Saturday, January 14, 2023

A New Day, Day 5

     It is now 0358. Yesterday was a busy day. I got paid early due to MLK Jr holiday on Monday, so I spent the morning paying bills.  I then took my medications and supplements, and gave Caleb his medication. I listened to my playlist that I created from Erica Rock's Infinite Blessings bundle. I then walked on the incline trainer and listened to the radio. I walked 0.5 miles at 2 mph after warming up for 3 minutes. After I walked, I checked my blood sugar, and ate some pepperoni. My mom called on her way home from work for lunch. She updated me on Pepere and Granny. Pepere is getting better. I took a hot shower and got dressed in some clean clothes. Despite doing all these things, it was actually a slow morning. I woke up late and just took things one step at a time. It was gray outside and dark during the morning. I could have slept all morning, or at least stayed in bed. 

    Caleb and I went out to run errands. I went to the Post Office to send some mail out, then we went to Walmart to pick up Dona Sharon's medications. While we were there, I bought some vegetables too. On the way home, we stopped at CVS to pick up Caleb's refill.  As we were on our way home, we passed a car on the side of the road that I recognized as Ashley's car. I called her right away to make sure she was ok. She wasn't. She was frantic, stressed, and crying. Her tire had blown out and she needed a tow truck. I told her I would be right there, and that I was turning around. I used my AAA membership to call a tow truck for her. She was there with Josh and JJ. Everything worked out, and Caleb and I went home. 

    I got a call from John Ray at American New Funding to ask about some paperwork. When I got home, I emailed it to him. He sent me the new disclosures to review. I was running out of time before my appointment with Jana Carrey at 1700. I had to try to get on Pride Restoration's schedule before the weekend, but the office was already closed. 

    My appointment with Jana Carrey went well. I was very peaceful by the end of the appointment. Dona Sharon listened to our conversation for the first half. I think she was calmed down too. 

    I ate leftover meatloaf before the appointment started, so when it was over, I was ready for bed. My glucose was good, and so were my ketones. I was in nutritional ketosis. 

    On Thursday, the story of my day was similar. I woke up late and took my medications and supplements. I walked on the incline trainer for 0.75 mi. I did a 3 minute warm up then walked 1 lap at 2mph, 0 incline. Then I had Caleb help me put on my 80lbs weighted vest. I walked 1 lap with it on at 2mph 0 incline. Then I took the weighted vest off and walked 1 more lap at 2mph 0 incline. 

    Carly and Ashley came over to help me clean. They worked on the laundry then cleaned out the Mazda for me.

    I made a meatloaf for dinner. It was delicious!

    I worked through a lot of the day, but I don't remember half of what I did. 

    Wednesday was the first day I began walking on the incline trainer. Tuesday Carly, Curtis, and Ashley came over and organized the shed. They moved the stuff from the living room to the shed, so the boxes were removed from the incline trainer. 

    I contacted Larissa, the Vocal Resonance Method teacher about my application. I was accepted! For some reason, I never received the email. I put down a deposit for the VIP program. I am so excited about this program!

    Today is Saturday and Brian and Amber are coming over. I hope things aren't weird or hateful.

    I've been listening to the radio to sit with my dad. When I hear songs from the 80's, I think of my early childhood. 

    I got a call from Dr.Fuchs at the VA Women's Clinic about my labs. My A1c is 8 point something. It went up due to not being on my diet. My testerone is high. My estrogen is low. My white blood cell count is elevated, but lower than the last time I had labs done. My thyroid function is normal. I show to be both in a post-menopausal state and in my cycle. I should be getting a call from endocrinology about my Virta consult renewal. 

     I'm just kind of waiting to be put on Pride Restoration's schedule for the work to be done. I am waiting for a call from John Ray that I can schedule the notary to come over to sign the papers for the mortgage refinance. 3 days after I sign the contract is when funds will be disbursed. I can't wait!

    I started looking over my Revelation Breathwork Facilitator training requirements. I printed the log worksheets out. I was able to schedule Carly and Ashley for level 1 Reiki training in person. So, I'm making progress there. 

    I've been consistent with my diet lately. I'm going to be consistent with my exercise too. 

    My appointment with Jana Carrey yesterday was the last appointment of that program. I am looking forward to doing her next program. 

    I meant to give Dona Sharon a reiki treatment session yesterday, but I got busy doing other things and I did not want her to wake up. 

    I just bought more Mandarin Rose Ormus from Kejiwa Alchemy. I bought some supplements to help me be calm from Swanson Vitamins too. I am all set for that kind of stuff now.

    I have really been stuck lately. I feel like I want to spend days in bed, but then I don't. I keep moving forward. I have so much work to do, but I am so tired. Everyday is a challenge. If I let my dad's death bring me down, I might not ever get back up. I can't afford to fall into a deep depression. I miss talking to my dad all the time. I have no one to talk to like I talked to my dad. It leaves me feeling empty and depressed. I turn the music on to lift my spirits. I get my body moving because that will help me. Even if it is only to wash the dishes, I am moving. 

    I have to schedule to go to Lumberton to pick up my dad's flag from the funeral home. I also have to go to Robeson County Courthouse to fill out some paperwork to establish dad's estate in order to handle his accounts and close them. I am not looking forward to that trip. 

    I have to schedule a time to take the Mazda to be inspected so I can pay my property taxes on it and renew my registration. 

    I am feeling ready to take my medications and supplements. I have to find my tea. 

    I text messaged Mathew a couple times, but he did not respond. 

    I've been communicating with Nigel, my ex-husband, lately. We had some good times and have agreed to grow old together. 

    I feel disconnected from the world due to my depression. Nigel makes me smile. 

    I am still waiting to hear about Jamie McCurry's paternity test. It could be months before I hear anything again. I could really use child support.

    The house looks a lot better these days. I can't wait to have the remodel done and over with. 

    Everything is so expensive these days. I really can't wait to get my business running. I need to put my education to use. 

    I am waiting for business listings to appear through Vistaprint services. 

    I am going to cook today. I haven't figured out what exactly I'm doing , but I know it involves Italian sausages and vegetables. 

    I can't stop picking the scabs on my face. At this rate, they will never heal. 

    It's now 0637. I spent some time talking with Dona Sharon earlier. 

    Have a blessed day, and thank you for reading!  

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