It is now 0928 on Saturday morning. I have been awake since 0700. I took my meds and gave Caleb his. We took a trip to Food Lion to buy some donuts. I binged on donuts. I hit the delta-8 vape after I took my meds. It makes me want to eat. I haven't been eating as usual lately. My depression gets in the way. I just want to sleep. I wish I could spend the day in bed with no worries.
Now that Caleb is home, we can clean up the house like I want to. I have to clean the kitchen, living room and hallway. Caleb needs to clean his room so I can clean the carpet. I need to get the laundry going. I need to clean up my room too. Nana needs help moving stuff around in her room. Both bathrooms need to be cleaned. My space at the table needs to be cleaned. I don't know where to start in order to be able to get as far as we can in this huge list of things to do. I think if I start the laundry that would be a step in the right direction. I need to collect the dishes that are everywhere and load the dishwasher to run it too.
I have so much I need to do. All I want to do is stay in bed. I didn't take the kratomade yet. I did hit the Mellow Fellow "Recover", "juicy fruit" delta-8 vape pen.
I remembered this morning that I purchased a new back wrap with light therapy and massage therapy options the other day. I was wondering if it had been shipped yet. It hasn't yet. That thing is going to be awesome because it is battery operated, instead of needing to be plugged in. That means I can use it to prevent my lower back pain while I am working.
Part of the hardest part about keeping the house clean is my lower back and pelvis pain that is chronic. It hurts to stand or bend over. It's hard to squat. Alot of the chores that need to be done require me to those things. I'm far from being in shape.
I wonder where Caleb went. He is not in his usual place to hangout. He normally spends time in the living room with his Xbox turned on, his computer on, and his phone playing music. I bet he went back to sleep or something, He needs some coffee. We have work to get done, and I am determined to get it done.
Well, it is now Monday morning. I never finished my blog on Saturday. I never got any work done on Saturday either. Sunday went better. I only used hape' and kratomade to help me with my pain and depression on top of using my meds. I was able to get started, but I was moving so slowly. I was able to get the laundry going first like I wanted. I then loaded the dishwasher and hand-washed some dishes. I supervised Caleb to take the trash outside to the bins.
Today was a good start day. I woke up 10 minutes before my first alarm. I had to use the bathroom. I remembered to weigh in. I got Caleb up so we could get ready to go to the bus stop. I gave him his meds, then took mine. My back is hurting so I went ahead and took a kratomade drink. I have to be able to clean up today. I have no appointments today, so I want to make the most of it. I have more laundry to wash. I still need to clean the kitchen. I just did some hape'.
Today's plan is to continue doing laundry. Work on the kitchen and living room to the best of my ability, and if I can vacuum and clean the hallway carpet. We shall see how it goes.
I was feeling better yesterday because the sun was out, and the day was beautiful. I managed to stay at home all day.
Saturday I had a sugar day. I went to Food Lion and bought doughnuts and cookies. I was able to buy krispy kreme doughnuts. I don't know what came over me, but I felt the need for sweets. Since I was having an off-diet day, we ordered Domino's pizza for dinner. I can't remember the last time I had Domino's. It was all tasty.
I hoped that Caleb and I would work on Saturday, but I used delta-8 and couldn't work while high. I felt so much better I thought I could work without pain, but I felt like relaxing in bed instead. I kept fighting the urge to go to bed, but eventually I gave up. I need a delta-8 that won't make me want to go to bed so I can work. Maybe I should just take a smaller hit.
Today we don't have any appointments, so I have no distractions from what I need to do here. It's nice and cold outside which helps me. I get so hot easily. I want to catch up on my house work so I can focus on my self-work. I have classes that I have purchased and want to actually take. I haven't started them because I haven't had the time to myself yet. Once I catch up and establish a new routine to keep things in order, I will be able to add to my schedule. I am working on what our baseline for living is. We need a clean house in order to function properly.
I want to be a Yoga Therapist among other things. I want to learn how to exercise my vagal nerve to release effects of trauma. I want to practice my Reiki every day. I want to practice Vocal Resonance Method every day too, along with Revelation Breathwork. I want to be confident in my practices before I offer them through my business.
I have to update my website again. I am an affiliate for the products I use frequently. I use the hape' from Four Visions Marketplace. I use the delta-8 from Mellow Fellow. I use the kratom drink powder from Kratomade. I need to write about how I use them and how they impact my days.
I want to spend time with my instruments too. I have an acoustic guitar that I have not even taken out of the box yet. I have crystal singing bowls. I have frame drums. I want to use them and become comfortable with them. I want to be able to make my own music one day.
I'm getting ready to get moving. I have to complete my morning routines. Then I can begin cleaning.
Thank you for reading, and have a blessed day!
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