Today's prompt is "This is utterly confounding _____." I can't think of anything right now.
It is 8:06 a.m. on Monday. I just weighed in and have gained 1 lbs. It makes perfect sense since I had a bad week.
The day before yesterday was Saturday. I drove all the way to Wilmington to pick up Billy and Nikki so they could move Billy's stuff out of his house, only to be told that he was sick and not going to move stuff. So, I wasted 2 hours of my Saturday driving. I came home, and took a shower. I went to Walmart to buy groceries because I finally got the EBT deposit I was waiting for. Then I went to CVS to get Caleb's refills. We came home, and dinner was ready. I made ham and greens in the crock pot. We went to bed early to be able to try again on Sunday.
On Sunday, we drove to Wilmington to pick up Billy, Nikki, and Robin. On the way back, we stopped at Walmart so Billy could buy some boxes. We also stopped at Harris Teeter for their $4.99 bucket of fried chicken to feed everybody. We got back to the house around noon. I needed a nap, and went to lay down. Billy, Nikki, and Robin got to work moving Billy's stuff out of the house. They worked until about 6:00 or so, when they finished. Billy drove the truck to his house in Wilmington, and they were supposed to spend the night unloading the truck. It happened to also be Super Bowl Sunday, so I guess Robin decided that was more important.
Now it is Monday morning, and we were supposed to turn the truck back in, but it is not unloaded. I am ready for this to all be over. I want to return the truck and be done with it already.
I have a dental appointment today, and also a MOVE follow up class call appointment. So, I have to drive to Wilmington again today. Ugh. So much driving!!! I will be glad to be back home where I can rest.
I am still tired. I kept waking up last night. I did not want to blog. I just wanted to sleep.
I bought my last batch of e-juice yesterday. It is 0mg/mL nicotine.
I have given alot of myself in trying to help Billy, and I don't expect to do it again. As a matter of fact, I am going to not be available to him after this. I am tired. I have things I want to do that are not getting done. I need to take care of myself. No one else can take care of me.
It is now 11:46 p.m. on Monday. I lost track of what I was doing and got sidetracked. Today was a busy day. I drove to Wilmington, and got there early, so I stopped at Billy's to see how much work was left. He was not even awake. It was after 11:00 a.m. when I arrived. He said there was alot left to move off the truck.
I then went to my dental appointment to have a filling replaced. A new big cavity was found. I am wondering how it was missed in the x-rays and the inspection I just had. My face was numb for some hours. We came right home after my appointment was over. I dropped Caleb off at the house because he need to use the bathroom, but I had errands to run. Billy gave me money to put on the credit card just in case he needed another day, so I had to go to Food Lion to buy a money order. Then I needed to put gas in the Mazda, and check the air in the tires. From there, I wanted to go to Walmart to buy some groceries. After that, I went to CVS to pick up Caleb's refill. Then I came home and was starving! My face was mostly back to normal and I ravaged the leftover ham and greens. I needed to eat right away because it was already 4:00 p.m., and I had not eaten anything for lunch.
I began preparing my new creation of a meal. It is spaghetti beef stew. I am making it of stew beef, yellow onions, eggplants, portabella mushrooms, baby bella mushrooms, white mushrooms, garlic, Italian seasoning, extra virgin olive oil, spaghetti sauce, fire roasted tomatoes, stewed tomatoes, zucchini, and yellow squash. I plan to eat it without noodles, and with Italian blend cheese, Parmesan cheese, and maybe even ricotta cheese. Should be tasty and better than pasta! Lower carb for sure!
It is 11:58 p.m. and I just finished making the spaghetti beef stew in the crockpot. Sponge Bob is on tv. Bella and Caleb are sleeping in my bed. I just got up to check the food. Bella was cuddling close to me. It's nice and cold in here, and cuddling is welcome.
I checked in with Billy about an hour ago. He thinks they will be able to unload the truck tonight. I do not know why he waits until the last minute to do things. It would have been much easier to move stuff from the truck during the beautiful sunny day we had.
I had a rough night. I Facetimed my mom, and got to see her cute new haircut, but it brought up my half-sister. After the phone call, I felt really down. I cried about the loss of my siblings from my life. I felt a heavy energy surround me as I cried. Apparently I needed to re-feel the loss to process where we are in our relationships. I don't know. I feel ok now. It's sad that we can't have healthy relationships. That is my brother, Mathew, my half-sister, Sherri, and my half-brother , Eric. That's all my siblings. None of them talk to me anymore, and two of them have blocked me. Add to that, losing my dad and Sharon, and it gets to be too much for me to bear.
I can't live for them. I won't try to fit what they think I should be like. I won't change my mind about hating Trump. I just think it's sad that I can't talk to my nieces and nephews anymore. What's worse, is that they don't care about Caleb at all. It really shows their true colors. I guess it was better sooner than later to find out who my true family is.
I have recently found Marci Lock in my newsfeed, and have enrolled in a workshop that takes place on Friday night. It should be interesting. It is about living a better life.
I am also taking a Reiki class that I bought more than a year ago on Udemy. I am going to have an appointment on Sunday for that class. I hope to learn more before that appointment. I have to watch the rest of the videos.
Tomorrow I don't have any appointments, but I am still in the middle of this whole Billy moving out project. I am waiting for him to return the truck so I can move on with my life, and not have to think about this anymore. I have no plans, but that's because I don't know if the truck will be returned in the morning or not. If the truck is returned in the morning, I will take Billy back to Wilmington, and will likely drive him around to run errands while I am there, so as not to waste the trip. If the truck is not returned, I plan on staying at home and getting my chores done.
I did a meditation on Mary Magdalene last night, and something happened. I smelled flowers out of nowhere! It shocked me to into jumping up from my bed ! It just. I wasn't expecting it. It kind of scared me.
I need to spend more time on me, and not just surviving. I am trying to listen to the guided meditations at the Magdalene Rose Temple library every night. I do not feel I "get" them on the first listen. I will have to listen to them multiple times.
I am still behind on the Awakened Soul Coven readings and videos.
I did read a chapter of my Empath book the other day.
Some time this week I have to get the Mazda inspected so I can pay the taxes and registration. I need to wash laundry. I have to find where all of Caleb's socks went so they can be washed. I don't know where my socks went either! It's a mystery. SMH. The bathroom needs top to bottom cleaning. The kitchen needs cleaning. The living room needs tidying. We still have not moved the last 2 book cases to their proper location.
Well, I gotta take my iron pill and orange juice.
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