Yesterday, we went out and got our hair cut. I cut off a lot of damaged hair. It was damaged from dying it last year. Now I have nothing but healthy hair! Caleb wanted a punk style hair cut.
I also decided to wear one of my new dresses for the first time.
I had my dentist appointment yesterday. I got some bad news. It was a cleaning appointment. They found that I have gum disease. I also learned that because I have diabetes, sleep apnea, and chronic dry mouth due to medications, I am considered high risk. So there's that. I have another dentist appointment in about 2 weeks to have x-rays done, and check my gums. I have to see the dentist more often because I am high risk, so I will have appointments every 3 months at minimum.
I totally blocked this dude who was pressuring me to do things that make me uncomfortable. He wanted to meet me and "hang out," but the conversation seemed like he only wanted to "cuddle" in bed. I only started texting him a day or two ago. It's creepy. It makes me feel some kind of way. I don't like it. I told him over and over again that I'm not having sex with him and I'm not getting in bed with him. He tried to guilt trip me that his wants didn't matter. Well, they matter, just not to me. I don't give a fuck, literally. I don't know this guy at all, and I'm going to be intimate with him in the presence of Caleb? No, I don't think so. I don't roll that way, and I made that plenty clear. He needs a prostitute, which should be plenty easy to find in Myrtle Beach where he was staying.
Caleb made us lunch yesterday. He knows how to make Velveeta Shells and Cheese in the microwave, and that' s what he made us. He also made dinner for us. He made a salad and melted cheese and ham rolls. Yum! I'm so proud of him! He's a good boy when he wants to be.
Yesterday, Caleb asked "Mom, are you happy about the coronavirus (not the deaths) making our bond stronger?" OMG! Yes! I am so glad to have all this time with Caleb. Even when he drives me nuts, I wouldn't want him to be anywhere else. I didn't think he thought about these types of things. I was amazed, and very proud of him.
I'm behind on my chores again. It happens with fibromyalgia flare ups and appointments. Today is going to be a cleaning day. I told Caleb that yesterday in order to prepare him to work with me, without argument.
While at the dentist's office I noticed that the travel voucher was not inclusive of women veterans. The form referred to me with "his." I, for the first time ever, asked for a change to be inclusive of women veterans, by adding "her." I have never had to say anything, but I never go out, so... The dentist's office is only women, so I didn't have any fight from it. They were understanding and willing to change the form. I did say "I fight for Women Veterans' rights" in the conversation. I didn't even think before speaking. It just kind of happened. I read so much of what other Women Veterans are doing to make changes to the good ol' boy system, that I guess it's just ingrained in me now. It's not a bad thing. I need to speak up and make changes too.
I parked in the "Reserved for Veterans" parking spot at the Harris Teeter. I am always waiting for someone to try to tell me I can't park there because I am a woman, and I couldn't possibly be a veteran. It never happens. I am happy it never happens. I might lose my shit if it did.
Yesterday I returned the call of a social worker from the Department of Social Services about my food stamps, and had my questions answered. Apparently because I checked that I already had an EBT card, one was not ordered. Well, technically, I do have an EBT card. It's just that it's many years old. I was hoping they could just put the benefits on the card I already have, but I guess not. So, I am starting the waiting game all over for the new EBT card. It was ordered yesterday, so I won't receive it for at least a week.
I am low on money, but my bills are paid, and I just filled the gas tank on the Mazda. I wanted to check out the video games at the Game Stop to see if they had Fable Anniversary and Fable III pre-owned and discounted. I would love to buy them for Caleb, and use them as rewards for good behavior.
I didn't walk on the incline trainer yesterday, even though I said I would. I laid down after dinner and never got back up. I was tired and my feet hurt.
It is now 7:15 am here now. Caleb woke up about 10 minutes ago. I have been up since about 6:00 am. Caleb took his morning medications and went for a walk to the park. He loves to do that first thing after waking up. I don't understand it, but I will allow it as long as it is not too early.
I wish I could have provided Caleb with a father. I carried the guilt for his unplanned conception and his life without two parents for a very long time. Clearly, it is not in my control, and carrying guilt helps me in no way. I do the best I can to provide for his needs. Sometimes I feel like it's not enough and get frustrated because I give all I've got. I wonder how many other parents feel this way. I guess I will never know because I don't socialize much.
Our "Mommy and me" photo shoot is coming up! I hope the weather is good. I don't want to have to reschedule. I'm so excited! I hope the photos turn out magical looking. I wish I was in better physical shape, but I am not letting that stop me from taking pictures with my only child. I still gotta get Caleb to give me a pedicure! LOL yes, he loves to paint my nails.
Caleb's hair cut is so good, he can wake up and go. He doesn't have to do anything to his hair to make it look good. That's awesome!
Caleb likes to put this fake lip hoop ring on his lip. It looks good on him. I want a real one like that I told him.
He gets a kick out of my squeezing his "man boob" and saying "man boob." We can be so weird together!
I guess I should start my day. I don't think as clearly when I have Caleb interrupting.
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