Today's prompt is "What do you want to buy?" I want to be able to pay my bills AND buy Caleb a laptop. I want to be able to buy Christmas presents and birthday presents.
It is 8:28 a.m. here now, and the house is quiet. I just got up a few minutes ago. I can't believe I was able to sleep in so late. I woke up a few times in the night, but I was able to go back to sleep. Bella is in the center of my bed, curled up, taking up all the space. She almost pushed me off the bed! Caleb is fast asleep on the couch, and the tv is on sleep mode.
I weigh-in on Monday mornings. I am still gaining weight. I have mixed emotions about it. I am happy because I have been able to eat bread and pasta, but obviously not happy to gain weight. So, I have to make a choice. Do I continue to eat carbohydrates and continue to gain weight every week? Or do I stop eating carbs again and maybe lose the weight I put on recently?
Yesterday we had a pretty regular day. I washed laundry all day long, and got a lot done. Believe it or not there is still more laundry to do. The linen needs to be washed, and must be washed separately. There are still towels too, and I can only wash a couple at a time. Progress is being made though, and I am happy about that. I haven't found where all our socks have disappeared too. It's mystery!
I had Caleb move the things that were out in the yard in preparation for the Isaias tropical storm/hurricane. Caleb has an in-person therapy appointment today that we may or may not make it to, depending on the weather. If we don't make it in person, we can do it online, so no worries about that. The worst of the storm is supposed to be here around 2:00 a.m. tomorrow.
There was a guy giving away free furniture close by and I wanted it. I don't know if it is still available. I couldn't pick it up yesterday like he wanted because I don't own a truck, and don't know anyone who could help me move it. Stuff like that takes planning. I'm trying not to get my hopes up, but I'm also trying to make arrangements to be able to move the furniture in the house. My couch and recliner was inherited 10 years ago. Both of them have been through a lot of Caleb's messes. I have slept on the couch for years, so the cushions are worn down. I would really like to be able to replace them at some point. If not now, then it will wait until I can afford new furniture from the store. It sure would be nice to do it for close to free though.
I bought Caleb a surprise! He has been really interested in collecting Hot Wheels cars lately, so I went on eBay and bought a special lot of European cars that he won't find at the local stores. I plan on giving them one by one as special rewards for being helpful.
I have been having great success sleeping on my bed, with the help of drinking Gatorade. I am able to rest better, and that makes my days better. It's so great! I don't feel like a sloth during the day anymore. I am able to meet more of my daily goals now. For a high achiever, like myself, that means the world!
I think I've finally decided that I'm not going to move out of this house anytime soon. I was thinking about it because it is expensive to live here. The taxes are high because of the "Sewer District Fee", the water bill is high whether you use water or not, and this house requires so much work. So, I was thinking what if I sold the house and moved somewhere else? Well, I would probably end up moving closer to Wilmington because I refuse to leave the Wilmington VA clinic as my medical providers. I hate the traffic there. I lived in Wilmington when I was going to school at UNC-Wilmington. The traffic is such a pain in the ass. There's likely more risk of crime because the population is much larger than where I currently live. The water bill was much cheaper though. I don't know about the property taxes there. I would have to start over and find Caleb new medical providers. I don't want to do that. I like his current medical providers. Caleb might have more friends if he went to a bigger school, but he will likely be homeschooling for the next few years. I've put a lot into living where we are. It's one project after another, but I think that might be the cost of owning an older home. I would like to build my own home, to my specifications. I have no idea how to go about doing that. Maybe I will just keep my eyes open for opportunities. I would need to buy land first. My mom just had a house built. I could ask her how to go about it. I failed to mention the risk of hurricane damages, and the yearly evacuations we face here. That's stressful. I could do without that.
Thinking about it got me thinking about the long list I have to do on the house. I haven't even started it because I haven't been able to keep up with my regular chores. I wish I could find a passive way to earn income. I need to be able to afford to hire help when I need it. I can't possibly do everything by myself. It's just too much to ask of me. I'm a computer worker. I love to work on my computer, I don't do house repairs. I bought the supplies I needed to do them, but they haven't gotten done yet. Some of the repairs are so simple. I just can't get it done. I have a blockage, besides being constantly behind on my chores and other things breaking.
I have to say though, it's a lot less stressful now that's only Caleb, Bella, and me here. I can't deal with constant bitching and negativity. I have my own troubles. I can't be the receptacle for that trash. I do wonder how Christinia is holding up during the COVID-19 stuff though. I wonder about my dad and his partner too. I will never take them in again though. So I guess, it makes little difference to me.
I have been thinking about getting a tattoo. I haven't gotten one since 2013 after I was hospitalized. I have a few ideas. I want one to be dedicated to my "Warrior Spirit", which is what we would greet each other with at Ft. Sam Houston in combat medic training. The first soldier would say "Soldier Medic" and the second solider would reply " Warrior Spirit." I think I want a stylized type with maybe a shadow figure of a woman soldier. I want to celebrate my time in service, and the spirit needed to get this far in life. I won't get the tattoo any time soon, as I have other things to pay for that are more important, but I like to think about it. I like body art.
Caleb and Bella are awake! It is 9:29 a.m. and gray outside.
Well, I took a call from Nichole and got side tracked. Time to get moving for the day.
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