Today's prompt is "What's your simplest pleasure?" Cuddling with Bella.
It is now 2:28 a.m. here. Yesterday was a busy and productive day. I had my alarm set for 8:00, but when it went off, I had really just settled into bed and was falling asleep. I did not want o get up. I got out of bed about 20 minutes later to eat breakfast and take my medications. Caleb woke up, and I gave him his medications. I told him to gather his things, and to get ready to go. I gave Bella water, and added the chicken thighs to the crockpot. We ended up leaving the house earlier than planned. It was not even 9:30 when we left. I brought Caleb to Alisa's house. It was dark and gloomy outside and looked like rain. I drove to Wilmington to go to my VA appointments. There was a long line to get screened for Covid-19 to be able to enter the building. Upon my turn, I was told that I could not go to my other appointments, and that I must be be tested for Covid-19 first. I was sooo frustrated. My Covid-19 test was not scheduled until 2:30, and I had three other things I had to do before then. I got directed to the testing site, and told the tester my concerns. She helped me reach my providers to figure what to do. I was then told that the test results should be completed within 2 hours, and I would know before my 1:30 appointment if I could go inside the building or not. So, I had 2 hours to figure out what to do. I drove to the Arby's parking lot on Market Street, and ate my lunch I packed. I tried to call Billy, but he did not answer. Eventually I got a response from him. I figured if I had the time to waste, I may as well take him to pick up his check , and get it cashed.
When I got to Billy's house, I only 1 hour left. We went to pick up his check, and cash it. I took him to the gas station to buy some cigarettes, and to the pharmacy. At the pharmacy, I got a call from the Women's Clinic nurse with my Covid-19 test result. I tested negative. I brought Billy and Nikki home, and went back to the clinic.
I had to go through the screening again, and this time I was allowed to park and go inside. I went to my appointment to see the Women's Clinic nurse. I was there to have my blood pressure tested. I had to answer questionnaires that are required annually. I asked about the weird rash under my left breast. We agreed to try something like the powder spray I use to use to keep dry for a week, and the report the results back to her.
My next appointment was with the neurology nurse at 2:00. I let her know I was no longer concerned about the medication causing weigh gain, since I had been able to successfully lose over the last 3 weeks. I also mentioned that I was concerned about something that happened on the way to the clinic. I was driving on Market Street towards the clinic, like I always do, and I lost track of where I was, or why I was where I was. It did not last long, but I did not like that it happened. I told her about my concerns about not being able to remember things. She tested my cognitive function, and I tested perfectly. She said we will monitor it to make sure there are no changes, and also it is not uncommon for people to drive and end up where they intended, and not remember how they got there if they had other thing son their mind, or were stressed.
The last thing I had to do at the clinic was to have my labs taken. I had blood drawn and a urinalysis. I did not have to wait for anyone to go ahead of me, and I was thankful for that because the change in the schedule meant I was going to come home later than expected. I had food cooking in the crockpot on high, and I wanted to get home as soon as possible. I also needed to let Bella outside to do her business. And of course, I needed to pick Caleb up from Alisa's house.
I had been keeping contact with Alisa all day, so she knew what was going on as it was happening. I did not know how things would turn out, or when I would come home when the schedule changed due to Covid testing needing to be completed first.
I picked Caleb up and came home around 4 something. Dinner was ready. Everything was fine. Bella was laying on the couch waiting for us to come home. It was rainy all day, and so I am sure she would not have gone outside anyway. She hates the rain.
I decided to bring a sample of my dinner to Alisa at her work. I hope she enjoyed it. I ahd not tasted it before I gave to her. I came home and had dinner. It was spicy and delicious. Caleb does not like spicy so he did not eat it, but there were leftovers from the night before that he could have eaten if he was hungry. I took my medications, and Bella waited impatiently for her dinner. She tried to rush me, but I can't be rushed after I take all those medications. I have to sit for a few minutes, and let thing settle. I made her the last of the chicken livers, veggie and ginger root mix, and kibble for dinner. I made sure she had lots of clean water to drink. I waited for her to finish her meal, and was ready for bed. Caleb went and checked the mail one last time. I received the stimulus check in the mail!
On one hand, it was good. It did not go to someone else. On the other hand, it was bad, as it was not lost and I could have deposited then if I had not filed my taxes saying that I did not receive my stimulus check. So, now I have a check that I cannot deposit. Great. Meanwhile, Aunt Lisa is probably waiting like WTF Jennifer?! Oh man. I feel bad about that, but I didn't know. I also wanted to be sure that my direct deposit information was on record so that if future payments were made, they would be direct deposited instead of mailed.
I did not realize how much my back was hurting until I laid down in my bed. I did not wait long to have Caleb take his night time medication. It was only around 6:30 p.m. when we settled for the night. I was dead tired. Exhausted.
I weighed in yesterday morning and lost weight. I think I have lost like 5 pounds so far. I'm excited about that. I want to get under 300 lbs. and stay under 300 lbs. If I can lose 10% of my body weight, I will qualify for bariatric surgery. I do not know that I want to do that because I don't want to live on a mouse's portions to be healthy. I want to lose weight on my own. I want to get fit on my own. I know I can do it. I have done it before. I was very successful before. I looked and felt awesome. I loved my body. I can't wait to shed this belly.
The AT&T cable guy is going to be here between 8:30-9:30 a.m. today. Once that is done, I don't know what I will do. It depends on if I am still tired. I may need to rest for the day. I could start the laundry up again. I need to get Caleb to put the dishes away and bring the trash and recycling bins to the house. I don't feel like I will have the energy to do any deep cleaning today. I need to waft some sage smoke over me for sure, and light a blue-green candle for healing.
I did not read any of my book. I brought it with me, but stayed busy, so I did not read.
Tomorrow I have two back to back dental appointments at the VA clinic. I will bring Caleb with me and he will wait in the car for 2 hours. I told Billy that I should be able to take him to get groceries since I will be in Wilmington. He pays for my gas, when I take him places.
I looked over my budget yesterday morning. In mid February I will be making the final payment on my new bed. I will have paid in time to not accrue interest. I am happy about that. It was not easy. At the beginning of February I will complete a series of interest-free payments. So that will be more of my money that I get to keep. I should get my tax refund (stimulus deposit) in the beginning of March since the IRS is not accepting tax returns until February 12th this year.
I am trying to figure out the best way to allocate the stimulus check to get the most benefit out of it. I owe Aunt Lisa $150 first. Then I have to pay the credit card back for the inspection, taxes, and registration for the Mazda. Then I have to buy Bella's next dose of Bravecto flea and tick medication. I think I will hold onto the remainder so I do not have to ask for grocery money help, or use my credit cards to buy groceries, at least while it lasts.
There is this Army veteran guy who wants to get to know me better. We chat every so often, and then he ghosts me. I am not for that. I need stability. Besides, when we chat, I am the only one with something to say. He responds with "ok baby" or "lol." I need more than that. We live relatively close to eachother, but far enough away that I am not going to see him anytime soon. The least he can do is have a decent conversation online. He says he is more talkative in person. He will never get the chance to see me in person if he doesn't open up online. Our "relationship" is going to be a distant one if one at all, and he needs to act like it. I am not a mind reader. I will not bear the burden of a relationship where I am the only one involved. Shit. I can talk to myself without any help!
I'm thirsty like the desert. I have no more water in my jug. I took my iron pill and orange juice around midnight when I got up then. I don't know why I can't sleep through the night. It's frustrating because I need sleep. I need more sleep than the average person because I am sensitive and because of pain and disabilities.
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