Wednesday, December 16, 2020

5 Year Journal Day 204

     Today's prompt is "Where do you go for good ideas?" Depends on what kind of good ideas, but usually Aunt Lisa, Mom, or Violet these days. 

     It is now 1:10 a.m. on Wednesday. Yesterday was a pretty good day. I did not wake up in pain. We took our medications on time in the morning. I paid the bills right away. I was able to buy Bella's food. Caleb went for a walk, and I played music and cooked and cleaned. I picked up two bags of trash and/or recycling from the living room floor. I made Caleb some hard boiled eggs like he wanted. I prepped dinner and started cooking in the crockpot on time. I made a new dish that I call "Chili cabbage and boneless pork loin." Caleb liked it. I thought it turned out tasty. That was just my morning!

     After I had lunch, Caleb and I went out to pay the water bill, mail gifts at the post office, and go to Lowe's. I found the "grow" light bulb that Violet told me to try for my lack of sunshine problems. I found a homeowner's toolkit that I wanted, and Caleb bought some rechargeable batteries. 

     It was a busy and productive day. I did not get as far as I wanted to on the living room, but I will try again today. Caleb put the Christmas tree up on its stand for me. I want to clear the area around it to be able to put presents. 

     I need to water the plants and give them a chance to feel the new lamp bulb. 

    I lit some candles and some incense before I started cleaning. I like to do that. 

    I could not connect with Violet because her phone was acting up.

    I realized that I left some people out of my gift list unintentionally. I want to make something for them, and get it sent out as soon as possible. 

     I called Granny and Pepere yesterday morning to let them know what I did with the $20 they sent us in the card, in the package. I put it in Caleb's college savings plan. I was excited! I have not been able to put money away for Caleb in many years. Now, they have a way to share a link to make deposits to his account so others can contribute too. 

     Caleb just woke up.

     I had my appointment with my Primary Care Provider. I feel like she listened to my concerns and helped me understand things better. I asked about having my cortisol levels tested. There was no need to do that because she believed that I do have elevated levels of cortisol. She said the things I do to reduce the chronic inflammation help that too. I asked about changing my medication from Metformin to something safer long term, and she said that Metformin is the safest option long term that is available. I spoke to her about my weight problem. She was willing to refer me to a pharmacist who specializes in diabetes to ask her about what could be done to both control my glucose, increase my insulin, and reduce my weight. My blood pressure medication is being changed to something that may help with my facial hair, as well as my blood pressure. I asked about my painful periods, and nothing can be done about that, since I am already taking naproxen. I spoke with her about what I was thinking about changing my seizure and fibromyalgia medication to non-Lyrica. She basically said that we will not know how it is affecting me until we try something different. I asked her about HPV testing because I was supposed to see her for a PAP smear last April and it got cancelled. She put an order in for an appointment so that when the clinic reopens for in-person visits, I will have it done. I thanked her for sending me the nasal spray. 

     While I see that I am gaining weight, she looked at my records and saw that since October of 2019, I have only gained 1 lbs. She said I should be proud because that was an accomplishment. I told her how much my weight has fluctuated this year, and that I am trying to lose weight. I told her how I am moving more and stretching almost daily in the mornings. I told her that I really want to walk more, but that I have a block to it. She said that the best thing to do is to do it early in the morning, and that I would likely stick with it, if it was the first thing I did. 

     I asked about bariatric surgery. She says that one of the requirements for bariatric surgery is to lose 10% of my body weight. I would have to lose 33 lbs. first to be considered for surgery. I can't manage to lose weight and keep it off. I don't know how my grandpa managed to have bariatric surgery. I wonder how he lost his weight. I wish I could ask him.  

     I think we covered everything I needed to talk to her about. 

     I called the neurologist office to schedule an appointment and was told that the scheduler would have to call me back.

     I got an email about the Covid-19 vaccine from the VA. I submitted the form to let them know I would want to take the vaccine. 

     Today, I have no appointments, and neither do Caleb or Bella, so I am going to try to spend the day at home. I have alot of cleaning to do around here. 

     The weather has been dark and grey outside. It's hard to work with no sunshine. I find it harder to get moving when there is no sunlight coming into the house. Hopefully this new light bulb will help me through that. 

     I want to try to read the instructions to replace the knob in the shower again. I didn't understand what the instructions were saying the first couple of times I read them. I don't know that I will be able to replace the knob myself if I don't understand what I am supposed to do. 

     Christmas is just around the corner. Time passes so fast. We are going to Donna's house on Christmas Day to have dinner with them. I bought a very small ham to cook for the holidays. I think we will have it with collard greens, kale, and spinach mixed. I have to find black eyed peas too.

     I have a vision of a craft that I would to create. It involves small crystals. Violet is going to help me since she has so many crystals. 

     I have not been active with Ethony Dawn's group lately. I guess I been kinda out of it. I need to catch up on what's going on, so I don't miss anything important. 

     We have been chosen by Minority Veterans of America to receive Christmas gifts! I am so excited! I found out a couple of hours ago.

     The rest of the week should be pretty easy. I have to learn to relax more about food. I am trying to not stress about it. We are ok. We will be ok. If we are not ok, I know who to call. I need to calm down. I am so stressed, and there is no need to be. 

     I started listening to 1111Hz music from a link that was posted. I listened to it for a few minutes and felt very uncomfortable. It was supposed to be a "spiritual angelic hug." I decided to listen to Solfeggio frequency music in bed. I need headphones to get the full effect, but it was nice. I have not listened to Solfeggio frequency music since Caleb was about 5 years old. 

     I am going to be listening to Solfeggio frequency music more often as well as binaural beats to meditate to. I want to see what effect they have on me. They are supposed to really helpful. 

     So something embarrassing happened when I went to Lowe's today. I had to use the bathroom. I chose the first open stall to use. I could barely sit on the toilet seat because either I am just too big, or the walls of the stall were too damn close together. I hit myself on the trash can on the wall to the right. I hit myself on the toilet paper dispenser to the left. I did not know that I needed to poop, but I did... alot. I was almost unable to reach the toilet paper because I could not get my arm around the dispenser to pull it out. Then, when I had the toilet paper, I could not wipe! I could not spread my legs at all to reach! OMG. I was going to have to leave with a poop butt. The bathroom is at the back of the store, and I still had to check out. So, yeah, that happened. I should have used the handicap stall. 

     I just hoped I didn't smell to other people as I passed them by, or at the check out counter. I could not wait to get home to get myself cleaned up. 

     It is now 2:28 a.m. here. I guess I better to get work on our wishlists.

     

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