Thursday, December 14, 2023

Let the good times roll

     Yesterday was a productive day. I got up and found out that I needed to go to Walmart for some laundry cleaning supplies. Caleb and I went and I was able to buy a second young turkey for only $0.25/lbs! I bought a 15lbs. turkey for less than $4.00! The one we are still finishing as leftovers has fed us for 3 or 4 nights now. My prayers have been answered! I am able to feed my family healthy food that is in line with my doctor prescribed keto diet at an affordable price, AND it tastes good! Thank you God! I am really struggling to get my business up and running on a regular schedule. I need all the help I can get to bring food into the house to feed the 3 of us. I don't meet requirements to get food stamps, because the state of North Carolina changed the regulation regarding my VA disability payments... so now, even though nothing else has changed, I make too much money for food stamps. The thing is my VA disability supports me, not my whole family. I am not getting child support from Jamie McCurry, the soldier who raped me. I don't even think the state of Arkansas has made connection with him yet, even though they report that the case has been moved to their legal department. I'm 15 years overdue for child support! You wanna know I struggle all the time? Ask that veteran who won't take a paternity test to prove that he is not the father! I'm supporting both me and Caleb and sometimes even Nana on my disability income. I really need to get customers coming to make appointments. I don't know who I can trust to make that happen. I have used marketing services for web traffic, advertising, and followers. I've gotten no paying customers from those investments I made to get my business going! 

    I have alot of classes to work on. I only have until the end of this month before Larisa Gosla ends my access to her classes. I need to record them because my memory is so bad. I have to watch the videos over and over and take notes. 

    I have an appointment with Cheryl Hanson this weekend. I also have an appointment with Chris Roberts this weekend too.

    I have a doctor's appointment this morning, and a phone call appointment with my pharm-D at the VA clinic this afternoon. 

    We are going to finish the turkey tonight. There is just a little left. Tomorrow I will make the ham with collard greens, kale greens, spinach, sweet onions, and red bell peppers. Half will go in the veggie mixture before I cook it, and half will cook in the oven with cloves. 2 different tastes from the same ham! I am excited!

    I got all my photos downloaded from icloud and uploaded to my external hard drive. I feel better knowing that is saved in multiple places now. 

    I want to find the photos of my dad and upload them to his memorial site. Now it will be easier to do, from my computer, rather than from my phone.

    I didn't sleep well last night. I was super thirsty. I was too warm I guess too. I went to bed in my flannel shirt because it is soft and cozy. I think eating gravy was probably not a good idea. I had gravy on my turkey last night. It tasted good, but I think it made me crave sweets. I got up late and had blueberries with sugar-free cool whip and a no sugar added klondike. 

    Nana had her recliner put together by a guy named Chris. He is a veteran too! His wife has a baby due in February! How exciting! We weren't ready for him to bring the recliner inside because he arrived at 11:00am and we weren't expecting him until 12:30pm. He was patiently waiting and talking with me. It was cool to talk to another veteran.

    My outlook on life has shifted ever since Carla and Tyrone helped us clean up on Sunday. Having a cleaner house feels so much better! Now if I could just get caught up on all this laundry that needs to be cleaned. I still have to shampoo the carpet in the living room, hallway, and Caleb's room. I'm hoping that will refresh the house quite a bit.

    I have an appointment with the South Brunswick Middle School principal on Tuesday morning to talk about where Caleb should enroll. They are concerned because of his age, and think he belongs in 9th grade. Caleb is delayed and barely ready for 6th grade. I told them this along with his diagnoses of Autism Spectrum Disorder, Oppositional Defiant Disorder, Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder , and Post-traumatic Stress Disorder. So let's pray that we come to a conclusion at the end of the appointment. I really want to keep Caleb at home, because I take him with me everywhere and I feel safer with him with me due to having a history of seizures. If I have a seizure, he can get help for me, and let someone know what is happening. I won't be all alone out in the world with no one knowing what is happening. 

    IXL, the curriculum I wanted Caleb to use costs $200/year. I don't have the money to spend right now, and I don't know if I can afford to purchase the subscription when I get paid. Times are hard right now. I'm overextended and in alot of debt. I wish there was an easy way to get customers to schedule with me. It's really the way I can work. My calendars are synced with the heal.me app. Those available time slots are the only times I can work. It's hard to be this disabled and need a job to pay the bills at the same time. I can't hold a regular job just because of all my medical appointments. Also my chronic pain prevents me from working closeby at the grocery store or something. I have to figure this out. Christmas and Caleb's 15th birthday is coming up. I have less than $20 to my name right now. It's going to be a small Christmas, and an even smaller birthday celebration. I'm doing the best I can do. 

    I love our dogs. I don't want to have to give them up because I am struggling financially right now. I don't want them to go hungry either.

    I've been working on my VA Aid  & Attendance claim. It's alot of work, but I don't want to leave anything out. I have to check my doctor's notes from the past year or so to make sure I'm claiming everything that has been found recently. I need help around the house and can't afford to pay people to help me clean right now. I was doing that at one time, but now all my credit cards are maxxed out. I've got no credit left. 

    Nana is going to help me with my VA claims process by writing up her point of view as a retired Master's degree prepared nurse and stepmom who lives with me currently. I want to ask Christinia is she would be willing to help me by writing up a lay person statement as to what happened when I was pregnant in Korea. I don't know if she knows enough to help me. I was very talkative back then. I was scared of everything. I didn't know how I ended up pregnant! That wraps up a major cause of my PTSD. That's just one cause, but that's the big one from my Army years. 

    I'm trying to come up with a new schedule for myself. I feel so all over the place all the time. Christmas is around the corner and I haven't mailed cards yet. It's something I like to do every year.

    I've got to get Caleb's morning meds ready and get ready for my OB/GYN appointment this morning. 

    Oh! I found out why my PT through community care got cancelled. They say there is no clinical indication to continue physical therapy services! WTF? It's helping me manage my chronic pain and they argue it's not used for that! I hate the VA system sometimes.

    Thank you for reading, and have a blessed day!

    

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