5 Year Journal Day 164

      Today's prompt is " Is something in your way? Can you move it?" Well, I am trying to lose weight, and what is in my way is my hunger. I am trying to reduce my appetite with supplements, but have taken a break from them over the weekend because I was just too tired to deal with all the pills and directions. 

     It is now 3:42 a.m. and I have been waking up every couple of hours tonight. I don't know why I can't just sleep through the night like everybody else. Yesterday I wanted to make grits and sausage for breakfast, so Caleb and I went to Walmart. He stayed in the Mazda while I went in and shopped. I felt free, and began to look around for non-breakfast items that were also on my mental shopping list. I wanted to see if I could find things cheaper in Walmart than on Amazon. I was able to find some things I needed. I also wanted to figure out how much Caleb's Christmas presents were going to cost. It made no sense to me to just take down the cost when I was shopping alone, so I put the items in the cart thinking I could pay for them with a credit card, knowing I did not have the cash to pay for them. After I collected the things I knew he wanted for Christmas, because we had already discussed it together on a different shopping we trip, I found that my credit availability was too low to afford the presents. I text my Aunt Lisa and asked her what should I do. I did not want to put the presents back, as I never shop without Caleb, so this was the best time to get them. She was able to help me pay for the presents, thank goodness! 

     I had gotten an unexpected EBT deposit, and that is what prompted the trip to Walmart to begin with. I had money I could spend on food. I have never made grits on the stove before. It had been ages since I had grits at all. I almost never cook breakfast. I ended up buying some other groceries while I was there too. 

     When I got home, I went right to preparing breakfast. Caleb was upset that I was not making him pancakes. I can't eat pancakes with a clean conscience as a diabetic, and I was hungry too. 

     After I made breakfast, and ate, I was tired, and needed to rest. It was already 11:30ish when I sat down to eat. I really didn't do much more with my day. That took out the energy I had. It started to rain and that me want to stay in bed. Caleb even wanted more sleep. I did not pressure myself to clean at all. I was proud of myself for letting myself rest like I needed to. 

     Caleb made us frozen pizzas for dinner. I bought us cheese stuffed crust Di' Giorno pizzas as a treat. We hardly ever have pizza in this house, as it is "expensive" for us. 

     Bella is sleeping with Caleb in his own bed tonight. It has been a few nights since Caleb began sleeping in his own bed. 

     Here is a photo I took today. I penciled in my eyebrows and put eyeliner on. It makes a difference.

      I don't know. I just love this picture of me. I think I am going to put at least this much effort into my looks every day I can. 

     Today is Monday, and I weigh in later this morning. We have no appointments until Tuesday, so we will take it easy today. Caleb has to get some reading done, at least 30 minutes, and some work done on Adventure Academy, at least 30 minutes, as part of his homework to show his occupational therapist on Thursday. I want to help him with his math too, but it really depends on his attitude and behavior. 

     It's the beginning of November and we are already discussing Thanksgiving! I am going to make 2 apple pies, and 2 pumpkin pies, and bring some no sugar added vanilla ice cream and some cool whip to dinner. That is going to be my contribution to the big dinner that my friend Donna is going to put together. Even Caleb is asking when is Thanksgiving, like it is supposed to be next weekend or something! LOL

     Oh! Guess what? I found cheap essential oils to put in the diffusers at Walmart. Only $5 each, AND they had cinnamon bark and cloves! Those are the ones I wanted for November and December! YAY! 

     I am getting some type of head cold or something that is making my sinuses congested, and making it harder to breathe through my nose. It sucks!

     My carpet cleaner delivery is due Tuesday, and so is my second bottle of carpet cleaner that is for pet stains. 

     I can feel the hairs growing back on my chin and neck, and am none too happy about that, but I knew it was going to happen eventually.

     I have been generally pain-free with the use of these supplements for fibromyalgia symptom relief and back pain. I should be getting my belly/back brace soon too. I hope to get moving more soon. 

     I have not switched out my old diabetic shoes for the new ones yet. I just have not gotten around to it.

     Today I hope to hear from my PCP's office about how to get the records from the ER to both her and my neurologist. 

     I guess that is about everything.