Today's prompt is "Today was unusual because ." Yesterday was unusual because I had t sleep so much. I was just too tired to do anything.
It is now 4:52 a.m. here. Yesterday I could not get anything anything done. I slept in until about 10:00 or so and just couldn't get moving. I was just too tired. I stayed awake for a few hours, but eventually went back to sleep. I don't know why I am so exhausted. I did make our New Year dinner. I had to cook it earlier than expected because I bought the greens on impulse and did not want them to go bad before I could cook them. I make ham, greens (collard greens, kale, and spinach), and black eyed peas with onions, ginger root, and seasonings. The greens are to attract money in the New Year, and the black eyed peas are to attract good luck.
Dinner was delicious. We ended up going out to Food Lion so I could buy some Dew. I know, I know. I was not supposed to buy Dew, but understand that this has been a habit for a long time. Also, the water tablets I bought are effervescent, and not that good. They are not a suitable replacement for the Dew.
Today is Christmas Eve, and I am still tired. I might have to spend most of the day in bed again. I think I have just accumulated alot draining events this month. I have run myself ragged trying to get people cards and gifts. I have been stressed out about finances and being able to buy food. I was trying to quit drinking soda. I am still on my period. My body was aching and sore yesterday. I slept with my far infrared ray emitting blanket on me last night. That seemed to help with the pain.
Bella followed me out of the bedroom and is laying next to my chair. She's such a sweet girl.
Caleb is sleeping on the living room floor on the couch cushions.
He asks me everyday, "How many days until Christmas?" LOL I tell him to look at his calendar on his phone and count the days. I never give him the answer.
We have presents under the tree and I am grateful. We have some bills paid down and I am grateful. We will be able to get rid of one load of furniture from the property on January 1st, and I am grateful. Caleb will have a small birthday celebration with his therapist, and I am grateful. I am thankful for all these things.
I have been listening to chakra healing music and think that might be having an effect on me too. I have alot of blockages, and alot of healing to do. I am sure that healing comes at a cost for me. I am a HSP (highly sensitive person) after all.
I would like to stay in bed and read. The cooking is already done. The cleaning can wait until after Christmas. I think I should rest as much as possible while there are no appointments, and no where to go.
My mom sent a card for Caleb, and it has not arrived yet. She is not happy about that because she sent it the day before I sent her my gifts. It should be here by now. She has already received my package. I do not know where the mail is.
I gave Caleb an early Christmas present yesterday. It was a pink unicorn stuffed animal, a big one to cuddle with. He likes unicorns, and did not care that it was pink. It was the last one available when I bought it. He is sleeping with it now.
I have to remember that he needs to have some presents to open on his birthday. I will have to save some from under the tree and put them away, because I am not spending any more money on gifts.
I have been chatting with Kathleen. Her grandpa has been diagnosed as Covid positive, and her grandma might be too. She is heartbroken that they might not survive it.
I have been chatting with Stella. We shoot the breeze when we catch eachother online.
I check in with Billy every couple of days or so. I just want somebody to shoot the shit with sometimes, and I knw he is always available.
Donna was not happy about me not being to afford to buy pies. I totally did not take anything she said personally because it is not something I volunteered to do. She asked me to do it because I did it for Thanksgiving. I bought 2 pumpkin and 2 apple pies for Thanksgiving, along with cool whip and vanilla ice cream. It was not cheap. I did not eat any of it. I'm diabetic, and while I do consume too many carbs, I try to stay away from things I know have sugar in them.
I volunteered to bring those things for Thanksgiving. I was asked to bring those things for Christmas. Well, I bought cards, and gifts, and had things shipped this month. My budget was stretched to begin with and then you add that to it, and it's no wonder I had no money for food!
She asked us to come over when Alisa, Clayton, and kids come over after Christmas for dinner. I do not think we will go. We were supposed to come over on Christmas Day originally. I did not really want to do that as the month passed. I am tired and in no mood to be social. I do not want to get Covid-19. The numbers are increasing daily of positive cases in NC. There is no reason to be one of them.
I just want to hibernate, like a Grizzly Bear. Just fill my belly, and let me sleep until I can't sleep anymore. Seriously. I need it.
The Winter Solstice has passed so we have passed the shortest day of the year, and are moving towards Spring. I like the cold and the sun together. I do not look forward to the Summer. It gets too hot.
I have stopped using my daily notes spreadsheet to keep track of what I do during the day. Instead, I just write about it here. I should probably get back to using it, as it is a simple way to keep track of what I have done.
The kitchen is a mess. I have not kept up with the laundry. I need a laundry weekend. I need a kitchen clean up operation. I need a bathroom clean up operation. I need to clean my room. I need to clean the floors. Days go by, and I have been able to do absolutely nothing. I have not had a period in so long, I have forgotten what it is like. I should not be so tired. I take iron. I am not menstruating heavily.
I am drained. I am slow. I can not keep my eyes open. I need rest. I want to blog. I can not think of anything to write about. I have some budget chores to do, and I need to take my iron pill and orange juice.
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