Saturday, January 28, 2023

Grieving Hurts, Day 5

     It is now 0733. Yesterday was a busy day. After taking my medications and supplements, I looked at the weekly ads for the grocery stores nearby. I then looked to see if the bacon in the fridge was any good. It was still good! I decided I was going to make bacon, and cook chili. Chili ingredients were on sale at Food Lion. Caleb and I went grocery shopping at Food Lion to get the needed ingredients for chili. We were almost home when I realized I forgot an ingredient. I did not buy the tomato sauce! I was already too tired to go back, and knew I needed to clean the kitchen prior to any cooking. Caleb brought in the groceries and I began washing dishes. I asked Caleb to empty the dishwasher before we went grocery shopping. He also took the kitchen trash out. I took my time washing dishes. I put on my iTunes playlist for "cleaning kitchen." It took a lot of elbow grease to clean out that pan I used for the meatloaf, but I got it clean! I made 3lbs. and 12 oz. of bacon yesterday. I cook bacon in the oven , 1 pound at a time. I didn't go back to the grocery store for tomato sauce, so I decided to wait to make chili today. 

    I can't eat chili, but it's chili season. I will likely make something I can eat for myself in addition to the chili. 

    I gotta prepare my medications and supplements. I feel weird without my nicotine. I am vaping 0mg/ml nicotine e-juice. I was vaping 6mg/ml, then dropped to 3mg/ml, and am now down to 0mg/ml. I hate the changes I've made, but I know it's the right thing to do. It's better for my health if I can quit vaping now. It's better for my finances too. Anyway, let me go real quick to get my pills ready. I will be right back. 

    I got the pills down. I just have to take my Victoza shot. I am listening to a guided meditation for the root chakra healing. I know I need to repeat this meditation every day for awhile. The music in the background is the first Solfeggio note, 396Hz. 

    Today is going to be a slow-moving day. I have to go to Walmart to restock on my drinks. I buy gallons of tea from there. They are sugar-free sweet tea jugs. 

    I am just listening to the end of this audio track. I was vaping and thinking about how much I hate changes to my routines. I hate quitting vaping. I hate trying to drink less Diet Mountain Dew. I hate trying to walk more frequently on the incline trainer. But... you know what? I hate thinking I'm causing myself health problems too. 

    Caleb isn't awake yet. That audio track just ended. Bubba hasn't started complaining to be let out yet. I have to go all the way over there to Southport to go to Walmart. LOL I don't have much money, so it will be a quick trip. 

    Tax season is just around the corner. I have to file personal and business tax returns this year. It's not going to be fun. I'm in the collecting tax forms stage right now.

    I guess I should get Caleb up so he can let the dogs out. I have to get ready to go out. My hair looks like I just rolled out of bed, because I did. I have to finish my morning routines. I have to give Caleb his medication too. Bubba needs his calming supplement. 

    I'm just going to enjoy going to Walmart for my drinks and the tomato sauce. I have to get gas on the way home. Then I will spend time cooking and cleaning when I get home again. Easy, peasy. Will smell so good too. It fills my heart with joy to make things that my family likes to eat that are also healthy. 

    I have to remember to water my houseplants today!

    Have a blessed day, and thank you for reading!

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