Recovering

     Yesterday I focused on getting some things done. I worked on Nana's laundry and also my VA Aid & Attendance application. I spent a few hours trying to get things right to submit my application, but I am not done yet. I still have more evidence to upload. Nana's clothes are all dry now. I folded the clothes when they came out. I am waiting for Caleb to empty the dryer of her second load of laundry so I can fold them too. I washed dishes, loaded the dishwasher, and cooked dinner yesterday. The night before I was too tired to cook. I was too ... something.... to eat a meal. I only ate a slice of keto bread to take my night medications with. I ate ham and cheese later in the night. Yesterday I made the ham with collard greens, kale greens, sweet onions, and red bell peppers. The ham was pre-glazed, so I did not add seasoning to the mix. It turned out tasty though. I am looking forward to eating leftovers tonight. 

    This morning it is raining and dark outside. I went back to lay down with Bella for awhile this morning after I took all my medications, supplements, Kratomade for my pain, and Hape' to feel better. I just feel like staying in bed today. I don't have to cook anything for dinner tonight. I only used about half the ham I bought for last night's dinner. The other half will be heated in the oven with cloves over it. It's nice to have more than one meal type of meal with the meat I buy. 

    I still have a young turkey thawing out in the fridge that will be ready to cook soon. I am so blessed that I was able to buy food discounted. I would not have been able to afford it otherwise. I am so grateful to be able to feed my family good food.

    I am running a special for 50% off my one-on-one Reiki sessions that I do via Zoom call currently. I am hoping I will make some sales. I know times are tough for everyone right now. They are tough for us too. We are just trying to make it. 

    I made it through yesterday without taking a nap in the hopes that I would sleep through the night because I would be so tired. I woke up once I think, to use the bathroom, and went back to sleep. 

    I am using Reiki to help me get through some hard times. I am dealing with trying to prove who Caleb's father is. He has refused to take a paternity test in the past. I believe he is trying to do the same thing now. I don't want it to be the only thing I am thinking about, so I use Reiki to try to heal myself from the trauma he caused that I live with on a daily basis.

    I find myself tired all day long. I am drinking diet Mountain Dew to try to stay awake during the day. Winter has been hard for me for as long as I can remember. There is so much darkness, and the days of daylight are so short. It really has an effect on me. 

    I am trying to put my energy into celebrating the holiday season. I like to have holiday foods. I was blessed with being chosen by 2 veteran groups to support my son for Christmas. I can't afford to buy him anything as far as gifts. I can't even buy food right now. I am really struggling financially. Those 2 veteran assistance groups are going to buy gifts for Caleb so he has something to open on Christmas morning. I am so blessed by these groups this year! I could not provide for Caleb's gifts at all this year.

    I have been trying to run my business, but I am not getting customers. I don't really know why not. I have advertised and boosted sales posts. I have purchased help to bring web traffic to my website. I don't know what I am doing wrong, but I might be out of business soon. I am going to keep trying until I reach the point where I have to renew my LLC with the state. If I can't afford to do that because I am not bringing business in, then what am I supposed to do about it? If I can't , I can't. It breaks my heart. It is the only thing I can afford to do that allows me to work from home, on my schedule, part-time, and with all the accommodations I need to be able to work. I'm very disabled. I can't work otherwise. 

    I have someone wanting me to give her a class, but I don't have it set it up yet. I haven't gotten that far. I need to review the material so I can teach it fully. I need to find out how much to charge and how much each lesson takes. It's a blessing! I just need to work it out so I can offer the classes. I began working on an app so I could provide training to people on their schedule. I have to create the videos before I launch the app. I haven't been able to get that far yet. I have to have a good day where I am able to create the videos first. Then I need to edit the videos as necessary. I have never done that before. It might be worth it to have someone help me with it. I am not in the habit of creating videos, but I need to be. I am slowly moving towards making more videos so people can see me and hear me and sense my energy.

    I am still taking classes that I have started, but not finished. I completed the Reiki Master training last year, but there are other things I want to offer too. I completed the Revelation Breathwork training last year too, but I want to refresh my memory because it has been a long time since I have practiced it. I am completing the Vocal Resonance Method now. I will be done certified soon to teach and facilitate. I am grooming myself to help people in a multiple of ways. I want to help others. First I am seeking for things that work for me. I am healing myself first, then mastering the methods to help others. I am taking classes so I learn how to do it myself, and train others. It is going to awesome! I still having classes that I have not really started yet like Yoga Therapy.

    I was asked if it was ok for my step-brother to visit on the 22nd. I said yes, but I don't have a guest room for him to stay. I want to have the carpets cleaned before he comes to my house. I got the carpet shampooer put together by Tyrone when he was here last week. I have to learn how to use it properly. I need to find the manual. 

    I will be working on laundry again today. I am far behind because Caleb collected his dirty clothes on his floor for forever, and now his whole wardrobe needs to be cleaned! I am thinking about what I will do when the laundry is going. I might spend time trying to wrap up the Vocal Resonance Method training. I only have until the end of the month before I have the test phone call with Larisa Gosla to show her that I embody what I learned and get my certificate.

    I have an appointment with Cheryl Hanson this afternoon about the AO scan app. She is going to teach me how to use it from home, and has offered me a free 3-day pass to learn everything and use it as much as I want! It's going to help me so much right now. I really need help. I have been praying alot.

    I thank God for the people who care enough to read my blogs. For so long, I had no one to read. I was completely isolated in my own little world. Just dealing with stuff completely on my own. 

    Thank you for reading. Keep us in your prayers. Take advantage of the 50% Reiki session sale. Have a blessed day!