Yesterday was a hard day for me. I edited my 2nd draft to "Return to Me", and hopefully made it better than the first version. I don't remember doing much more than that though. I remember lighting candles for my intentions, lighting Palo Santo to transmute the negative into positive energy, and lighting Blue Sage to smudge the house with. While smudging the house, I opened Caleb's bedroom door to find a colossal mess. I was not surprised, but I was disappointed. I continued to smudge the rest of the house as Caleb had gone to visit Jerry. When he returned, his bedroom door was open and the light was on, so naturally he questioned it. We had a long talk about his responsibility. Not only had he let Bubba stay in a messy room, but he did not fix the problem. His answer was something like "I need time to figure this out myself" in response to me telling him to clean his room. I responded "You never have to figure things out by yourself Caleb. That's what the internet is for. That's why I put numbers of family and friends in your phone. If you need to talk to someone to figure something out, ask for help." I continued on with a long-winded speech about him growing up, and what it means to be a man and having responsibilities. There were alot of life lesson gems hidden in my speeches yesterday. I am quite proud of myself for being so vocal and verbal. It makes such a difference when I speak my mind! It has taken me years to become comfortable speaking out loud and to other people.
I supervised alot of Caleb's chores yesterday. I guess that was draining. I think I woke up at 0430 yesterday though. It was super duper hot outside yesterday as I found out when we went to Food Lion. I was happy to be back home in my air-conditioned house. My whole body ached, probably due to the on-coming thunderstorm at the time. I was exhausted and could not even make a dinner. I ate a few slices of turkey breast deli meat with some cucumbers I dipped into jalapeno artichoke dip.
Oh I had an appointment with Lisa Marie's marketing person, named Samantha Taylor, yesterday morning. She lives in Colombia but is from England. Her accent is thick! We decided that while I could use her help, I could not currently afford it, and I would reach out to her when I had the money.
I needed a nap after that, so I took one. I felt like I could have stayed in bed the rest of the day but then I got a call from Dawn from Beacons of Change for my Reiki session. I got up but had no energy to work or even think straight so I drank some Gatorade I had left over. Usually not getting enough salt in my diet is the problem with this heat going on.
My ketones were lower than I wanted yesterday, and I think that is because I was using Diet Mountain Dew to force myself to stay awake when I was clearly in need of rest. I drank way too much Dew for one day. I read the ingredients again and saw that there is orange juice in Diet Mountain Dew! I can't have orange juice on keto! Ugh!
Caleb was on poop duty all day. He had puppy poop to clean from the floors.
I got my new business cards that I created in the mail yesterday along with the QR code stickers and the advertising car magnets for the Mazda. I am super excited to begin handing those out!
I got 2 different Torrid orders in the mail yesterday too. One had a Care Bears shirt in it that I can't wait to wear. The other package had stuff in Torrid size 3 in it for my wardrobe update to a smaller size.
Thursday Caleb and I went to a Chess class at the Harper Library in Southport. Caleb did so well! I learned a little bit, and watched Caleb win a game! We had fun together out of the house and with the community.
I wanted to take Caleb to Karate in Shallotte, but I did not have the energy at that point in the day. Class starts at 1915 and ends at 2030 or so. It would have been his first class, and I wanted to try it for myself too. We are considering joining the classes they have there because Caleb's friend, Sam, has been going for years now and is now competing and winning medals. My dad wants Caleb to learn a martial art for its discipline and for self-protection. I think that's a good idea.
Today we are doing house chores and cleaning up. I am preparing the house for maintenance only care routines in the future. I don't want to be overwhelmed with housework while I am taking graduate level classes and teaching Caleb remedial classes.
I am thinking about cooking boneless pork ribs in the crockpot for dinner so I won't have to worry about cooking later.
I have to supervise Caleb's chores and get my own chores done. It looks like more rain today, so hopefully it will be cooler outside and in the house.
I've been doing more meaningful Reiki sessions in the morning. I take the 15 minutes I allot for the self-Reiki session and meditate. I bought new "Ascension" Tarot cards that I am reading about and using to focus my energy on. I am still reading the book about changing habits. I am getting closer to being done with that book. I haven't picked up the "Smart Couples Finish Rich" book in awhile. I have alot of books I want to read. I have to schedule reading time for myself to get the read. There is so much knowledge that I want contained in each book.
Meanwhile, I am learning to how to advertise to get people to like my Facebook page for my bookstore and buy books. I want people to get interested in my writing, so I have to enlighten them to what my chapters are about. I have several "boosts" going on now, and one continuous ad going on. I am writing for both Facebook posts and Instagram posts. I am new to the way things are done now, so it will take some time to learn the best practices.
Right now I am pre-selling the paperback version of "Let Go or Be Dragged", "Clinging to the Vine", and "Return to Me". I have one chapter in each of these anthologies. I need to become my own champion and salesperson.
It will be a couple of weeks before I get the paperback versions of "Let Go or Be Dragged" in my hands. I can't wait to hold it in my hands for the first time. My first published writing work!
I finally got the hallway carpet deep cleaned the other day. I am super proud for getting it completed. It was so bad from all the dog hair and sand that gets brought in from outside to accidents that weren't fully cleaned up. Now the carpet looks its original color, as it should. The next step in to clear the clutter from the living room floor and deep clean the carpet there too.
First I have to get some laundry and dishes washed, and then I can move on to projects. Bella and Bubba need baths too. That might happen today as well. Eventually I will need a shower. Starting to kill flies with essence. LOL
I got my dental appointment processed through the Fayetteville VA Community Care finally. I should be getting a call about an upcoming appointment soon.
I start my coaching session with Brandi Miles and Nick Devlin on Monday night, and for 11 more Monday nights after that. I am super excited to have been awarded a scholarship for this program.
I was awarded a scholarship to be a writer in "Clinging to the Vine" too. Normally I would have to pay for editing and other processes needed to get my chapter included in a published work, amounting to $250 per project. The "Return to Me" project was free to write in too because Cindi is a first time publisher and wanted to make it easier for her authors to be included in her first project. The next two projects will cost me something to participate in, and I don't know if I want to do that right now. I am considering trying to get Sheila to mentor me so I can publish my own book by myself.
School for both myself and Caleb starts soon. I am trying to get together the resources I need to make this a good year for us both. I have not submitted any new scholarship applications recently, but I need to. I have not won any yet. I hope that my efforts do not continue to go unawarded.
I am still waiting on the psych eval report from Ms. Conchar at the VA. I do not know if she will take into account the testing I did to prove that I have Autism, and diagnose me. It would save me about 5 hours and $500 if she did. I pray she does the right thing.
I still have the private psych evaluation scheduled just in case I have to go through that.
I called TEACCH and found out that Caleb has been placed on the intake waiting list for Autism-related therapies.
I have been talking to my dad every day, just like before. I don't have another adult to talk to on a daily basis. Christinia sleeps through most of the day, and so I am left with... very few other options. Most people I know work during the day and are busy with their lives, not having any time for me. It's important for me to have someone to talk to everyday for my mental health if for no other reason.
I got most of my morning routines done pretty quickly this morning. I decided to wear a hair wrap today.
I have not found the journal which has the prompts for this new section of my blog yet. I have to look for it in my library of books I have over here.
Christinia still has to come pick up her bed, I need to make that room into my office space with a desk and everything I need to get my homework done. I want to be able to write my phD paper in there one day. I am already shopping for the perfect desk.
On Monday I have an online therapy appointment, then a VocRehab online appointment, and then an endocrinology appointment in Wilmington. I have the appointment with Brandi and Nick at 1930. It will be a busy and long day.
Tuesday I have neurology appointment at the Wilmington VA.
Wednesday I have an online speech therapy session and immediately after that I have my first psych eval session from a private provider, I will likely have to do my speech therapy session in the parking lot at the psychologist's office.
Thursday I have a Reiki session with Dawn again.
Friday I have no appointments yet, and hopefully it will stay that way.
I got the tax and registration renewal for the Volvo, so I need to get it inspected before I can pay the bill.
The Mazda needs an oil change.
My dad wants to see Bubba in person. I am thinking about going over there on a Friday and staying overnight and coming back on the Saturday. I hate that Motel 6 they stay in. It's roach infested. Anyway, I would like to see my dad again. It might be awhile before I see him in person again.
That means Caleb needs to clear out the clutter of the Mazda before then so we can pack everything we need to go on the trip.
So that's alot going on for next week. And to think I still have a long list of chores and house cleaning that needs to get done in between, and making dinners etc.
But for today, I will try to get as much done as I can so I don't have to worry about it later this week.
Be blessed my readers!
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