It is now 0152 and I just got out of bed to get something to drink. I guess I am awake now. I'm still thirsty like you wouldn't believe. I think it's part of my diabetes. Yesterday I had a recovery day from the day before. Friday I ended up doing alot and causing myself to have a fibromyalgia flare up which means my whole body was in pain that I couldn't relieve. Yeah, I'm still tired.
Friday is when I wrote my last blog. It set me up to do alot of work that day. I had the clarity I needed after blogging. I had my thoughts together. I first realized that I had gotten paid, so I paid the bills. After getting ready to go, I went to pay the water bill in person. After that, I went to get the Mazda inspected so I could renew my registration. Unfortunately, the DMV system was down so I could not get my car inspected. Then I went shopping at Walmart. I only intended to buy almond milk and keto bread. I ended up buying Caleb some clothes to wear to his P.E. class and other groceries. On the way home I stopped at Lowe's Foods to buy chicken thighs and chicken drumsticks that were on sale. I saw my friend, Lisa, who works in the meat department. I ended up buying some shrimp as well that were on sale. Before I made it home, I got a call from Caleb's school nurse that he was feeling sick to his stomach. I had to get home to use the bathroom at least, and let Nana know what was happening. I was able to talk to Caleb on the phone while he was in the nurse's office. I asked if he was given the pepto bismol I left at the school for him to take. He was. He was also complaining about back pain from P.E. The nurse told me she gave him ibuprofen that I left at the school for him. It was too soon to give him more pepto bismol, so I decided that I would pick him up. I asked the nurse to just give him some water, and send him back to class, and that I would be there as soon as I could get there. I picked Caleb up before unloading the Mazda of the groceries. It was only maybe 1300 when I left home to pick Caleb up.
I picked Caleb up from school early and came right home to get the groceries inside. Caleb brought the groceries inside for me. I made sure he put away the chicken in the fridge, shrimp in the freezer, and almond milk in the fridge. Sounds simple, but it wasn't. Caleb has a hard time following instructions, and he gets angry quickly.
We had a package on the porch. Caleb thought was his amazon package, but it was mine. I order my Gatorade Zero packets from amazon because I buy alot at one time. His package came in the mailbox, and he got it later. He was looking for the part of his Xbox that he purchased with the gift card his Grammie sent him for his birthday.
I barely had the energy to cook dinner, and only cooked half the chicken thighs and half the chicken drumsticks for dinner. I did not cook vegetables like I wanted. I ended up buying alot of vegetables at Walmart. I bought green cabbage, Napa cabbage, celery, kale greens, collard greens, yellow onions, and a Southern blend of greens to try cooking them together. I found seedless lemons and couldn't believe my eyes! It was a nice thought, but I did not want to spend more than I needed to on lemons.
I got into conversations with 2 different customers in the produce area at Walmart. One older lady asked, "Where is all the food?" looking at the aisle that normally has tomatoes, avocados, and onions. There was nothing there! I told her, "I don't know! Maybe the winter storm blew the trucks off the road and they didn't make it in."
The other lady was wearing a poncho that was beautiful. I told her "I like your poncho! I can't stop looking at it!" and she told me, "Thank you, my friend brought it back from Peru for me." Then she said, "My husband wanted it, but I said 'nuh-uh' and it was mine!" LOL
So it was a very busy morning. I tried to rest when I got home, but I felt badly. I barely got food for dinner cooked. I was supposed to clean the kitchen before cooking dinner, and I didn't make it. When I went to lie down in bed, everything was hurting. I almost took my delta-8 to be able to sleep, but I didn't. I was miserable. I felt like I had a good productive day though!
Fast forward to Saturday morning, yesterday. I woke up feeling slow, tired, heavy, and in pain. I definitely had a fibromyalgia flare-up Friday and was going through the healing Saturday morning. My body was telling me to go back to bed when I got up to my 0700 alarm to take my medications and supplements. I struggled the whole morning to do much of anything. I did not even get my hair brushed until after 1100. Usually, that is a part of my morning routine that happens in the beginning.
I did not even start the laundry yesterday, and that is one of the easiest chores I have. Ugh! I decided to order out for the first time in a very long time. We ordered salads and pizzas from Bella Cucina. I went out to pick the order up, but I didn't do much the whole day. I couldn't get myself to work. I couldn't get myself to move even a little. I just wanted to stay in one place, preferably bed, and rest. Eventually, after lunch, I gave up trying. I spent so much energy trying to get moving that I wore myself out.
I haven't been taking my kratom daily like I used to. I haven't been using hape' like I used to either. It's been hard to get up at 0530 every morning to wake Caleb up to get ready for school. We go out to the bus stop at 0630. It is still dark and very cold at that time. I don't mind the cold. I simply put on a flannel shirt. Caleb wears his new parka that I bought him! I bought it just so he wouldn't be cold waiting for the bus. It was on sale, and I saw it and had to have it.
This weekend is a 3 day weekend due to Martin Luther King Jr. Day on Monday.
I was hoping to get alot of the house cleaning done, or at least make good progress, over the weekend with Caleb home. I just wasted Saturday. Now it's Sunday. Caleb is sleeping with Bubba in the living room for some reason. He needs to clean his room up.
Now today I am feeling better. I would have been better had I slept through the night.
Christinia is having trouble with my Volvo. She was trying to see if she could fix it. I think she needs to take it to a mechanic because there was nothing wrong with it when I let her drive it. She thinks it might be the fuel pump. I don't have a savings account to fund fixing it. I don't know if she does, but I doubt it. I don't know how to help her. I live far away from her, She lives on the other side of the state. I wonder if her sister did something to the Volvo. She did have a falling out with Christinia and even moved out with alot of the stuff in the apartment. I hope not.
I'm not able to quit vaping. I'm addicted. I thought I could, but I am clinging to vaping more than ever these days.
Let's see...
I can make the most of my day by making small steps toward the bigger picture. I can start the laundry and get Caleb's school clothes washed. Caleb can empty the dishwasher so I can load it. I can hand wash the pots and pans. We can work together to organize and clean the pantry out. I want to steam-clean at least one section of the hallway carpet. I want to vacuum the living room, which means it has to be picked up and organized first. I can spray for bugs in all the clean areas. If Caleb cooperates, we can do this today. He can work on cleaning his room too. Bella and Bubba both need baths as well.
Bella missed her vet appointment in December because I was broke. I need to reschedule that appointment for her. It is an annual checkup and heartworm checkup.
I just did some hape'. It is now 0309. I have been blogging all this time. I'm not tired like I was all day yesterday. I feel better.
Caleb's class is going on a field trip on Thursday that he does not want to go to. He has a hard sitting still in the theater, and they are going to a play of "Finding Nemo." He has 2 appointments that afternoon and I need to be able to pick him up early to make it on time, so he could not go anyway. He was happy when I told him about his schedule.
I bought some videos to help me learn how to relieve my back pain for good. I just need to watch them now. I hope they work on me like they did on the people in the videos.
I keep picking up a book to read, and then not reading it. I think I need to find my book light. I don't know where I put it. I haven't used it in so long. I wonder if it is by my bed. I might just need to buy another one.
I have plans on making a whole chicken in the crockpot like my mom taught me to do when I was pregnant with Caleb. She said to buy a whole chicken, put it in the crockpot with a can of cream of mushroom soup and a can of water, and cook! Then eat over rice! It's simple and good!
I got really excited about vegetables for some reason at Walmart. I needed them. All of a sudden I just had to have cabbages and greens, and wanted to mix them together. I think I will like it because I like the greens blended, and I like the cabbages separately. I just want a little bit of everything on one plate. I hope Nana and Caleb like it. It's going to be similar to a stir-fry. It's going to be keto-friendly though. I did buy soy sauce.
Well, I am sitting here at my computer with nothing better to do than to continue blogging. LOL
I have alot of classes that I want to take, but can't get started because the house cleaning is taking so much of my time. Once I get things right again, I am totally doing what I want with these books and classes. I just want to lie in bed and read and learn.
Now that Caleb is back in school, I am alone for most of the day. The new schedule is taking some get use to. I know that putting him in public school again was the right decision. I don't have the energy required to teach him every second of the day. I couldn't even get a schedule together because we had so many appointments to go to. It was exhausting by the end of the day, and then it was like, what did we learn? Nothing. Another day of absolutely no learning. It's not like that anymore. I am so grateful for this school, this principal, these teachers, this nurse... Eternally grateful.
I just have too many other things to take care of all of the time. I am not able to stay at home most days. I am always on the go, and I don't even have a job! I fall behind alot in my chores. I try to do my best. "I am only one person," and "I am not a machine" are things I tell myself these days. I feel like I am forced to work beyond my limits and then I have fibromyalgia flare-ups which require that I rest until I have recovered. It's an endless cycle and it hurts, and it's exhausting. I never seem to catch up to where I need to be in all the things I have going on.
I am still experimenting with what may help with my pains. I am trying some new supplements. I have noticed a difference in how my days have been flowing on these new supplements. It is going for the better. I need to bring back my hape' use and kratom use. Unfortunately, I can only use kratom once a day. I think once I learn these back stretches, I won't have to rely so much on supplements. I want to be able to walk without pain for a mile a day. I want to do better. I can't walk without pain for a mile yet. I have a hard time grocery shopping some days. I can't walk around the stores without pain. So baby steps are what I need to get better.
I am still using Virta for my keto diet to reverse my diabetes. I have lost more than 30lbs so far! My glucose is looking good overall. If I can stick to the diet, I will be able to reduce my medications soon. I go to take my A1c lab soon. I have to look at my calendar and check when I can make it to Wilmington early in the morning after Caleb gets on the bus.
I am still waiting to hear some good news from the child support agency. Nothing yet. I have been waiting so long. I really have needed child support for the entire length of Caleb's life! Like, where is the justice?
JD was looking to hire a front desk girl at Inklanation. I was interested but was unsure if I could do it. I'm sure he works late, passed dark. I can't drive in the dark. I worry that all the lights flashing by will lead to me having another seizure. I could use the extra money though.
Nana is awake. I heard her make her way to the bathroom. Oh! She just text me! LOL
I guess it's time for me to do something else. I don't know what though. Caleb is sleeping in the living room with Bubba. I can't turn the light on yet. I might have to. I am looking for something I bought from Walmart for Nana. Here we go! Bring on the drama from Caleb!
Thank you for reading, and have a blessed day!
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