It is now 0545 and I have taken all of my medications. I have not been awake for that long. I woke up with minimal pain and am feeling better today already. Yesterday I had pain everywhere again and spent most of the day sleeping. Yesterday Hurricane Ian rains fell. We did not get the eye of the hurricane thank God. We lost electricity 3 times from the main circuit breaker flipping. A small fire was outside of our house. Caleb put it out with a fire extinguisher we had on hand. We ordered a Door Dash Hardee's order for breakfast. It was enough food for 2 days.
I tried to get Caleb to clean up his room but I did not have the energy to stand over him like he requires. I am listening to Erica Rock's September tele-call now.
I was not able to get to work on my paper yesterday like I wanted. I did not even respond to a discussion post. I was not able to do anything yesterday. Hopefully today will be better.
I spent the day in bed with Bella yesterday. I think it helped her remain calm during the storm. I know it helped me. It did not help that I took 3 Hydroxyzine yesterday morning. It makes me sleepy. I only took 2 this morning. I can function on 2.
I hope to take a shower this morning and refresh myself. I want to get Caleb's room cleaned up today, but not by doing it myself. I want Caleb to clean his own messes. I will have to point out each thing I want moved, and tell him to do each single thing. It's exhausting but necessary if I want him to do the work.
I am pretty sure that the worst of the storms have passed. We were not hit badly. We watched The Addams Family Values movie. I wanted to listen to Harry Potter and the Sorcerer's Stone but Caleb did not put it on for me. Hocus Pocus 2 came out on Disney+ yesterday. I have not watched it yet, but I will.
Caleb made biscuits and of course I had to eat them. This time of year it's so easy to go off track of my diet. I hope to get back to my diet soon.
I need to clear my incline trainer and walk everyday. I need to badly. I need more energy than I currently have to do the things I need to do.
Bella is here by my side sleeping on a blanket on the floor. I had my ankle near her and was wondering where that heat was coming from. LOL It was Bella! My portable heater dog!
I am not fully present in this meditation. I cannot focus today.
I know not what today brings, but I hope for a better day today than yesterday. It's Saturday today so I will pace myself and try not to rush. I will try to be efficient and effective. I think I hear Bubba moving in his crate. This audio is almost done. I am tempted to wake Caleb up earlier than normal to get started on his room.
I wish I could find someone who can see the light in me and surrounding me that I could trust. I would like to know where I stand as far as my light is concerned. Are there still holes in my aura? Is my light dim? Is it murky like swamp water? Is there one light showing more than others? Are my chakras blocked? Are there signs of density still around? All these questions are questions that I ask myself, but because I do not have the ability to see these things, I have to work around and answer them from a different place. I know I have trauma that I am trying to let go and heal. I know I suffer from illnesses that can affect my light quotient. I also know that I am attempting to meditate regularly. I wish I could just buy a machine that could read my energetic bodies and show me a graphic of what it senses. I know I should trust myself more. I have so many questions to ask all the time.
I guess I should get going. Have a blessed day!
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