Grieving Hurts, Day 2

     It is now 0338, and I am listening to Elizabeth Peru's guided meditation for abundance. Yesterday was a busy day. I woke up at 0830 and began to work on my plans by creating mind maps of my goals. I walked on the incline trainer for the first time this week. I warmed up for 3 min, then walked 2 laps (0.5 mi.) at 2mph, 0 incline, then 3 minutes at 1mph 0 incline to cool down. I wanted to take a shower, but I couldn't get myself cooled down fast enough. Caleb had his psychiatrist and therapy appointments yesterday afternoon. They went well. Troy happened to be there. I told him we need to smoke some meat! The woman who was with him told me that she emailed me about my service. That was awesome! On our way home, there was a 3-vehicle accident on the highway that stopped traffic. We stopped at the UPS store on the way back to return the shoes I ordered to amazon. Then we came home, and I was ready to eat. I did not eat all day and was grateful to have leftovers. 

    I listened to my iTunes playlist before I walked on the incline trainer. I listened to the radio while I walked on the incline trainer. I listened to the radio while driving. I miss my dad every day. 

    While I was driving home, I noticed a blue orb in the car as I looked in the rearview mirror. It appeared to be close to Caleb's head. It appeared and disappeared several times over a few minutes. It was a beautiful blue light orb. It was the same blue I think of when I think or feel Mother Mary. 

    I don't know what today holds. I am still very tired. I canceled the level 1 Reiki class yesterday that was scheduled for today because I am exhausted. I know I want to walk on the incline trainer, and take a shower. I want to follow-up with John Ray about having the notary come over. I have chicken thighs that need to be cooked too. I need to wash dishes and wash laundry. Bella needs a bath, and so does Bubba. I need to find Bubba's meds. I need to schedule them both to have their nails trimmed. 

    Michal and Dawn emailed me about Module 8. I am not ready to go to Module 8 yet. I have not attuned 5 people in person yet. Michal put my fears to rest by saying I would have it when I was ready.

    I guess Mathew doesn't want to talk to me. He never returned my call. It hurts to be avoided by my own brother.

    The day before yesterday, Dona Sharon, Caleb, and I were talking. I told Caleb I want him to be thinking about what he wants to do with his future. I broke his heart when I ended up telling him that he does not qualify for military service because of his Autism diagnosis. 

    Army Life is hard enough without having ASD. I told him that he could still work for the government.  

    I just took all of my medications and supplements.

    I am listening to another Elizabeth Peru guided meditation for chakra cleansing and activation. 

    That was relaxing. I am ready to go to bed and rest.

    Have a blessed day, and thank you for reading!