Today's prompt is "Yes or no: Everyone should have a backup plan." Yes.
It is now 3:52 a.m. on Tuesday here. On Sunday, I slept in until almost noon. I was sooo tired, and still tired when I woke up. I did not stay awake for very long because after I ate brunch, I did not feel well. I went back to bed for most of the afternoon. I got nothing done. The day flew by.
Yesterday was Martin Luther King, Jr. Day. I woke up around 8:00 a.m. and woke Caleb up to take the trash to the road for pickup. I was pretty slow moving, but I did check my sugar first thing. Billy G. wanted me to drive him to run some errands. I had not decided how I was feeling just yet. Once I felt like I could take a shower, I let him know I would drive over. On days I shower, I don't normally end up doing much anyway. Showering takes a lot out of me, and then, when I am clean, I don't want to get dirty.
Caleb and I left around 12 and got there around 1. He needed to pick up his check and cash it so he could pay the water bill. We did the first two things, but the water company was closed for the holiday. We went to Kohl's to see if he could buy the soap he likes. They did not have it anymore. He saw the Buffalo Wild Wings across the parking lot, and wanted to go there, so we did. He treated Caleb and me to wings, fried pickles, and french fries. Then we went to Food Lion so he could do some grocery shopping. Once that was done, I took Billy home and dropped him off. Caleb and I started driving towards home, but I decided to stop at the T-Mobile store. I was on the phone with T-Mobile customer service trying to fix my phone service problems. I was not able to receive phone calls or text messages. I did get it fixed. I ended up switching back to T-Mobile. I can afford T-Mobile. I spend $55/mo with them for unlimited plan. The same plan with Verizon is about $40 more a month.
Caleb and I came home, and had a pretty quiet night. We got home just in time, before it got dark outside. I fed Bella salmon bits, and her veggie mix with her kibble. Caleb made himself some Velveeta Shells and Cheese, and I ate his leftover wings that he did not like.
I got to talk to my Aunt Lisa last night. We caught up on how my health is going and talked about how we are doing with the homeschooling. I am not doing as well as I would like with homeschooling Caleb. I would like to be able to sit still with him and get some studying done. He is so hyperactive, even with medication, that it makes it hard. Also, we still deal with Oppositional Defiant Disorder. I want to teach Caleb things he needs to know. It's complicated by ADHD and ODD, and my health.
I went to bed with brain drain. I was just so tired, and that conversation left me even more so. I cannot meet other people's expectations of what home school should be like. I don't try to anymore. I have learned the hard way that Caleb's homeschooling is about Caleb growing and learning, however that may happen for him. If teachers who are paid to teach, and educated in teaching can't get Caleb to work at school, in the classroom using their methods, what makes anyone think I will be successful doing the same things?
I am not educated in teaching methods, and I have an exceptional student. I also have a home to run, and health problems. I was struggling when Caleb was in school more than I am now. When Caleb was in school, everyday their was a note sent home about some problem one or more teachers was having with Caleb. I cut out the bullshit. If Caleb is going to create problems, not do his work, and and find ways to escape class, he may as well do that at home. At least we have been working on his mental health. He has made progress, and is less violent than when school started in August. He has graduated Occupational Therapy.
It is easier for me to keep to myself than it is to explain why we do things differently around here. The whole point of homeschooling is to not have to subscribe to traditional teaching routines and methods. I have to do what is right for my family. I have to do what is right for me and my health, and I have to do what is right for Caleb and his health. Health is more important than school status and grades.
I only say these things because my Aunt Lisa is not the only one who asks questions and is concerned. No one can really understand where I am coming from without walking in my shoes, or in Caleb's shoes. I don't need to explain myself, but I care about my Aunt Lisa, and what she thinks. It stresses me out to put in the hot seat about my son's education. Sometimes I want to ask those with questions, "Don't you think I know?" Don't you think I know I am struggling? Don't you think I know we are failing? Don't you think I realize that Caleb is behind?
Failing 6th grade is not the end of the world. Nothing has been easy for any of us this passed 12 months. Give us a break.
Caleb is a free-form student being taught free- range. When he asks how to spell something, I say "Sound it out." When asks me a question, I say "Look it up." I have already detailed the things he has accomplished so far. He is now cooking on his own on the stove. He is beginning to hand wash dishes, and use the laundry washer and dryer for himself. He continues to do chores around the house. He goes to therapy and his psychiatrist. He is learning to take care of his body with personal hygiene. He is learning to care for Bella, and not do things that bother her. He is watching me write everyday. He is watching me read books. He is watching me and learning from what he sees me do. I try to be a good example and role model. I do what I can.
I think things will be easier on us both once the cable is fixed. The cable has been out since before Halloween last year. It is easier for him to watch Discovery channel , National Geographic, Science Channel, or History Channel than to read.
Caleb has learned about alkaline water, distilled water, and tap water. He learned about diabetes and blood sugar in normal people versus blood sugar in diabetics. He is learning about dietary nutrition and making healthy choices. He is learning about weight management. He is learning about all my health problems as he watches me everyday. He is learning about his health problems, as he comes up with questions, and I answer them. He is learning about the pandemic, staying healthy, and being safe. He is learning about money, and why we don't have alot to spend. He is learning about how to spend our money wisely. He is learning about how to take care of a vehicle. He is learning how to take care of house plants. Hopefully we will be planting a vegetable garden this year. We have been saving bell pepper seeds to plant.
Quite frankly, if Trump can be President, there isn't much Caleb can't do.
I weighed in at 323.4lbs. Monday morning. That is down from 325lbs. the Monday before, and 327.8lbs. the Monday before that. So I lost 1.6lbs. I hope the weight loss continues. I have successfully been without soda for I think a week. I am planning on weaning myself from the nicotine in my e-juice. I am now vaping 6mg/ml and I will drop to 3mg/ml, and then to 0mg/ml and eventually quit vaping altogether.
I have been tracking my morning glucose levels, and am not satisfied with my readings. I have an appointment on Wednesday with Dr. Karels, the VA pharmacist who specializes in diabetes. I know I need more medication to manage my blood sugar. I have been eating low carb for some days now. No bread, pasta, rice, or potatoes for me. I am also trying to keep in mind the sugary vegetables and fruits.
I am waiting for the Army investigator to call me. It should by any day now.
Midmonth February I will have one of my credit cards paid off completely. It is a store credit card that will likely never need to be used again.
I am still waiting for my stimulus check to arrive in the mail. I owe Aunt Lisa the $150 she loaned me so I could replace my car battery in the Mazda.
Caleb and I unwrapped my crystal set that finally arrived. I felt different with them in front of me. The next day I felt sick being in their presence. I had them in a box next to my chair. I decided that I needed to do something, so I did. I took each crystal in my hand, one by one, and welcomed them to my home. I blessed them and returned them to the box where I am storing them for now. The energy shifted. I no longer feel different around them. They may have picked up energy along the way to my house. It was a long trip from China where they were shipped from.
My Yankee candles arrived too. I now have one white candle, one gray, one black, and 3 blue-green. All of them were bought either on sale or on clearance. Proud savvy shopper here!
I am eating more of that chicken breast than I intended. Caleb can be so picky sometimes. He is going to get into trouble eating a carb-only diet. I try to influence him to eat healthy choices, but he is stubborn.
I pre-ordered the Labyrinth movie tarot set from amazon! It should ship in July.
I am behind in my Awakened Soul Coven studies. I feel like I wasn't home much last week. I spent alot of time helping other people. I drove Billy G. around on Monday. I drove Donna around on Tuesday. I was exhausted on Wednesday. I think I may have gotten some of my own things done Thursday.
I really need to watch the latest of Ethony's videos because this month is about boundaries. For sure. I need it. I give everything I have and have nothing for me.
I haven't been reading my book because I have been too tired. I just need to not be around other people for a few days, or something. I need to recover.
I got my Swanson Vitamins order in the mail. I started taking the Prebiotic and Probiotic right away. The other things were just refills of my normal daily supplements for pain.
I am waiting for news that they are giving the Covid-19 vaccine to my priority group so I can get mine ASAP. I do not know when I will be able to get it. Some of my facebook veteran friends have already gotten their first shots.
I'm wearing a pair of jeans and a t-shirt from Lane Bryant today. That's news in itself. I just haven't been feeling like wearing my good clothes for one reason or another. I felt good about wearing them yesterday though.
Today Caleb has an appointment with his therapist in the afternoon. I am waiting to get paid today so I can pay the rest of my bills. That is all that is on the schedule for today. Caleb is supposed to do some reading today. I want him to report to me what he learned.
I need to wash some laundry, and some dishes, but what else is new? I need to pick up more trash from the floor. I need to get the bathroom cleaned from top to bottom. We will see. Hopefully I feel awake when I get up later. It is 5:30 a.m. now. I need to take my iron pill and orange juice and go back to bed. I just checked my account and the deposit is not there yet. Paying the bills will have to wait until I get back up.
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