Today's prompt is " In 3 words, describe your spirituality". Open to new information.
It is now 2:!4 a.m. here. Caleb is asleep. Bella is on the bed. The tv is in sleep mode. It is quiet. I am awake, not because I don't want to sleep, but because I was sweating and couldn't fall back asleep.
Yesterday started out with Caleb being gone from the house when I woke up. He had left to go the park without permission. It was not a good start to the day.
It was sunny and bright when I went outside to determine the damages from Isaias. I had no damages. Some people were not so lucky. At least 2 families had to be helped from their houses due to flooding on the island. Many people on the beachfront had damages and had their vehicles swept away in the water, down the road, and flooded. Many people were without electricity Tuesday morning. I was not one of them. The electricity went out for a few seconds and returned while I was awake Monday night. Some people had their water turned off due to damages to the sewer system from the storm. I was not one of them.
While I felt ok yesterday morning, the afternoon brought lots of pain. I had pain from my head to my toes. It was a fibromyalgia flare up due to the stress the storm caused. I was supposed to work on my porch and start getting old furniture out of the house, but I could not work at all. I was barely able to make dinner. I felt like I had internal fires under my skin, burning. I was so hot. It was inflammation. I could do nothing but rest, but Caleb was restless. I was so sleepy and tired. I could not drink enough water and gatorade to feel better.
I began to feel better around 5:30 p.m., so I was able to make dinner. When I went back to bed, my lower back was in pain, and my pelvis hurt. It's days like this I wish I could soak in a lukewarm bath with epsom salts. Unfortunately my bath is not big enough for me to fit in it.
The guy I am getting the furniture from changed the pickup day after I had already made arrangements to pickup a u-haul truck, and hire movers. So, I had to change that appointment. Luckily, all I had to do was edit my order, and it was ok. Now, we are picking up on Friday afternoon, instead of Saturday afternoon.
I am so thirsty right now. I am chugging Dew. I am still coughing from vaping but I have most of my voice. There is a town-wide curfew in effect from 6 p.m. to 6 a.m. now due to damages on the island.
Caleb hurt his pinky toe and it was bleeding. After he applied first aid, I told him he needed to put socks on. He does not know where many of his socks have gone, and wanted to go to Walmart to get some new socks. I told him we couldn't go anywhere because it was already 6:04 p.m. and there was a curfew in effect.
Once he internalized that I was not feeling well, he wanted to help me feel better. He applied the aromatherapy body cream from Bath & Body Works that I have to my belly, and made it soft. He set up the diffuser in my room and put in a mint scented essential oil. He turned the diffuser on the setting where the light changes color. It was so pretty. I put the same body cream on his back for him, and rubbed and scratched his back. His back always itches. He cut up a cucumber for a snack for me. Bella and Caleb cuddled with me on my bed, while Harry Potter was on the dvd player. I love Harry Potter, and it helps me relax. The music is awesome.
I did not know there was a sugar-free gatorade available. Apparently it does not come in the 6 gallon powder container yet. Ugh. That's the cheapest way for me to buy gatorade. Of course it's not available !
Bella stayed in bed with me while I rested yesterday afternoon. She is such a sweetie. Her package came in the mail yesterday from Chewy. I bought her 2 large bags of dry dog food in preparation for hurricane season. Just in case we get stuck in the house for a month, she will still have food and water. I bought the chicken, brown rice, and vegetable recipe for the first time for her, and that's what she had for dinner. She ate the whole bowl, no problems! I guess she liked it. I'm happy to provide my sweet Bella with high quality food. It's the least I can do for her. I love her so much. I wish she could live with me forever.
I told Caleb yesterday that I love him and that I never want anything to hurt him. I have told him that I love him before many times, but never that I never wanted anything to hurt him. I hope it hit home that I try to protect him from danger. I don't think he gets it yet. He has impulse control due to his ADHD. He doesn't think things through.
Caleb has an occupational therapy appointment later today. I will be allowed to wait inside the building. It is just too hot outside for me. I get to feeling sick after a short amount of time.
I had to really get creative in being able to pay for the u-haul and movers. It's not cheap to hire help, but I knew I could not move furniture, even with another person helping. I just could not let this free furniture go! I have thought about replacing my living room furniture for years, but have never had the extra money to buy any. I can't believe my luck!
My mom wanted to know why I don't quit vaping. Well, I'm addicted to it. It's just as bad as smoking cigarettes, which I use to do. I use to smoke a pack a day of Newports. I only really quit that habit when I got pregnant, for the sake of my baby. Stress makes people act differently. I am constantly under stress, and there is nothing I can do about it. That's just my life. I vape as a coping mechanism. I've got to worry about the coronavirus and being stuck at home with Caleb, hurricanes, and money situation. It never ends. I have appliances breaking down every other month. I have very few local friends. Very few people check up on me and chat. I have so much to say that I don't have anyone to tell that I write a blog daily to let myself vent and think "out loud." So, I think I could be doing much worse. Besides, it's not like I haven't tried to quit many times before. Quitting any habit is difficult.
I'm exhausted. I just want to cool off and go to bed, but now I have had so many Diet Mountain Dews that I may not be able to sleep. Shot in the foot!
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