Today's prompt is " What was your last great meal?" Yesterday's lunch at San Felipe Mexican restaurant of shrimp chimichanga.
It is now 5:44 a.m. and I am so thirsty that I drank my whole 2.2. liter jug of water already. Yesterday was a good day for Caleb. It was his 12th birthday! Yesterday morning, Donna dropped by and brought Caleb his presents from her and her kids. He loved everything in the bag she brought over. He had already opened the gifts I got for him around 2 in the morning. He was wearing his unicorn onesie and new shoes.
I tried to take the morning slow, and not rush anything. I took a shower, and while I was almost done, felt a strange feeling, and saw an image of a one piece xylophone, I think is what it is called. I squatted down, under the shower water to make sure that if I fell, I would not fall far. I waited for about a minute before resuming my shower. I just felt weird and out of place all of a sudden. I did not like the feeling.
Anyway, I finished my shower, and did my normal routine of cooling and drying off. I decided to wear "real" clothes today, and kind of dress up. I am wearing black loose slacks that are very comfortable, with a sleeveless black top with yellow and white flowers on it. I wanted to wear my hair down, but felt too hot right away, so I pulled it back into a pony tail. I look nice!
Caleb did not want to take a shower. He just wanted to wear his unicorn onesie and go! LOL So, I took him out to eat a chimichanga at San Felipe Mexican restaurant for lunch. He ordered two lunch plates of shrimp chimichanga! I ordered one lunch plate of shrimp chimichanga, one beef burrito, and one chicken quesadilla. Their food is small servings, so I had to order extra to make sure I did not leave hungry. It was all good! We had a good time. The waiters sang happy birthday to Caleb in Spanish and in English and brought Caleb a sopapilla! It was awesome! He really liked it!
From there, I went to see if we could pick up Caleb's prescription from CVS. There were too many cars in line to be able to get it in time, so i drove over to Lowe's Foods, because I thought they had an ATM inside. They did not. By that time, it was time to start driving to Caleb's occupational therapy appointment. So that's what we did. We got there about 15 minutes early, enough time to digest.
Caleb enjoyed us singing "Happy Birthday" to him. Brittini, his therapist, bought him a small cake to share with the 2 of us. He was surprisingly too full for cake though, so she wrapped it back up for later. She presented him with a graduation certificate for occupational therapy. Caleb was given a card and inside it was a walmart gift card ! Caleb then had alot of fun showing me all the ways to play in the activity room. I took some short videos and posted them on Facebook.
After that, Caleb was begin to wind down. After all, he had been awake since 1 in the morning. I decided to go into a different Lowe's Foods because I was soo thirsty and had run out of drinks in the Mazda. I went in just to buy some Diet Dew. From there, we decided to go to Walmart. I could buy Dew at a better price there, and Caleb could spend his gift card. So we went, and did just that. I could have stopped at CVS again on the way back, but it was getting late, and dark, and I wanted to be home already.
We got home and connected with Aunt Lisa, Max, and Mariel for Caleb's birthday. Mariel set up a Stream account for Caleb and she and Aunt Lisa put some money for him to buy some games to play too!
Not much later after getting off the phone with Mariel, I got an email stating that Peggie Bartolotta had email me on AncestryDNA. I hesitated to look at it. I did not want to ruin my day. Basically she replied to my request for help and said the only person she could think of who is a male, about 38 years old, and was in the Army, was Jamie McCurry, and she had talked to him, and he wanted me to call him. They left me a phone number to call. I was hesitant to call it, but I did it anyway. We talked on the phone for a few minutes. He seemed very kind. He did not attempt to hurt me. He asked for my facebook page, and I browsed at his. We do not recognize eachother. Of course, I told him, I look nothing like I did 12 years ago.
I did ask Jamie if he would be willing to take an AncestryDNA test, but he didn't seem like he was willing to do that.
Later I talked to my Aunt Lisa about my feelings surrounding finding Caleb's father, and the means I am willing to take to make that happen. Turns out that even though I am angry things happened the way they did, I am not willing to subject myself to the harassment by court officials and officers of the law to prove who Caleb's father is, and bring him to justice. Turns out I am only willing to go so far. It has been easy on me to wait passively for relatives to appear on the DNA apps we use. I do not have to do anything more than I have already done.
I decided to pull a tarot spread called the "Lunatic" Spread. It was interesting and I wrote more about it in my Mirror Book.
I chatted with Stella until I was ready for bed. It had gotten to be after 9:30 p.m., way passed my bed time before I realized how tired I was feeling. I wished her a Happy New Year's and went to bed.
I got my new "Empath Protection" necklace in the mail. The one with more than one crystal in it. I am still waiting for the black tourmaline necklace to arrive. I put it on immediately. I have been eating pork rinds all night and am burping the flavor back up. Pretty gross. They were nice an crunchy though. I don't usually eat them, but knew I wanted crunchy and salty for snack.
I heard loud bangs around 10 p.m., and forgot that people would be having fireworks. It caught me offguard. I thought it was Caleb.
Bella followed me out of bed this morning. Caleb is asleep in the living room. He needs sleep. We are both sensitive to lack of sleep.
I read more of my book the other day, but was too tired to write about it. So I am reading "The Empath's Survival Guide", by Judith Orloff, MD.
Some of the common challenges listed are :
Becoming overstimulated
Absorbing the stress and negativity of others
Feeling things intensely
Experiencing emotional and social hangovers
Feeling isolated and lonely
Experiencing emotional burnout
Coping with increased sensitivity to light, smell, taste, touch, temperature, and sound
Expressing needs in intimate relationships
"What makes an empath's overload symptoms worse?"
Fatigue
illness
rushing
traffic
crowds
loud environments
toxic people
low blood sugar
arguing
overwork
chemical sensitivities
too much socializing
feeling trapped in overstimulating situations such as parties and cruises
"What makes an empath's overload symptoms better?"
using protections strategies
Dr. Orloff goes into "Shielding Visualization for Empaths" and "Grounding and Earthing Visualization."
"Am I a Physical or Emotional Empath?" I answered "yes" to the following questions:
Physical Empath:
Have you ever sat next to someone in pain and started to feel pain too?
Do I get physically ill in crowds?
Do I get energized by some people and depleted by others?
Do I frequently go to doctors without getting treatments that help?
Am I chronically fatigued, or do I have mysterious and unexplained ailments?
Do I often feel exhausted by crowds, preferring to stay home?
Is my body sensitive to sugar, alcohol, and processed foods?
Emotional Empath:
Do I get an emotional hangover after an argument or a conflict?
Do I feel depressed or anxious in crowds?
Do I want to fix people and take away their stress?
Can I intuit other people's feelings, even when they are unexpressed?
Is it hard to distinguish other people's emotions from my own?
Do I care so much about others that I neglect my own needs?
Do I overeat to cope with difficult people or emotional stress?
"Five or more yeses indicate that you are definitely that type of empath." So I am both a Physical and Emotional Empath.
Dr. Orloff offers "14 Strategies to Combat Toxic Energy" and they are :
1) Ask Yourself, "Is this symptom or emotion mine or someone else's?"
2) Breathe and repeat this mantra, "Return to sender. Return to sender. Return to sender."
3) Step Away from what is disturbing you
4) Limit physical contact; hugs are a choice
5) Detox in water
6) Set limits and boundaries
7) Visualize cutting a cord between you and the other person
8) Plan alone time to regroup
9) Spend time in nature and practice Earthing
10) Get plenty of sleep and take power naps
11) Take breaks from being online
12) Clearing tips for traveling
13) Practice the Three-Minute Heart Meditation
14) Be fully present in your body
Well, that covers chapter 2. I think I will stop there for now. I have read to the middle of Chapter 4 already, but am getting tired and still have to take my iron pill and orange juice. It is now 7:11 a.m. here, and it is getting lighter outside. I hope today is a colder day than yesterday. I was wearing pants for practically the first time this season and it was 70 degrees outside! I was hot! Can't trust the weather around here. It's freezing one day and hot the next.
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