Today's prompt is "What did you daydream about today?" I didn't daydream.
It is now 6:05 a.m. here. I don't know why I can't sleep any more. I kept waking up. Yesterday was a busy day. I started by weighing in, because it was Monday. I found out that I lost 4.6 lbs. last week! That's so awesome! I wish I could pinpoint what I did differently to lose weight. The only thing I can think of is that I am drinking Gatorade now.
I filed my intent to home school with the state yesterday. I opened the envelope containing my college diploma for the first time ever, in order to scan it for home school registration purposes.
It's awesome. I never opened the envelope because I figured the diploma was safe in there. I had no where else to put it safely.
Yesterday I got accepted to the Wounded Warrior Project virtual class that I applied to! It's supposed to be kind of like a virtual retreat. I will get to meet other Wounded Warriors.
I also rubbed another veteran the wrong way yesterday, I suppose. We met on the app "MeetMe." Anyway, we were texting and I just got frustrated with his lack of conversation. He didn't seem interested in what I had to say, so I was feeling like why am I wasting my time then? Whatever. I didn't lose anything. He got all defensive that he is an introvert. What does that have to do with texting? I don't consider myself an extrovert at all. I text all day long if I can. It was a stupid argument. And when he started getting defensive, I started ignoring his stupidity. I almost blocked him just to not have any more texts come through.
Nichole went to her grandmother's funeral on Saturday, and returned home on Sunday. She got a call yesterday that her Aunt passed away in her sleep. I feel for her.
Caleb's surprise European model Hot Wheels came in the mail yesterday, and I let him unpack them. He almost cried. I told him that he could not have them right away. He would have to earn them through good behavior. He has earned Hot Wheels in the past for doing work. This is different, because these are special models. These cannot be earned from doing work, although that is a part of good behavior. These Hot Wheels are to inspire and motivate change for the better. The Hot Wheels that can be bought from Walmart were payment for doing work around the house as requested.
Soooo.... I still have not rearranged my living room. I did not do that yesterday as I had planned. I got worn out from all the work I did in the morning, and had no energy left in the afternoon. Today Caleb has an eye doctor appointment in Wilmington, so that will take us about 3 hours. We spend 2 hours in transit. Hopefully he won't need glasses.
I have to get things organized around here. Things are about to pick up pace rather quickly once school starts. I don't want to lose more than I already have. I have misplaced some things due to moving things around in the living room. I missed an appointment yesterday because I lost a letter with instructions on it. I don't want to miss anything else.
They have posted the schedule for what would have been Caleb's school if he was going to public school. I wouldn't be able to keep up with it.
I will be basing our schedule on what the public school is doing but, we are going to be flexible in our application of it. Part of the problem with Caleb going to public school is that he did not participate. I am aiming for participation and growth. He will not just sit there and waste time. He also will not be required to be on the computer all day.
I have already printed out the school year calendar, so I can rearrange the days off as I see fit. I want him to have a full school year, but we have appointments we go to too. I also have days that I will need off due to fibromyalgia flare ups. I am confident we can make this happen though.
I already have Adventure Academy on my computer for Caleb to use. He will be using that to supplement our book work. We are also going to incorporate shows from channels like the History channel and National Geographic.
I already bought school supplies that I think we might need to keep organized. I am going to have to create a new Calendar for school records of attendance. Eventually I am going to have to find out how to get Caleb tested at the end of the year. We will see. If this coronavirus thing keeps on, we might not have to do it this school year either. They didn't do it last school year.
In the meantime, I am still trying to pay off my debts, even though I am constantly creating more debt. It sucks. I just paid off the airplane tickets I bought for Christinia and Harlee to come to NC from Iowa. That took 12 months! I'm about to pay off another line of credit before the end of the month. So that will be 2 accounts paid off forever. Unfortunately, I had to use credit to buy my window unit air conditioner. I bought it on a 6 month financing special of 0% interest, so I'm in a hurry to pay it off.
I think I bought my mattress and base on a special financing plan for 18 months 0% interest. I am trying to pay that off before the deadline too. Time is running out. I bought them last year.
I am still trying to save money for emergencies. Right now I have none. It's not a good way to be. I have emergencies all the time. I am also trying to save to have repairs done to my house. I bought the vinyl plank for the kitchen floor last year when I could, but still need the rest of the supplies and money to pay for labor. I want to replace the kitchen cabinets under the sink, but might wait until I can afford to renovate the entire kitchen. It's all falling apart. I'm guessing it's as old as the house, more than 30 years old. Until then, we are just living with it.
I need new sheets for my bed. Apparently I didn't have the new deep pocket sheets in my inventory, and that's what I need for my tall mattress. I don't know when I will be able to get them, but I found them on Amazon for a good price.
I have to save to be able to buy Caleb a laptop when it goes on sale.
If I can manage it, I would like to buy Caleb a new bike either for Christmas or his birthday. I just thought about that. It's a good idea. Maybe I can get my mom to help me buy one, and we give it to him from both of us. His bike broke, and he has been without a bike for more than half the summer.
He wants a fishing pole too. I can get one for $30 from Walmart , I think. I need time to plan for all these things, because I don't have a money tree in the backyard.
We are definitely in the midst of Hurricane season for the next 2 months at least. I am slowly emptying my freezer so that when another hurricane hits, I won't lose so much of my hard earned groceries. It's hard to not buy meats on sale. It's one of my favorite sports.
We have managed to keep the water bill down, but I know next month's electricity bill is going to be higher for sure. It's just too hot outside to not run the air conditioning. We are having many days of over 100 degree heat indices.
I am no longer feeling like I need to find a job. I have one. School teacher. It filled a hole inside me. I feel better. I don't feel like I need to do more all the time, like I did. It was never enough. Now I feel, it's more than enough. I do everything I can, as I can. I don't think some people in my life get how hard my life really is. I mean I am not on disability without being disabled, ok?
I guess if you don't have anything wrong with you, or even if you do, it's hard to put yourself in someone else's shoes.
I never put the Christmas tree away. I'm just saying. Things don't get done, because I can't keep up with it all. I have to prioritize my time and energy more than normal because I have so little to give. It's a lot of mental work to lay out everything in advance to ensure success of any rate.
It's now 7:29 a.m. here. Caleb woke up for a minute and went back to sleep. Bella never got up from the bed. My pelvis is already in pain. I don't know that we will get much done today other than driving to Caleb's appointment.
I'm ready for cooler weather. I'm over the summer already. I never liked the summer to begin with. I just looked forward to Caleb not having to get up at 6:30 in the morning to catch the bus.
I got side tracked. I gotta start my day. Caleb is awake!
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