Today is Caleb's 14th birthday!!!
My whole body is sore and tired. I slept on the new grounding sheet last night, but I kept waking up to eat and drink in the middle of the night. I finally got up when my 0700 alarm rang. I'm exhausted.
Today I have to find a way to buy some soup for Dona Sharon from Walmart, and maybe some other things like my tea. I have to buy Caleb the German chocolate cake he wants for his birthday. I volunteered to help Granny find assisted living facilities for her and Pepere to live in as a couple. I have laundry to wash still.
Yesterday Jessica came over and worked on cleaning the kitchen. Almost all of the dishes are clean. The countertop is set up for both the water filtration tanks to be used now. Nice and clean. I cooked the collard greens with ham and Vidalia onion yesterday morning. I received the Good Chop box yesterday with the hamburger patties in it.
Dona Sharon is making the cheese fondue we both like for New Year's Eve. I think she has plans to make a meat and cheese board too.
I asked Caleb to give both the dogs baths today.
I spent time yesterday cutting down boxes that are on the porch, and accidentally stabbed my left middle finger with my knife. I reached out to Jonathan to request that a few truck loads be hauled away. He will be able to come either on Thursday or Friday. Chris got called in to work yesterday, so he was unable to haul any trash for us.
I can't believe it's been 14 years already. Caleb has grown so much since I gave birth to him. We have been through so much together. I wish my dad was here with us to celebrate.
I found only one video of my dad. I just uploaded it to his memorial page.
Well, my soreness has subsided since I went ahead and took my medications and supplements, but now I'm tired.
I had to wake Caleb up to let the dogs out. He is talkative this morning as he is every morning.
I want a pasta dish. Dona Sharon is going to make one with Italian sausage per my request.
I have been harder on Caleb recently. I am tired of his excuses when I need something to be done. I am stepping up in a way that I could not when Dona Sharon was not here. I hope she stays with us for a while. I am a different and happier person when she is here. I am more productive and less depressed when she is here. I try harder. I push through. I am getting stuff done. I asked her to stick around at least until I get dad's affairs taken care of, so she could support me. I also need the income to pay down the debts I have incurred taking care of dad's final expenses.
I am working towards this refinance, but I don't know when I will be able to close now. I don't even know if I will be able to roll the contractor's bill into the mortgage yet because I have to find a licensed contractor willing to work according to the requirements of the bank. I just don't know, and it's the holidays, so I have to wait to find out.
I need a day of rest, but every time I schedule one for myself, something comes up that I just have to do. I was planning on only washing the laundry today, but I have to go out and do all those things I mentioned earlier. I'm tired. I could use a shower. I have only been awake for 2 hours, and I already need a nap.
Yesterday I shared dad's memorial page link with Dona Sharon again. She viewed all his photos that I uploaded. I let her hear the voicemail dad left me one day too. Both Caleb and Dona Sharon were in tears.
I told them both to let their emotions out because they don't want it stored in their bodies. I told Dona Sharon that she is safe with me. She is in a safe place here. I said it's going to be a long time of grieving because they were together for 27 years.
I put a grounding sheet on her bed in the hopes it would help with inflammation, pain, and sleep. I told her I would find crystals for her in my collection to keep by her bed to keep the nightmares from occurring. I offered to use smudge spray in her room, but she refused. I hope I can teach her Reiki level 1 soon as I know how much it helps me to do self-care.
I'm so tired right now. I think I'm going to rest before I get started for the day.
Have a blessed day, and thank you for reading!
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