should, like a homey feeling. I am not Catholic. Nana is. I consider myself a spiritual person. When the new Pope was being chosen, I prayed for the current Pope to be chosen to lead the world of the Catholic church.
I have studied a few world religions in school and in my personal life. I was an ordained minister of the Universal Life Church back in the early 2000's. I just never kept up with my registration or classes. I went into the Army after getting ordained.
I am a mixture of things I have studied. I pass as non-demoninational Christian with practices in Witchcraft, Yoga, Reiki, Sound medicine, Plant medicine, Light medicine, and Quantum Physics. I have more classes to complete that I have already purchased, but lack the time and energy to complete. I am interested in Remote Viewing, wakening the third eye, and psychic abilities. I focus on healing myself first and trying to help as many people as I can along the way. That's why I learned Reiki first and foremost. To heal myself. To give myself a better life by finding a away to remove my physical pain which is likely brought on by my traumatic past. I use Reiki every night to settle down and fall asleep. It can be hard to fall asleep when I feel so much physical pain. Bella also use to be part of helping me relax enough to fall asleep, but she sleeps with Nana most nights now. She use to let me pet her forever until I fell asleep and she would cuddle with me.
So, today Caleb and I are going to be cleaning and cooking. I have to start making the pasta salad that I want so badly. I was trying to remember the last time I made this pasta salad and I think it was for church. It's really good. Nana use to make it for us sometimes when Mathew and I were growing up. I might go ahead and make the pork butt in the slow cooker. It's going to be hard working with Caleb. He can get angry quickly, start arguments, and just create more problems because he doesn't want to work. It's bad enough I have to work so hard to get started, but then when I do, there's a problem Caleb caused.
Deep breath in. Let it out.
I've got to get working on the laundry room too. Lots of dirty laundry piled up back there.
Today is Saturday. I feel better. The gummy kicked in.
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