Saturday, August 29, 2020

5 Year Journal Day 101

      Today's prompt is "A chore you ignored today" was cleaning the kitchen. 

     It is now 5:08 a.m. here and I am awake because I have yuck mouth, had to use the bathroom, and was too warm. Yesterday I had high hopes of getting a lot done. I did not get a lot done. I started on the laundry from Caleb's room, but then I got the text message that Caleb's medications were ready for pick up from the pharmacy. We went to pick up some groceries from Walmart with the pandemic funds on my EBT card first, then went to pick them up. When I got home, I was too warm. It was hot outside. I cooled off for a while and made a giant salad. Before we left, though, I caught up on folding clean clothes I had already washed and had been sitting in baskets waiting for me (4 loads). I hurt my back from standing while I was folding and bending over, so I had to rest and recover. Anyway, by the time I sat down to eat my salad lunch, most of the day had already passed. 

     I started having second thoughts about my decision to enroll in that debt relief program. After discussing some details with my Aunt Lisa, I decided it would cause more harm than good, and cancelled the contract. I feel better about my decision now. I have worked so hard to increase my credit score, and I would be just throwing it away by following that program. Nothing worthwhile comes easily. 

     Caleb left the house while I was resting without my permission again. This time he took Bella for a walk. I got up and neither of them were inside the house. I searched the back yard, not there. I searched the front yard, not there. I used my iphone to locate Caleb and it would not load his updated location. I got in the Mazda and was going to go search for them, but as I pulled away from the house, I saw them approaching on the street. Bella was clearly overheated. I was so pissed! My fur baby was too hot. It was too hot for her to be outside, and this knucklehead is taking her for a damn walk. We quickly got inside and offered her ice water and gatorade. She was panting hard. I had words for Caleb! I almost called the police when I couldn't find them!

     In other news, Caleb is using his room more now that I've cleaned most of it. I'm happy about that. 

     Today is Saturday, and I plan on staying home all day. I am going to try to catch up on my list of things I wanted to do yesterday. I have a lot of laundry to wash and sort through. I have just a small closet in Caleb's room to pick up and shop vac. Once the laundry is washed, I can then clean the rest of the hallway. While I'm waiting for the laundry to wash, and after I clean Caleb's closet, I can work on the rest of the living room. Sounds like a good plan. I just have to rest as needed along the way. 

     Bella has been scratching her ears so much they are bleeding and scabbed. Poor girl. I just felt her ears the night before last night, and inspected them last night. Caleb was quick to apply first aid and take care of our girl. I kept her calm. Hopefully we can get them to stop itching her so badly and they can heal quickly. 

     I have a scab that is slow to heal on my left shoulder. I tore the skin off one night, without thinking. It is healing nicely though. I have a bruise that has been around for more than a week on my right knee where I accidentally hit the chest of drawers as I was walking by. This is why it's important for me to be careful. It takes forever to heal , not only because I am diabetic, but also because I have iron-deficient anemia.  

     My hair is taking forever to grow out. I can barely pull it back into a pony tail, out of my face. I'm glad to be rid of the orange ends though. They were wiry. 

     I found my missing earring from my shen men piercing that I lost! It had the back screwed on to it and everything. I was happy! I did not have any replacements for it, so I was concerned that it might close up. The shen men acupuncture point is supposed to help with anxiety. I got my ears pierced in that point when my dad was still living with me. It was more effective to get rid of the people causing the anxiety. Just saying. 

     I don't know if I mentioned this, but my electric bill skyrocketed! It was over $300 for last month! Holy shit! It was worth it to not be hot in this 90 plus degree heat though. I can't take it. It makes me feel sick. I enjoy the cold. I can't wait for cooler temperatures to come. 

     We had another month of low usage of water though! Yep. Here on the island $79 for a month's worth of water is good. That's not going over base amount of usage. When I lived in Wilmington, the water bill was never over $50 for 2 months of usage. Just an idea for reference. 

     USAA is giving another car insurance adjustment for pandemic relief. It's not much, but it's better than nothing. 

     I'm so glad for facetime. Without it, I would not be able to see my family in real time right now. I am isolated from everybody. Everybody lives so far away. 

     Ok so the Atlantic hurricane season started June 1, 2020 and ends November 30, 2020. I had to look it up. I think about hurricanes all year long. I did not realize it started so late in the summer, but I knew it ended in November. So we've got September, October, and November to get through. Please God, help us. 

     I should be getting my absentee ballot in the mail soon. They start mailing them out in North Carolina on September 4, 2020. 

     I start Yoga with the Women's Veterans' group from the VA in September online. I can't wait as I feel so much better when I do Yoga with them. It is not able-bodied yoga. It is tailored to meet our disabled bodies and minds. I do not worry with them, and I feel safe around them. 

     I have been moving around a lot this past week. It feels pretty good. I like being able to do things. I do not like being in pain. 

     Caleb is asleep on the couch. I am trying to get him to sleep in his bed. He wants Bella to sleep with him, but the funny thing is, she slept in his bed without him tonight. We placed selenite rods on his windowsill, and sprayed a sage essential oil blend on him, his window tapestry, and his bed. He requested them, and brought them to me. I did not even think about those things. I keep a small bundle of selenite by my head at night. I was at one point lighting sage every couple of weeks. I have not done it lately as I have not been in the mood, which is a s sign that I should definitely do it. I like to light incense and candles too. I usually do it after cleaning with bleach. It just resets the mood in the house. 

     I have not been using my crystals lately. I only used my tarot cards once in meditation. I don't remember to use my essential oils a lot of the time, even though I carry a pouch with several of the roller bottles in my purse. I did not use the alpha-stim yesterday. Time passed, and it just did not occur to me.

     I am proud to say that when I wasn't feeling well all of a sudden while I was cooking dinner, I did check my blood sugar AND my blood pressure. I always think it's my blood sugar, and it never is. I checked my blood sugar first. It was normal for a diabetic. I then checked my blood pressure. It was high, but I don't think it was abnormal for me. I do take medication daily for high blood pressure. I am supposed to working on losing weight, controlling my caffeine intake, managing stress, and increasing exercise to decrease my blood pressure. Well, I have come to the conclusion that I as long as I have my problems AND take these medications, I will never be able to stop drinking caffeine. I need it to stay awake during the day and supervise Caleb. I am attempting to take classes to help me manage stress, but I am falling behind in both of them. I have not really been trying to lose weight recently. I just have had enough of the bullshit. I want a balanced diet that I can live with. I am moving more recently, and have even worked up a sweat by doing house cleaning, but what do I do once I've caught up on all the cleaning? The key to what my primary care provider said about controlling my fibromyalgia flare ups is movement, regular exercise by movement. I don't have to go to a gym. I don't have to hurt myself trying to do something I'm not ready to do. I just have to move...

     I have been wearing my diabetic shoes with insoles and lift since before my podiatry appointment. I think I should be ok walking short distances on the incline trainer, if I wanted to give it a try again. I am good to do my Walmart shopping which means I walk most of the store, because I can't help but want to look around. 

     I have re-discovered Pandora and the Led Zepplin station. I wish I could hear it louder in my car. It is not loud enough, and I can't increase the volume like I can with the radio. 

     I re-start homeschooling next week. I don't know how I feel about that. I was excited at first,  but Caleb can be challenging to say the least. If he knew how much I want him to learn this stuff and get good at it, it might change his mind. I have seen other kids with ADHD and ODD having meltdowns in my parents' groups on Facebook. I know the struggle is real. Those poor kids have to sit at the computer all day. It's not conducive for a kid with ADHD and ODD to learn that way. These kids can't pull it together in a regular classroom environment, what makes educators think they will behave like a child without ADHD and ODD now that they are on the computer? I know I can't give up though. He needs my help. He cannot get the attention he needs from public school. There is just no way, and he is failing in that environment. Caleb needs me, and I need to put the armor of God on and pursue his education. 

     It is now 6:35 a.m. here. It is starting to get lighter outside. I have not heard Bella around. The tv is on and Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles is on. 

     I've got my work cut out for me today, so I should probably go rest for awhile. 

     

      

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