New Start Day 100

     It is now 0047 and I have been up for about 15 minutes. I am tired but I was thirsty and hungry and needed to use the bathroom. I was too hot in bed. I had to get up to sir out and cool off. I am having trouble sleeping since I no longer have the use of my CPAP. It died a few days ago and I won't be able to replace it until Wednesday when I got to the VA CPAP clinic in Fayetteville. 

    Yesterday went differently than I expected. I took a shower finally yesterday morning before the appointment I had with Ashley. I was ok but felt like I might be overstimulated from the shower. It's not an uncommon thing for me, I just don't remember sensations feeling that strong. My appointment with Ashley was a no-show. She messaged me late last night apologizing. I think she needs a Reiki session more than she realizes. I might try to reschedule one time. I was super tired and went to try to take a nap. I could not fall asleep so eventually, I got back up. I ordered Domino's for the day. Caleb and I began cleaning up the living room that he trashed. He finally got all the boxes moved onto the porch. I was able to shop vac a small part of the carpet to make room to store our drinks. Bags of trash went out. We got as much done as our weak bodies could do. We only worked for a few hours before my legs were starting to give out. There is still more work to be done. I hope to make more progress today. 

    I didn't make it to my class. I was too tired from not sleeping well lately. I can't sleep as well without my CPAP.

    Today Bubba goes to the vet for his follow-up flu shot. I have another class tonight that I probably won't make it to. 

    I just want to be able to sleep. I am so tired from not getting enough sleep. I have to drive so far away just to replace my CPAP. That was the soonest I could get there. 

    If I don't cook the turkey today, I will have to throw it away. At this point, I don't care because I'm tired and can't push myself any harder than what I already am.

    Caleb has to clean out the Mazda for our road trip with the dogs to Lumberton tomorrow. I haven't even left yet, and I already can't wait to be back home. I hate traveling. There's so much work involved. 

    I'm trying to get things organized over here so we just have to worry about maintenance in the future. We won't have to spend so much time cleaning if Caleb gets his act together. The floors have to be cleared so I can shop vac, pet vac, and shampoo the carpet. 

    Caleb is supposed to be working on getting ht laundry washed. He got all the brand-new blankets dirty within a week. He is going to wash them. 

    I accepted the partial scholarship from Yogamu for the Yoga Therapist program. 

    I have been feeling weird for a couple of days now. 11/11/2022 was a portal as well as Veterans Day. I also had my mentorship call with Jana Carrey then. I've been getting glimpses of images pop up in my head. They don't last long enough for me to know what I'm seeing. I've been getting the weird vibes from colors again too, where it makes me feel like I'm burning up from the inside out. I don't understand what I am supposed to get from all this. I asked my guides to communicate with me in a language I understand. 

    I will take over the laundry since it takes Caleb forever to get a single load washed and dried. Caleb will assist me in cleaning the living room to the point where the floor can be cleaned. He has to unload the dishwasher and the dish strainer for me. He has to clear the floor in the hallway to be cleaned too. I don't even want to look in his room right now. 

    I have to begin packing for our trip tomorrow. We are just going to go at a leisurely pace so I am not stressed out  and also so I don't forget something important. I have to pack all of my medications and supplements. That's a duffle bag right there. Caleb has to wash out Bubba's crate today and make sure he has a clean blanket for inside. Caleb has to take the trash out of the Mazda and clear out the trunk space to be able to load everything we need. 

    I guess I'm ready to take my morning medications. BRB Man! That's a lot of pills I take in the morning now. I recently added some to help me with my diet. 

    I just have to let my pills settle in my stomach before I can go back to bed. If I go now, and lie down, they will come back up. 

    I can't believe it's almost Thanksgiving already. It's still warm outside. I'm glad I returned those sweaters and hoodies. It's not cold enough for me to wear them comfortably. 

    We found a big box of hair products under the table. No wonder I couldn't find what I was looking for! It had never been opened! Ugh.

    Here is a photo of me yesterday.

    Here is a photo of what was behind me.

    Does anyone else think it's strange that the light behaved that way around me? There is a tree in front of the window outside. There is a bookcase in front of the window on the inside. When I took a photo of the space behind me directly with my phone camera, it's dark. When I took a photo of myself on the zoom call screen, I have rays of light in front of me. How does the light get in front of me? There was no distortion from taking a photo of the computer screen. How it appears here is how it appeared on my screen. I find it odd. 

    

    I have to remember to make an appointment with Marcela this week. I need to check in with Jenn too. I need to let Michal know that I will likely not be able to make Wednesday's Next Steps meeting. 

    Sheila asked about buying a gift certificate for someone for Christmas from my Reiki business! Isn't that great? 

    

    Well, it's about time for me to get some rest. I have taken care of my needs.

    Have a blessed day, and thank you for reading!