Friday, October 23, 2020

5 Year Journal Day 154

      Today's prompt is "Should you trust your instincts?" Definitely.

     It is now 2:20 a.m. and I am awake because I was getting too warm, and losing space on the bed, about to fall off. The 3 amigos went to bed late last night because Caleb could not fall asleep. I was tired and went to lay down in bed around 6:30 last night. It takes me some time to wind down, even when I am tired because I am addicted to my phone. 

     Yesterday was the least productive day this week. I just could not function. I was too tired all day long. I was only able to take Caleb to his appointment, pick up his medication from the pharmacy, and I also ran out to get some bread earlier in the day. That was it. I had no energy. I could barely keep my eyes open. I felt like crap. It was just not my kind of day at all. 

     I chatted with some new friends on facebook messenger while I waited for Caleb's appointment. I heard about something called Moringa, and now I have to look it up. I want to try something from Swanson Vitamins for sleep, but I have to wait until I get paid again. 

     I sent my mom a text message letting her know that as much as I wanted them to visit, it was just not a good time because of the mess I am dealing with right now. I have not been able to move the old furniture out and I do not know when I will be able to do that because it costs money. It may not be a big deal to her, but it is a big deal to me. I am struggling to clean this place up without a deadline lurking over me. I don't need the added stress right now. I am working as hard as I can already. 

     I found a way to reuse the crockpot chicken and collard greens I made the other day, into a pasta sauce. I simply deboned the chicken and strained the both the chicken and the little bit of collard greens I used, and added a ready made jar of pasta sauce. I stirred them up and heated in the microwave for a few minutes and added the pasta I cooked! It wasn't great, but it was better than throwing away a whole chicken and 2lbs. of collard greens! So, I am proud of myself for thinking about how to eat the food that I made that did not turn out how I planned. 

     We were supposed to have our lawn mowed yesterday, but Jonathan totally forgot about it! LOL He is a good man, and has helped up all year with the lawn for 2 years now. I told him it worked out for the best because I was tired and wanted to go to bed early. He is coming over today.

     I have no appointments today! Woop! Woop!

     The hematology office called yesterday and scheduled my appointment for December. 

     I emailed my PCP and was told to make notes of all the things I wanted to discuss, and discuss them at my appointment December 23! WTF?! It's October ! I am having trouble sleeping now! I need to quit vaping now! Why do I have to wait? This is fucked up.

     I haven't put my custom insoles and lift into my new diabetic shoes yet, but I will. I think these shoes I am wearing have more miles on them then they are supposed to because I only had one pair of walking shoes. The other pair of diabetic shoes are dress shoes, Mary Janes. 

     It's Friday! I made it through the harsh week I had! I am hoping to sleep in this morning. I feel better now, then I did yesterday morning when I was blogging. 

     I think Fernando and his new wife, Lydia, are leaving for Brazil today. The week got away from me and I forgot that was happening this week. I thought it was happening next week still, but that was last week. 

     Bella followed me out here and is sleeping on the couch, curled up like the angel she is. Caleb is sleeping on my bed, taking more than his fair share of it. LOL These kids. 

     I don't know how today is going to play out. I have laundry to get done, trash to pick up and take out, dishes to wash, etc. etc. The list is never ending. If I can work hard today, I will take the weekend off. I also need to take a shower in the worst way. I was going to take one yesterday, but was too tired to get up and move. 

     I am drinking my last Dew for the morning. I am tired. I want to take Bella back to bed. There wasn't much to report. I was pretty much walking in a daze all day. I was zombified due to exhaustion. Hopefully today will be better. I am going to bring  a Gatorade Zero to bed with me because I drank all my drinks I had beside the bed. I stay thirsty. 

     

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