It is now 0234 and I have been awake for at least 30 minutes. I have taken most of my medications and supplements. Yesterday was a productive and busy day. Even though I was tired I managed to get things done. I tried to take a nap in the morning, but my CPAP would not cooperate. I tried to sleep without it, but I can't breathe when I am lying down without it. I got no rest. So I got up from bed and tried to have a good day.
I started my chores by getting Caleb to see if the washing machine was empty so I could get the laundry started. I started a load of our laundry and moved on to the next thing. I started to finish loading the dishwasher so I could run it. I hand washed as many dishes that could fit in the dish strainer. I emptied the crockpot which smelled awful. I washed the ceramic bowl of the crockpot and the lid only to see the messes I made when I cooked last. The food boiled out of the crockpot onto the counter, around the inside and outside of the crockpot. It burned to the inside of the metal heating bowl. It took a lot of scrubbing to that as clean as I could.
I planned on making a chuck roast and my greens mixture but did not finish washing the crockpot in time to cook for 4 hours. I got the counter cleaned. Caleb swept the kitchen floor. I helped Caleb clean up the hallway a bit by holding the trash bag for him while he picked stuff up. We finally got the old shop vac ready to throw away. It died awhile ago. The hall way is almost ready to be shop vac'd. I should be able to get that done today and then I will be able to shampoo the hallway carpet.
I ordered Domino's for lunch and dinner. I feel no guilt. If I had a partner, it would have been their day to cook.
We unpacked the packages that came in the mail. Caleb moved the Christmas presents to my closet for me. We got rid of empty boxes and put them on the porch to be broken down and hauled away. Caleb moved my portable massage table inside for me. Caleb took the kitchen trash out.
I got a lot of clothes from Maurices that I am going to return. It doesn't look like we are going to have enough cold days for so much cold weather clothes. Besides I don't have space for all the stuff I bought. I bought more clothes because I will be changing clothes more frequently when I start exercising again. I have enough though. I don't know why I thought I needed so much. I will return most of it today for a refund. I'm keeping the "ugly" sweater though!
I bought Caleb tactical boots for his birthday. He has been asking for boots for a while now. I have to buy them online to find his size. He wears a men's size 14 right now.
I bought reusable gift bags for Christmas gifts. I got the first set in yesterday. They are very Christmassy in red plaid.
Brandi canceled our appointment because she was not feeling well. I had no other appointments for the day, but lots of full moon ceremony invitations. I did not attend any of them because I was tired by 1800.
Marcela had to reschedule the appointment we had for this morning to Thursday morning. I have the Next Steps class tonight so I am going to be sure to get a nap in this afternoon so I can enjoy it. I got my CPAP working again, so I was able to sleep for a little bit tonight.
Caleb fell asleep with Bubba on the floor in the living room.
I will be able to cook the chuck roast today. I still have to clean out the chili pot before I can cook the green cabbage, kale, collard greens, and spinach blend in bacon fat.
I gave myself a field shower yesterday using the Bravo Sierra antibacterial face and body wipes. They are a life saver for people like me. I have to defunk somehow and don't always have the energy to take a shower. It drains the life out of me and I get so tired after all the work it takes to get fresh and clean. It's hard to believe that this wasn't always the case. When I was in the Army I took a shower in the morning and the evening everyday. Now it's a struggle to get one shower a week. I'm not kidding and I'm not exaggerating either. It's crazy how my health has been.
I think I might be being visited by at least one angel. My desk lamp flickers and it's not because of the connection or the bulb.
I am happy to be well enough to get things moving on my chores. I can't tell you how crazy this mess drives me. I want everything organized, orderly, and clean. We are making progress. It's slow progress, but progress nonetheless.
Turkeys are going on sale today! Thanksgiving is right around the corner. I was considering making a turkey for us. It only happens once a year. I have the perfect roasting pan for it.
Caleb's Christmastime pajamas came yesterday and I gave them to him to wear. They are soft and warm pants and t-shirts in Christmas colors. When he is not sick, he is always cold. They will keep him warm. They are cute too. I bought them to take photos of him in them. I bought myself one pair that I tried to match with him. There were so few selections in my size, and I could not get a matching set for him. I figured what I chose was good enough.
The Christmas lights should arrive soon. Christinia bought a fake Christmas tree last year and we never took it down.
Caleb hung up a tapestry in the hallway. He also hung up his American flag in the hallway. He hung up the dry-erase board calendar in the living room so he could use it.
Christinia got Harlee's packages yesterday. They will open them later today.
Yesterday morning I created a Projection spreadsheet to visualize the budget changes that are happening now and will happen in January. It was helpful to see the numbers worked out. I went ahead and did my own credit check on my open accounts to check the balances. I have a template I created to gather information that I use at least once a month. I keep track of my balances to see how I am doing in paying off my debts. It took awhile to get it done, but I'm glad I slowed down enough to do it.
Sheila is having 10 #BeastMode books shipped to me so I can give them away for Christmas! I'm excited! I will then have all 3 books in print that I have contributed to.
My dad is having a hard time getting things done he needs to get done. He is awake at night and he sleeps all day long. I can't help him. I have so much of my own stuff to do and I'm struggling to do it. I can't take over like I have in the past. I don't have the resources to do what I need to do to survive and do what he needs to do on top of that. It sucks. He is legally blind and needs help. Dona Sharon sleeps all day and doesn't get their work done for them. It's hard to hear about it.
My dad is working on his disability rating through VA. He is trying to apply for unemployability. It takes a long time for VA to process claims. Unemployability only pays until age 65. I am trying to prepare myself for when I longer receive unemployability. He only has a few years before he turns 65 though.
He wants to file lawsuits about various things. It's time consuming to do research on which lawyer to use etc. I can't do the work for them.
It makes him angry that he is not able to get things done with Dona Sharon's help because they sleep so much. I don't know what to tell him. I did tell him to monitor his blood pressure more often and keep a record to bring to his doctor because he may be on too many blood pressure medications. I told him to change his medication schedule so he sleeps at night and is awake during the day. I call him in the mornings to see if he is awake.
I got Caleb a new camelbak with a 2 liter bladder. He has been using it all throughout the days. He loves that thing, and I love that he is drinking water more often now. Easy peasy lemon squeezy. He found my camelbak but the bladder was rotten. I was going to just replace the bladder but I wanted him to have a bigger one.
I haven't been listening to the guided meditations lately. With all the Reiki work I've been doing, I needed a break.
I text messaged Jenn during the week, but we never really checked in with each other like we were meant to. I just let her know that I ordered my portable massage table.
Caleb just woke up. It is now 0351. Bubba runs to me as soon as he wakes up to give me puppy kisses.
I am starting to wind down. I might go check the dryer and then go rest for a few hours. I still have to fold the clothes I washed yesterday. Hopefully I will find my far-infrared compression tank tops in there so I can take a shower and put a clean one on. I just feel better with actual compression. I wore that Honeylove shaper and yeah the idea is good but it doesn't breathe. I got a really bad rash under both my breasts after wearing it for the same amount of time that I wear the far-infrared compression tank tops. It itched like crazy and looked so bad.
Bella just got up. Caleb is driving me crazy about the headphones he saw that were meant for Christmas.
I better go rest. I have a long day ahead of me.
Have a blessed day, and thank you for reading!
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